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/ On my way to the library, on my approach on 32 street, someone threw something at my car! It hit the street and then hit the bottom of my car. Why do they pick on me? / Not feeling well.
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/ Went to Schwab office to set up the joint account, then went to library and found that the number one stock has jumped! It makes me angry! Then I could not log in!
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/ I went to Schwab to get check ($500) and about problem. Then to bank, then I went to buy an Omni wheel. It cost more than what she said on the phone. Then I went to library to put in my first new buys (3). Pain in right lower flank (sudden). Stupid people at lot 84 having a fight again. She took off at high speed in her car towards my car. / I cleaned the bathtub!
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Cooler is leaking again!!! / The scumbag kid with the faded red sport car who's been living at lot 84; he broke up with his girlfriend last night on the phone. His exact last words were: "Guess what?! Guess what?! It's over! Peace!" Today he runs her over with his car! I saw it happen. She was hanging on to the door, he took off, and she fell onto the street, then his left rear wheel ran over her left leg, I think above the knee. Then he stopped and got out and then chewed her out because it happened! {How is it that women are so very loyal to their guys, and I can't get a girlfriend?!}
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/ Worked on cooler. Put on new coating. This stuff seems far far better.
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/ I went to junk yard second time to get second wheel and fender panel and maybe grill. The grill was gone. I didn't get as pretty of wheel as I wanted; I got it off of "my neighbor's" Omni and the fender panel. I almost didn't get the fender panel because the last bolt - the last one, was a 13 instead of 10. I did not have a size 13 socket with me. So I was walking out without the panel, but then I heard a ratchet, so I followed the noise and the man let me borrow his size 13. So I got the fender panel also! / Man at lot "87" doing his dope again. Having a lot of stress on my neck tonight.
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/ Lot 84 having fight again. Neck is stiff.
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/ Neck is stiff today and tonight.
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/ Neck is sore and stiff.
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Belly getting large and heavy. / Took off rear wheels with the skinny tires and put on the wheels with tires that I got from junkyard -- 99,729 {Miles} Belly getting large why? Cashew nuts?
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/ Slept-pain in back for awhile. / I put in new fuel filter - ... It weighs ounces 1.25, the "old" one is 1.6.
--- 99,756 {miles}
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Puddypie has cough now, why? Not feeling well in belly. / Mother was very mean towards me when I got to her house tonight.
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/ Leaving the library early, I was about to cry over my stocks as I was walking out. There was a very great wind storm. As I was going home in the Omni in the right lane in heavy traffic, there came a "shopping" cart strolling across the street being pushed by the wind coming in front of the car next to me in the middle lane and then toward my car -- all the way across the street! That car slowed down suddenly so I did the same. Then I saw the cart and swerved. Then I "stepped on it" to get my car out of it's path. Then when I got home, I found a rock about where I park my car. It had been on my trailer roof to hold one of the blankets down. A few minutes prior I got home, the wind had catapulted the rock off my roof by using the blanket like a slingshot. It would have hit my car if I had gotten home a bit earlier.
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/ Getting dizzy sitting in library. Why?
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Belly getting large and tight.
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/ Mother nasty to me again tonight, she is sick.
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/ Pain in butt. / Omni -- changed oil ... 99,895 {Miles} Sting in chest.
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Strange dream...pink and purple candy in cereal...
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/ I first saw the strange Omni/Horizon tonight. It was a total mess, nearly every part of it damaged beyond repair. Parts have been taken off and some parts about to fall off. Who would do this to a great car like this? what a shame! And I paid to get parts from the junkyard from a car in better condition than this car is in! What happened to this car? It had something in the rear seat, but I did not see what it was. It has been tagged by the Police and has been sitting there awhile - at the park after the winding street north of Dunlap from 7 avenue going north. Does anyone care about this car? It's worth nearly nothing now! In the junkyard it will go. Loud mexican music playing all day.
SEPTEMBER 01
/ A cool day, so I took Puddypie to the library. It has rained much recently, and there were many gnats, large ones. One of them kept attempting to get into Puddypie's left ear. And I think it succeeded. I got worried about it so I squirted some water in his ear. I don't think that did any thing, so I went home and put the "ear cleansing solution" in both his ears.
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On my way home from Mother's house, going on 19 avenue, I crossed Thunderbird and then a car -- "SUV" - silver, Toyota? with at least 2 young guys in it came up very rapidly behind my car and started moving over to the left (I was in the middle lane) but not moving far enough, so I moved to the right. And as soon as they were in front of me, he moved over in front of me, again too close. I got angry and so I flashed my brights at them. Then they slowed down enough so I would pass them. Then when they were along side of me, the guy on the right was yelling at me -- what, I don't know. Then as he was yelling, the guy swerved over close to my car, so I swerved. Then the guy threw a container of beer at me. It hit my shoulder and beer splattered inside my car and it scared Puddypie (It's a cold night!). Then they went on ahead and then very soon turned into the apartments entrance about half way between Thunderbird and Greenway on the west side. So I continued on to the nearest phone at Greenway. I called the Police, they came. I did not get the license number so of course they did nothing. {Would they anyway?} What's wrong with these idiots who have a license??? / Do not feel well in belly. / {I kept passing by that poor decrepit Omni. So this night I stopped. There was a spare wheel inside the car, but wasn't a good one.} I did a really dumb thing, after looking at the car for a third time, I decided to get one wheel {from off the car with my jack} and to put on the spare {so that I wouldn't be leaving the car on 3 wheels}. But the Police showed up as soon as I started! {There when you don't want them, and not there when you do!} I attempted to explain about the car {it was totally abandoned and forsaken}, but he wanted to tell me why I shouldn't be doing what I was doing, and then he let me go. {I was very lucky, he was going to arrest me and take me away...} So I did not get the wheel. / I am not feeling well: first a dry mouth and thirstiness. Then feeling bad.
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/ I have a bit of a limp and getting a bit dizzy tonight. I had Puddypie with me at the library tonight, and as I was sitting, I saw something on my left hand about center between finger and thumb in the middle of top. It was a large mosquito full of blood! I hit it and blood got on both my hands. I don't know if the blood was mine {surely it was} or if she pierced me there on my hand.
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Not feeling well. first with cough and thirstiness, then a large belly.
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The Omni/Horizon is getting worse! Now someone has smashed the left rear light lens. What a shame! Now it is worthless and it decreases the value of the other one. And the grill is gone, but it wasn't worth anything anyway. And the orange sticker has been moved from the windshield (what's left of it) top left, to the bottom right. Why? / My hand (left) has been very itchy recently, about center between finger and thumb in the middle of top of hand. {The mosquito.}
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Right part of chest hurting. / Not feeling well, having trouble in chest with heart.
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The Omni/Horizon is gone. It will soon be in the junkyard. Spiderwoman has come home to lot 84. / Loud mexican music from lot 26 again? / Left hand is getting very itchy. After Mother slept awhile, she got up, came out, but she was an angry ogre complaining that I had left a few lights on. She was angry, and it made me angry. So it suddenly turned into a bad night for both of us. Is it worth it to her over a few lights? We argued. Then as I was packing up to go home after making my copies, getting my water and watching some television, I got very bad. Worse then limping, I could barely walk. Then after I ate the sunflower seeds from my car at "Fry's", I was much better. Why does she get like this? She is like a Jekyll and Hyde, nice and then an ogre. She is sick.
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Getting very tired. Could not get to sleep. / Having skin changing sensations while asleep! / Mexican music from the guy at lot 90 again. - From his truck. / Having more skin changing sensations while sitting in library. - Mostly legs.
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Sting in left mid flank. / Someone has done something to the computers at the library since last night, at least 9 and 10. The boxes had been moved and both 9 and 10 were on "site search" in "Hoovers" and number 9 was very slow. / Sting - mostly in lower left torso above left leg near bladder. First ever that I have had one of these stings in this area. Will it happen again on the right?
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I am very down and discouraged and sad and frustrated about stocks and Tiger and Boonie and my life in general - wishing that I had done more for Tiger (and Boonie) or could do it over again, and wishing that my life was better by now. I cried, thinking mostly about Tiger's last day here on this earth. - in 1989.
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Some days ago, where my right hand connects to the arm was sore for about a day. Then the same thing with the left hand was sore for about 3 days. For some days now, the Omni has started stalling again. I've been ignoring it hoping that it will go away. But it has been getting worse and worse to where the motor has been stalling constantly for days so that I need to use the parking brake to slow down so therefore some of the time I have no brake lights, although I downshift mostly. It is very annoying! What is wrong with my car? And why haven't any of the repair people been able to solve it? So I decided to set the low idle up some. I turned it up around 2 turns until it did not stall anymore. It can't be this easy can it?
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/ Stocks are doing very badly today, why? Very disappointing after Monday's hope. I fell down the steps tonight {of my trailer} while I was bringing Puddypie outside, but not hurt much. Computer number 9 is so slow now that I cannot use it. That leaves only number 10.
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Not feeling well late tonight, very thirsty. So I ate peanuts. Then, on my way home from the house, I had a pain in my head - I have had many of these pains in my head every once in awhile. / Not feeling well in library tonight. / Feeling unusually well.
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Having some trouble in abdomen tonight. / A very bad stock market day. And what makes it worse is that it should have been a good one because yesterday -- Thursday was a good one. Pulling out my scalp hair again -- a small bald spot at the rear left area next to my part. Not feeling well tonight and the soup did not help. And I had another head pain and it lasted longer than ever - maybe 15 seconds.
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The guy at lot "87" had some sort of fire in his trailer. There was a lot of smoke coming out when he came out coughing. / Loud mexican music again. Lot 26? / Later today, and early tonight, I kept hearing (other than mexican music) a kitten meowing. So I walked over to a few trailers south and found one tiny wet black kitten that had been meowing loudly for some time. {Why don't the crappy mexicans help the cats?} It was totally wet and it was in a bit of water because it seemed that there was a water leak. I did not see the water leak but there was water spraying several feet and onto the slab that the kitten was on. By the time I got out of my trailer, it was dark, so I needed my flashlight when I went looking for the cat.
No one seemed to be home at that trailer and no one was doing anything about the water leak or the cat, and the mother cat did not seem to be around. At first, when I hadn't seen the kitten yet, my attitude was that sooner or later the mother cat will come and take care of him or her. But I was getting ready to leave for MY mother's house and the cat kept meowing. So after I had seen the kitten, I thought about it and then decided to go and get the kitten. So I first made a double paper bag to put it in. Then I went to get the tiny wet black kitten and then found another; a tiny wet kitten that turned out to be a grey one when it was dry. {THESE WERE SWANKIE AND ZILA. Don't know which was the one whining, probably Swankie. I got them both and put them in the bag and then started putting tissues on them to help to dry them off. Then I went to the house and Mother fed them some milk. They were covered with fleas. Then they slept a long time. I guess they had gotten rather cold because they liked to be under the old towel that Mother got and we put them in a box with the towel. I have never known a cat to like that.
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I have been getting a soreness and achiness in my back recently, and it is noticeable tonight. After I got home, I was beginning to tend to the kittens when I heard a car skid and then boom! A car hit the wall on the other side, outside the park on the north end. I looked out the window and I saw bunch of smoke coming up. So I put my socks and shoes on again and went out there to see what I could do. Apparently, it was the victim of being a stolen car. It was a white Mercedes-Benz like the one the Lakins have. It had also sheared off a street sign and then hit the wall. But not much damage from what I could see, the front right corner had some damage. The motor had been left on and the operator's door left open. And there were 2 fold up knives inside, one on the seat (same) and a tiny one on the floor in front of it. And gloves in the rear. Puddypie has had fleas for some time, and now with the kittens, so I put on a new flea collar - purple. / This was the "first" pooping for the grey kitten {Zila.} The black kitten {Swankie (I named them both after stock market companies).} did "his" "first" urination sometime earlier. And about at this point, the black kitten
ate some of the canned food that I had put in last night. And whenever I make a sound with my voice, instead of calming them down, it gets them very excited. "First" urination for the grey kitten I think, very little. Awhile earlier, the black kitten urinated (third time?) -- a huge amount - on my bed sheet, but no odor. First time I have had them on my bed. I did not know there could be so much from a tiny body, the kitten must have a huge bladder. Not feeling well tonight (or today), I have some achiness again.
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I gave the kittens a soap "bath" - black one first {I favored Swankie from the beginning.} , after I gave them some more milk by dropper - there were a lot of fleas, but I do not know if it worked. I fixed up a small box inside the cage for the kittens with part of the old towel inside and outside for some coziness if they will discover it and use it as a covering to stay warm. They are very loud meowers when I speak. / After getting going late, I took the kittens to the veterinarian, but there was a different woman there. (First ever for the kittens.) Then after walking over to "Fry's" (same place) to get a money order (rent) I took the kittens home. Then got Puddypie and rushed to the library, but the new clutch cable that I put in busted!!! Stranded with Puddypie again! And I was going to take him to the library -- we did not make it. Got as far as east of 9 street east of "Officemax". I called "AAA" and then Mother, as usual; Mother could not help. Got towed home with Puddypie in the car - he did not like it. Being in a hurry to get to the library (if I can), after getting towed home, I walked to "Checker" and bought a new cable (different one this time). When I was about half way home, I ran out of fuel, walking very slow with a limp. With only an hour until the library closes, I went knocking on the Storms' door, to my surprise, Mister Storms was there and he took me to the library! {I was obsessed with going the the library, and it was doing nothing for me except wasting my effort. I wasn't making any money, but I thought I could, and so I kept going.} (I only got the 2 dailies sheets.) After being brought home from the library, I fed the kittens and then I put in the new cable (It took more than an hour so I would not have been able to get to the library.) Then I took Puddypie to "Fry's". After I took Puddypie to "Fry's", I bought goat's milk at "Safeway" for the kittens (and Puddypie).
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/ What's wrong with the stock market? It was bad yesterday and again today. I did very at the library considering that I hardly ate anything today. And there was a small wreak in front of the library in the construction zone between 2 cars after I had parked and was walking in. / When I was beginning to eat my can of pineapple fruit, the grey kitten was climbing around me. I decided to give the kitten a bit of a smell of what I was eating {A bad idea} . So I carefully lowered the can to the kitten and the kitten leaped in! And was hanging from the rim. This grey kitten is a leaping maniac! The other day, when I was standing in front of the cage that I put in the middle room, this cat took a flying leap at my chest and dropped to the floor! Like a cartoon character, the cat went straight out, and then straight down! And it doesn't matter if the cat can't make it, it will jump anyway. This cat has leaped several times at my face. And this cat likes to bite. It's a biter! And has a larger head and longer fur than the black kitten. The black kitten is gentle and is a good climber. The kittens like the goat's milk (and Puddypie). From almost immediately, the black kitten has been eating a bit of Puddypie's canned food {It caused the constipation?} (from "Trader Joe's"), but has not yet pooped up to this date! (T00I27Cante)
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The first that I had fed (goat's milk) to one kitten (black) without feeling the other. The grey kitten is conked out in front of the refrigerator. The black kitten is now becoming very playful. The grey grey kitten has not acted this way yet. And Puddypie is afraid of the kittens, like the elephant running from the mice! / The grey kitten is now getting playful. / After getting home from the library with Puddypie, I was feeding the kittens the goat's milk with the plastic eye dropper when suddenly it stopped working. I had not yet unloaded, so I took Puddypie to buy another one. I only found it at "Albertsons" - glass, blunt tip x 2.
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Why do I feel so bad? WHY DO I FEEL SO BAD!!! The black kitten first pooped, but only a tiny bit. I hammered head more than ever I think, maybe too much. But after the first 5 minutes, I was feeling much better! But at the end, my head was feeling strange when I moved my scalp with the scalp moving muscles. / {Strange dreams.} / The black kitten is having trouble pooping at this point. I attempted to help by pulling a bit off of the log that was stuck in his/her butt! / I think the black kitten pooped, finally!
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Having some pains in lower right flank - what's wrong? The sharp pains have returned, belly getting large. I must solve this. / Having trouble in belly again, what is the problem?
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A first; Puddypie played a bit with the black kitten! / Not feeling well. I hammered head again - lightly, and worked on head with hands. Feeling bad again. I hammered head again - did not help. / Having some pains in belly again. And not feeling well and not doing well and beginning to limp again.
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I got rid of 4 old tires tonight. Did not really want to, because they had good tread on them, but it only takes 1 thing wrong to make them useless. Left them at a station. Not feeling well and belly starting to get larger again. {Strange dream(s).} / Last night I noticed that lot 84 has shut their water off inside so that it no longer flows continuously any more. What's going on with the stock market ??? My bad stocks went up $249, while my good stocks went down??? It doesn't make any sense. And while I was at the library, Pat showed up. Pat stinks so much that it is difficult to sit next to him. He told me what (he?) had done. Then later Pete came in and gave to me a brochure. And I told him that I have nearly died waiting for it. Then he said that he certainly did not want a death on his hands. Then Airen (?) came by and asked me how my kittens were doing. I told her that when I got them, they were skinny, but now their bellies are plump. She told me that she has 2 cats, and that they are "fat". Not chubby but "fat". But at the end, Pete did not want to sit and talk. Then, when I got to my car, it seemed that it was already unlocked, but I did not notice anything else. Then on the way home at about 9:10, my left arm was hurting several times at close to the elbow. Then, when I got home to feed the kittens, suddenly it seemed that the black kitten's eyes are larger. In the beginning, it seemed that the grey kitten was the larger one. They were both about the same size and weight, but the grey had/has a larger head. But almost immediately, I noticed that the black kitten seemed more developed; able to do more and more aware. And now, the black kitten is heaver I think, and happier and is able to bully the grey anytime, and often does - fighting and biting. This is strange, because the black is the nicer cat (with me), he/she is very gentle. And the grey is a rough biter - and can and does (with me) bite with a lot of force. (They are fighting now as I print this, and the black is winning of course, with the grey whining.) I saw the young mexican woman again tonight in the library. I've been seeing her a lot recently. She comes to computer 9 or 10 and fiddles around doing a "chat room". But tonight, she kept switching off the computer with her foot. 3 times!! First 9, then she went to 8, then 8 again, then she returned to 9. But we talked a bit; she looked down at my papers, and then asked me: "What are you working in?". I said, "The stock market". And she asked me if I had any daughters, or sons, I said no. {Why did she want to know that?}
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Tonight, I caught the black kitten urinating around my bed. And earlier, when I was bringing Puddypie in (he had been out for about 2 hours), I released the leash as usual, but he did not go in. He went one place and then another, but after awhile, maybe he saw reason, and he came to me, so then I picked him up and put him inside. No major crisis, but at one point, there was another cat within sight of us, but Puddypie did not see it fortunately. If he had, he probably would have gone chasing after it with no limitation as to where he could go, then I don't know where he would have gone. New - "Met-RX" bar. "Extreme Vanilla" - This is like eating packing foam in a bar! / When I started my car today, shortly thereafter, when I got out of my car, I saw a bunch of grey smoke coming out of the exhaust. This is very distressing to me. What's wrong with my car now?!
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Not feeling well, and getting a bit dizzy. And having some burping trouble. A bit of a pain in head near right ear. / A vary bad stock market day today -- the worst yet for my new stocks, now $20 in the red! I hope this is as bad as it gets. And in the library at around 8:30, that new old librarian who is so skinny and frail (and slow moving) that she is about to fall over from malnutrition, she came to me again, for the second time, and took my number away again (10). First she asked me for my name. She had the sign-in board and looked at it, then she told me that my name was not there. (I don't care!) She did not see my name because for some reason she was looking at only the page underneath. I told her that I did sign in. And I was wondering what the problem was. (More to the point, what her problem was.) Then, as if I had lied, she said to me that I did not sign in. Then I showed her (not that it mattered), where I had "signed in" on the previous sheet, the one that she was not looking at. Then she said; "4:40!" Then I said, so, or something like that. Then she went on and on about that 30 minute limit. Then I pointed out to her that there was at least 2 computers not in use. That made no difference to her! She kept saying that I had been on since 4:40 (like I was committing a crime), and that I had to get off. {The old evil witch. I wonder where she kept her broom.} I asked her then why wasn't the other librarians concerned about it (I asked her twice). She also said to me that people had been turned away, that wanted a computer -- what nonsense, that was not true. Finally, she walked away -- with my number! And no one came after to give me any more trouble. -- By the way, there had been 2 guys there on 7 and 8 (they were together), they had recently left, and they were there on the computers when I got there, and they never got bumped off, so I think that they had those 2 computers longer than I had mine, or at least as long. And the old crab did not come and bother them about a stupid 30 minute rule. (She has been here at the library for only a few days), and she thinks she knows everything. I've been coming nearly every day for more than a year. I feel better than usual.
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Shots fired (2). {At home.} It was close! / Mother and I prayed tonight; I went first telling the Lord about my troubles and asking when am I going to have enough money for my needs and how long must I wait to get somewhere in my life and why has the stock market gone bad for me and when will my stocks go up and when will ONE of my stocks go to the top and why has that not happened yet after all this time (more than a year), and why do I seem to be unlucky in life and that it seems that my life has been wasted and that I can do very little without money and without my health, and that I have neither one, and it has been very difficult for me and it has been very frustrating for me, and all of my life I have been a loser and when will this change for me, and... But I was cut off from finishing... Mother prayed, and then the Lord spoke: Saying that I have been through a lot {Been through a lot at this point: What about now, many years later? It's far more now than then, what about that?} and that I will need to wait awhile longer for my stocks, but to keep working on it the best I can. {Why keep working on it? To this day I have not gotten anywhere with stocks.} And to work for Mother and that "one of your biggest problems is that you are living in disorganization and filth". {And who put me there in that horrible trailer?} And that I should clean out my trailer, bit by bit. {I could never do that. how could I, I was burdened down with too many problems, and it only got worse, and no help or encouragement from anyone.} And that I consider the past too
much, and that I should go like the horse that has blinders on -- that I should only look to the future and not think about my past mistakes because what is past is past and there is nothing that I can do about it. {How could I not think about the past? I had mostly no future to think about.} And that I should honor my
Mother and to apologize to Carolyn and to not do anything that would get me into trouble with anyone, and to be nice and pleasant to all of my family. {I did apologize, the best I could. And the family has been nasty to me. People have given me much more trouble than I gave them.} And that my body needs the work for my bones and circulation. {I nearly died working myself half to death.} And that Father is "safe with me and free from his pain". {His pain? Don't make me laugh. What about mine through all these years?} And that I need to have my ego boosted, which was a surprise to hear that. {My ego boosted? What's going to do that, with very little to look forward to, can't make money, and no friends and never a girlfriend? What's going to boost my ego? You talked crap, God!} And a strange thing: To pray for all the members of the family. {My family never needed any help, and certainly not from "poor stupid Gary, who doesn't know anything". At this point, I had been in that crappy trailer for 16 years, and it was going to get far worse. TO THIS DAY, LIFE HAS NEVER BEEN GOOD FOR ME. YOU'RE A LIAR GOD.}
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Puddypie vomited again, and I took off the flea collar. Puddypie vomited half the night all over the floor. And when I slept. / Puddypie did not want to come with me today! (It was cool enough.)
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/ Puddypie much better today, he came with me. Stock market getting worse. Strange thing: The old woman at the library who gave me trouble a few nights ago, she started asking me a bunch of questions as to what I have been doing there. First she asked me if I was a day trader. I said no, of course. / Mother finally turned into a troll tonight, again.
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Not feeling well in belly tonight. I put on sleep clothes tonight, it's cold tonight. The monkees (the kittens) would not settle down in the cage, so I let them out and they stayed out during sleep period. (For the second time.) / I took Puddypie to the library and I had my choice of any computer - because the internet was "down"! After awhile, I was able to print my 2 "dailies" sheets in Schwab, but I could not get into any other website. So later, I came out early, at 8:00, and let Puddypie out. It was cold INSIDE the library and outside. Puddypie found a small bone, he started to eat it, but I stopped him. Then later, he found some thing else, it seemed to be about the size of a sugar cube but smaller, and it seemed to have something hanging from it. He ate it. I could not stop him. I do not know what it was, but it seemed to be laying there, it did not seem as though he caught it (like an insect).
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I let the kittens stay out of the cage tonight. / Started to take photographs of the kittens.
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Starting to feel bad. / The black kitten sucked on my left nipple, but did not get anything, so quit. Teeth hurting. The dopey man of lot "87" yelled at me to slow down -- twice, when I was leaving in my car today to go to the house.
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/ Both kittens climbed up to the cage today, how I don't know. Not feeling well in the library again today -- having trouble concentrating on companies. The "Golfer" got around to asking me what I have been doing. And he asked me if I was making any money, I said no. / The dopey man at lot "87", doing his dope again.
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/ Not feeling well again today, the kittens, I have left them out of the cage every night now, and they seem to play half the "night", could the dust that they are stirring up be making me sick? I have been waking with a sore throat. / I am beginning to teach the kittens some discipline.
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For the first time tonight, the grey kitten let me hold her(?) without squirming and turning to get out of my hands. / Not feeling well. Feeling bad. / They put the computer tables in the library today -- it is very different than I was thinking it would be. Then it rained a fair amount after dark, so I did not let Puddypie out when I came out. And I went straight home, but again did not let Puddypie out, because it was wet out, but instead, decided to go and do some errands, after my apple fruit sauce. Feeling fairly well. But strange things; when I had gotten home in the dark, as I approached my trailer rear door to go in, the man of lot 30 spoke to me. He said something like; "I would like to ask you something" (I walked over onto my shed slab.) "Your truck you have here, what's wrong with it? Come over here... we've never met, come over here, I want to shake your hand." Then I said that it was wet and muddy. Then he asked again, "What's wrong with it?" I said that it had problems {Like me.} Then he asked if I was going to keep it, I said that I was going to keep it and fix it up someday when I had the money. {That day was very very far away.} He also said that it was a good truck. I guess that he was wanting to buy it. Then later, after I got home the second time, I did a bit of work on my car. I set up the low idle again. Because once in a while, the motor is going a bit too slow and coming close to quitting, such as tonight. (When it's raining?) And the last several days (otherwise it does not stall, and the stalling problem that I have suffered with for a very long time has been gone since I set the low idle up!) I had the hatch open and the hood, when the dopey man of lot "87" came by in his bus and asked me if I needed any help. I said; "No, but thanks". These two happened the same night, what's going on?
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The kittens have played like crazy-men tonight, running around and jumping more than ever. And I combed out 4 more fleas. Teeth hurting (while eating the pineapple). / The low idle is now too high, but the Omni has good performance. When I got the library, I found those two young guys on computers 9 and 10. They usually stay almost until the library closes, but I waited for one of them to get off, but they stayed. Then I was hoping that it would get busy so that I could bump him off of my number 10. But 7:30 came and went, so it wasn't going to happen. So I came to him and said to him: "Hello, I've been waiting for one of these computers since 6:00, can you tell me how much longer you're going to be?" He said about 10 minutes. So I waited longer. I waited 2 hours for the computer, and what makes it worse, is that I think most of the time he was doing a chat room. (Chat rooms are a waste of time.) Then as I started to walk away to the computer, the old woman said something, about me, I guess; having a "Lucky fingers". I got it so late that I could do hardly anything. / Then Puddypie caught and ate a little bird. A cute little bird, it makes me sad. That bird will never know what it's like to fly. Then after awhile, Puddypie apparently wanted to go. So then we went cruising along home, but suddenly, I see a car coming up behind me in the right lane (the slow lane) at a speed that was a lot higher than the speed that I was cruising at. It was not slowing down and it was not changing lanes. So I did the only thing that I could do to keep those idiots from crashing into my car. I put the accelerator to the floor, then I came upon 12 street (I was going west on Bell) so I swerved out of there path, then having no place to go, I jammed on the brake. I did not know if I was going to crash or not. The car skidded and then stopped. {I WAS LITERALLY RUN OFF THE STREET!} Puddypie and I were safe -- for the moment. Strangely, there was a white car that came along behind in the middle lane that honked AT ME! as it went by. Then I got going again and the red light at 9 street stopped the car, it was in the middle lane with the white car behind it. It was a older Camaro, red. From my recent past experience, I did not want to come along side of them. But even though the light went green, they stayed there a little while with the white car behind. I never saw the operator of the car, but as I got closer, a guy on the right stuck his ugly head out
the window and was looking at me with an angry face. Then they started on, but I did get close enough to see the first part of the license. It was 358 then 3 letters. I did not want to get too close to them. But then I decided that I wanted to catch up to them to see where they were going and to get the license. They turned on to 7 street going north, but then I lost them, I was too far behind. {WHERE'S THE DAMN POLICE? MORE TO THE POINT, WHY IS THE DMV GIVING A LICENSE TO IDIOTS LIKE THESE?} This happened at around 10:30.
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Not feeling well. / When I first found those kittens that day, I thought that there was only one -- the black one. And I didn't think much of this kitten, actually, I thought very little of this tiny black kitten. I figured that the mother cat would come and get the kitten, or someone else, and so the kitten would be gone and I would never be concerned with it again. But no one was coming, so I decided to come and get the kitten. So I got ready, and went over there to get the kitten, but only when I came then, I heard another, the grey one. I don't know if they were cold, but they were both soaking wet. I FIGURED THAT I WAS SAVING THEM, but I did not know if I was going to be keeping them at that point. But after awhile, I knew that I wanted to keep them. From almost the beginning, I favored the black one, partly because she was very much like Puddypie, black with white on the face. She had a very cute face; black with a white chin. But I also liked the idea of having a grey cat. It was the coming of Puddypie into my life that taught me that color is not that important {With cats.} These kittens were three firsts for me: 1, The first time that I have ever had a female cat. 2, The first time that I have ever had two cats that were the same age (--from the same litter). 3, The first time that I have ever had three cats at the same time. And I did not mind any of this; I thought it was neat to have a little Puddypie and a grey cat; and I did not mind having females, or having 3 cats. And the kittens were so little that I figured that they needed each other to be each other's companion. When I got them, the kittens were little enough that they could not eat, I needed to hand feed them with an eye dropper. Actually, four firsts: 4, the first time that I had a cat that was so little that I had to hand feed it. A woman at the veterinarian told me that they were "3 to 4 weeks old" (when I got them). In the beginning, they were both quite skinny, and they were both about the same size, but the grey one's head was noticeably larger, so I figured that the grey one was going to grow up to be the larger cat. And they were both covered with fleas. But I noticed early on that there was an important difference between the two: The grey one was not a happy camper. She would not let me hold her in my hands without squirming around to get out and to get turned over. While the black kitten I could hold her upside down in my hands and she had no problem with it. And once in awhile when I had her like that, I would play "patty cake, patty cake" with her paws. She was totally lovable, she had a good attitude, and her wonderful body was very soft and her fur was thin and soft. She was very cute; like a little Puddypie. But her fur was not as black as Puddypie's fur, but she had a white chin, Puddypie's chin is black. And I think her eyes were much prettier than Puddypie's, but I don't remember what color they were. But the grey kitten's fur is rough and thick, and a bit difficult to comb through, but the color is a pretty frosty medium grey. And all grey, with no other color. And the whiskers were very different between the two kittens: The black's was a brite white, but the grey's are so dark and thin that they can hardly be seen As I said, the grey one didn't seem to be as happy as the black. She would be much more serious about getting fed the milk, she would whine and whine when I would be feeding the black , and when I was feeding the grey, the black would only let out a tiny high pitched sound kind of like a car horn every few seconds, while the grey was constantly whining. And in the beginning, the grey was very much a biter. Sometimes she would bite my body all over, from frustration I think, or something bothering her. One night she bit me all over and bit my willy--twice! And the grey one had a trick: She would let out a very loud and very sudden spat, and most of the time she would suddenly lunge forward at the same time. She would do this for no apparent reason, as if something invisible had bit her. Only the first few days did I heat up the milk, then, I think it was when I had some milk out in a bowl for Puddypie that was cold and the black kitten came and licked it up, or something like that, it was when I stopped heating it and fed it to
them cold. And they liked it okay cold, with no problem, or I would have continued to heat it. And I started putting a tiny plastic container of milk inside the cage for them. And very early on, about 3 days after getting them, I started to put a bit of Puddypie's canned food, the "Trader Joe's", in the cage. The black kitten liked it, and would eat some of it, but the grey kitten paid no attention to it. The grey only wanted the milk, but I was annoyed when she kept climbing into Puddypie's cereal bowl and then tipping it off the box, so it would spill. At that early point, she knew that she liked it and wanted to eat it, but she could not, but she kept trying to eat it. She couldn't bite it into small enough
pieces. But the black kitten wasn't relaxed all the time; early on, when waiting to be feed, she would climb up my pant sleeve, usually the left. It would be somewhat annoying, and once, she climbed all the way up to my shirt and started clawing my belly. It was then that it ceased to be amusing and so I started to put a stop to that. And their talents were different; the black kitten was a good climber, and she was the explorer, the grey would attempt to follow her but couldn't at first. It was the black kitten that somehow found a way to climb up and through and around and then up on top of the carpet above their cage to be up there and to get some sunshine. They could not look out any windows. Sometime later the grey kitten followed her up there and so learned from the black. But the grey was good at two things' jumping and running. The grey could do both better than the black. Early on, the grey would suddenly fixate on my face if I looked at her and then she would take a sudden flying leap toward my face! She rarely does that any more. The grey really loved that milk from the eye dropper. Once or twice she started to swallow the eye dropper! They both became good suckers. Some of the time, when I was feeding the grey, her ears would wiggle with a swivel motion, it was very amusing. The same thing would happen with the black, but only once in awhile. In the beginning, from the first night that I got them, they listened to my voice. Then whenever I uttered a sound with my voice, they would go wild over it, like I was their mother calling them for food. After some amount of days, they settled down and then after that they paid no attention to my voice. I would feed them, and then they would disappear: After getting enough milk, they would go and find a place to curl up and go to sleep. Most of the time it would be down on the floor under the cage in the middle room in one of the nooks so they would be totally safe from being stepped on while they slept. If it was during the day, I would need to be careful that they did not disappear so that I could not reach them because I wanted to put them in the cage for the "day" while I was gone. I also put them in the cage when I would go to bed so that they would not be all over and climbing around the place when I slept. They would play furiously, mostly with each other, for awhile, then they would get sleepy. And then they would find a place and curl up and go to sleep. When they would play, it would be mostly play fighting. But the grey one, being the "slow" one, made a sound as if the black was biting her, as if she wanted the black to stop. It was a tiny sound, three times in a row. I've never heard a cat make a sound like that. The black would never make that sound. But they would play, and the grey would be making that sound, as if she wanted the black to stop, but then when the black would stop, the grey would go for some more, as if she was a glutton for punishment. The grey would be on the bottom most of the time, upside down, in the defensive position. From almost the beginning, the black kitten seemed to be more aware and more capable, generally better developed than the grey. (Puddypie a makes
buzzing noise and I've never heard that from a cat either.) The black was more aware, as if older. She could do more, think better and was more at ease. And she was more careful. The grey was "slow", one night she got her head caught in the refrigerator door, but did not seem to be hurt. And she nearly got stepped on by me because she was very careless. And one day, after I had put my shoes on, I was walking through the middle room of the trailer, walking toward the rear, and she ran as they usually do, and she got under me and then in front of my shoe, and my shoe flung her a ways in front of me and she hit something. Then she laid there a bit, then she got up and shook her head as if she was dazed. But she seemed to be okay. And I was glad that she seemed to be okay. And I was thinking: "Maybe that will teach her to stay out of my way." And I was thinking; "surely, they will soon learn to be careful and to stay out of my way." The black was more careful than the grey, and I was thinking; suppose I did step on one of them, it would be the grey one because she's more careless. And I didn't like the grey one as much as the black. The black was much more loveable. I grew to love them both, but I loved the black more than the grey. But I began to get worried about the
grey; after around 2 weeks, the black kitten was noticeably bigger than the grey. And she was eating the canned food and the grey was not. And she could eat about twice as much as the grey. When the grey could take only 4 or 5 droppers of milk, the black could take 10. I was going to take them into the veterinarian to have them both checked out, and to get an age estimation, but I could not afford the $33. The black was a lot more loveable than the grey, but I did have one problem with her: She got into the habit of urinating around my bed area. But I got after her about it several times and then she did not do it any more. At first, I thought that one was male, and the other female. And I was
going have this checked out at the veterinarian, but after several weeks, it became apparent that they were both females. I had never had any cats this young, and was surprised to find that when they were getting only the milk, their urine had no odor, their poop had no odor, and their mouths had had no odor. It was as if they had new pristine mouths that have not gotten messed up with anything yet. As I said, the grey was a lot rougher than the black, and some of the time, when she would be running, she would make a slight growling sound with her voice. I have never had a cat do that, the black never did that. I did notice one odd thing with the black, it became much more apparent when she got older; she had a very wide space between the eyes. And her chin was very different from Puddypie's chin. Puddypie has a strange bulge on his chin, the black kitten did not, she had a normal chin. Another strange thing about the black kitten, and something that I did not see until after about 3 weeks: There were "new" groups of whiskers coming out of her cheeks, a fairly large clump of maybe 6 or 7 on the left, and a smaller group on the right. It was as if some or her whiskers had been yanked out, and only then they were starting to grow out again, or a group of new whiskers were growing out. I've never seen that on a cat. A few days after I got them, I found a small box inside my trailer and I put it inside the cage and put part of the old towel inside the small white box and part of the towel outside and over the top of the box, so that they could go in and get cozy and warm. And I was surprised that they took to it and used it time and time again exactly as I had intended. At first I only closed the hatch on the cage. Then after a week or two, one of them (probably the grey, she's the determined one) learned how to get out of the cage. So then after that I started latching the hatch so that they could not get out. I was surprised to see that they would go into the box as if it was their home. I would put them in the cage and it wouldn't be long when they would go into the box and snuggle up together. Then at about two weeks, I began to let them stay out when I went to bed. Some of the time, they would be laying next to me when I was asleep. And I started calling them "The Monkeys", because that's exactly the way that they were behaving! They were crazy some of the time. They would be nice and gentle some of the time and then they would go wild and crazy. From the beginning, they both liked the warm air from the bottom of the refrigerator. After they were no longer paying attention to my voice as I have said, if or when Puddypie would make a sound with his voice, the kittens would then be paying attention to him as if he was their mother. {After I've typed this, it }a It wasn't long until I started to comb them. I got a lot of flea junk out from off of their skin. And I was surprised that my "flea" comb works; I could actually comb out fleas. And after I had gotten out most of the fleas, I was surprised that the kittens were very clean. Much cleaner than Puddypie. I cannot pet Puddypie without getting my hands messy. .......................................................................................
{IN OTHER WORDS, SWANKIE DIED. It was a Friday, and I was in a hurry to get to the library, I was rushing toward the rear of my trailer taking long steps. At this point, both cats were good runners, they were both running up behind me and when I stopped at the middle door, (Swankie was a very good runner by now) Swankie had run up below my foot as it was coming down and stopped. My foot stepped on her chest area, probably crushing her ribs. I tried to take the weight off her body but put it on her head instead, maybe breaking her neck, she made a small sound. So that was the end of my dearest precious, she was in a bad way, she could not move around. I rushed her to a vet, walked in with her, waiting for them to help, and I think it was after that that a woman walked in with a large dog. And the dog kept barking - loudly, it was bothering me, and every time the dog would bark, Swankie wound jerk. I did nothing about it, I VERY MUCH REGRET THAT NOW, MY POOR LITTLE SWANKIE WAS DYING, IT WAS HURTING MY EARS, I KNEW SWANKIE DID NOT LIKE IT, AND THE
STUPID WOMAN DIDN'T HAVE SENSE ENOUGH TO SHUT HER DOG UP! THEY (THE VET) WAS DOING NOTHING TO HELP ME, PRECIOUS TIME WAS PASSING BY, AND I WANTED TO GET AWAY FROM THE BARKING, SO I WENT OUT AND WENT TO ANOTHER NEARBY VET. THEY TOOK HER, DID SOMETHING, BEHIND CLOSED DOORS. THEN CAME OUT AND TOLD ME THAT THERE REALLY WASN'T ANYTHING TO BE DONE TO SAVE HER. DON'T KNOW IF THAT WAS TRUE, BUT I HAD NO MONEY FOR ANYTHING MAJOR ANYWAY. SO I TOOK HER HOME AGAIN, WHERE SHE DIED. FOR MANY YEARS, I HAD MISTAKENLY BELIEVED, THAT IF I ACCIDENTALLY STEPPED ON A CAT, THAT IT WOULDN'T BE HURT MUCH. I LEARNED IN THE WORST POSABLE WAY, THAT I WAS WRONG. IT
WAS A TERRIBLE THING FOR ME, I HAD KILLED MY OWN CAT, AND THE ONE I LOVED THE MOST. I COULD BLAIME HER, FOR BEING CARELESS, BUT SHE WAS ONLY A LITTLE KITTEN, I WAS THE SUPPOSEDLY FAR SMARTER HUMAN, IT WAS MY JOB TO TAKE CARE OF HER. I THOUGHT I WAS SAVING THOSE KITTENS, BY TAKING THEM, BUT I FAILED TO SAVE MY PRECIOUS SWANKIE. AT THIS POINT, I HAD HAD THE KITTENS FOR ONLY 27 DAYS, AND HAD NOT YET GIVIN THEM NAMES, SO I DON'T THINK THAT SWANKIE HAD EVER HEARD HER OWN NAME. IT WAS VERY BAD, BUT WHAT MAKES IT WORSE, IS THAT DAMN WOMAN AND HER DOG, AND THE FACT THAT I DID NOTHING ABOUT IT. IF SWANKIE HAD TO DIE, SHE SHOULD NOT HAVE ALSO BEEN SHOCKED AND TERRIFIED BY A DOG AS SHE WAS HELPLESS AND DYING. I THINK THAT ANYONE WHO WANTS TO OWN A DOG SHOULD BE REQUIRED TO PASS A TEST IN ORDER TO GET A LICENSE -- LIKE WITH CARS, TO BE ALOUD TO OWN A DOG. THERE'S TOO MANY STUPID DOG OWNERS IN THE WORLD!!! The only good that came from it, is now with Swankie gone, I paid much more attention to Zila...}
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/ Stranded at the library. Car would not start. It is rainy and cold and wet. Called "AAA", got my car carried home, and the guy {was nice enough to-} stopped at "Safeway" for me (I bought the "Beefaroni")
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/ Worked on car, could not get anywhere with it. Walked my bike to the air supply, got aired up, rode my bike to a Dealer, walked my bike to "Checker" bought parts, rode my bike to "Autozone" with a flat rear tire (it was only flat on the bottom), rode my bike to a bike shop, bought new tires and tubes, rode to "Checker", bought part, then home on new tires. Could not get my dailies! I almost stepped on Zila.
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/ Rode my bike a lot {for more than 5 hours} . Rode to: "Autonation", "Checker", Dealer, "Pep Boys", the library, then "Fry's", "Fry's", "Fry's". / {Ate a} "Fry's" rotisserie chicken--first one for me and Puddypie in a long time. Puddypie ate a large amount, more than ever. And first one for Zila. The three of us enjoyed it. Had a great craving for pastry, but I don't have any.
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/ Rode bike again: Got parts, did "tune up", but again it would not start. Rode bike again to the library, but the stupid guard (the skinny one) gave me trouble about my bike, but I had already gotten my dailies.
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I had made a new "Kleenex" box (#3) for Zila to play in, with only about half the top cut out, instead of all of the top cut out or the end cut out (numbers 1 and 2). As Zila was playing with it, I got the idea to cut a small straight sided hole in the bottom at the "closed up" end. Then she had some more fun playing with it with the new hole. But a little bit later, Puddypie came to play with it like Zila had done! Getting "into" the box and clawing at the hole, but only for a little bit. First ever Zila climbed up and got on top of the case. Zila first ever got up to the high window where Puddypie was. She climbed up. She only stayed up for 10 minutes or less. / Today; rode my secondary bike to "Lou Grubb Dodge" to finalize the putting in of my car. Then rode to the bank to close out my bank account, but the were too busy, so I left. Then rode to bike shop, but to do a bit on my bike was going to be about $10, I have less than that as it is the last of my money, so I left and went home. Then I packed up to stay at the house for the weekend. I left for Puddypie and Zila 3 bowls full of food and 4 bowls of water. And my back pack was so stuffed full that I could not close it! I did not take any food, no room! Then I went riding, and stopped at the other bank on the way. It was empty! I closed out my account and got $209. So at this point I've got $216. Then I went on to the house and got there at about 6:05. The bike shop (the one close to the house) closed at 6:00. I was too late! (I was going to take my primary bike over there and then ride it around to the markets to buy food.) Then Pete called! He wanted to take me to a meeting so I went with him: "Ideal Health". One man said that the company will be taking off like a rocket 6 to 9 months from now.
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I went home on secondary bike. But when I was more than half way home, approaching Thunderbird, a Police man stopped me in his car, harassing me about not having a light on my bike and threatening to give me a ticket ($75), and if I don't pay it, then jail or something, and suggesting that I walk home or I could get a ticket. Who is this idiot? This makes me angry! There's a bunch of idiots in the world, if I don't get it from someone, then I get it from the Police! / Zila's body is making strange noises. (After eating tortillas.) / I've been busy today and tonight. I decided a day or more ago, to see if I could clear out a spot inside my trailer for my primary bike, and so then when I next rode home from the house, to do so on my primary bike. So I started working on my stove situation to get my stove moved in. {closer to the wall} I moved things away, then I pulled out the stove. It was a terrible mess behind, I collected a bag full of things that had fallen in behind for years. {For 16 years.} Then I suctioned. Then I cleaned the floor with water (spray bottle) and tissue. At the end, the "Kleenex" box went empty. It was a terrible job, and there were boards that I guess the stove had been sitting on. I attempted to put it on the boards, but I could not and I nearly blacked-out. Then after a shower, I went riding on my bike looking for supplies. I went to "Lou Grubb" then Kmart then "Food 4 Less" then home. Then "Fry's" then "Safeway" then "Fry's" then home.
Then after Puddypie out and the tortillas, I suctioned the floor some, {with the old Electrolux} mainly in the middle room on that stupid brown carpet and cleaned out the floor of the litter tray room. As I was getting started, when I was in the kitchen, the bag hatch popped open. So I took out the bag and put in another one. I did not have any trouble finding another one to put in after all these years! {Almost never happens that I find what I want.} And that full one was full!! It might weigh 10 pounds! Puddypie hardly paid any attention to the machine, and Zila watched from a distance most of the time, but in the end, she was not hardly any afraid of it as I showed it to her and suctioned her fur! And sometime this night, she was after a cockroach, her first. But I think she let it get away.
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/ Strange dream: There were 3 other guys living with me in my trailer. They were very strange people. They seemed to be as follows; Lister from "Red Dwarf" and maybe the rat man from "Andromeda" and maybe the turtle man from "The Last Starfighter". All 3 of them were total slobs (like Lister). This one day, the 3 of them wanted to have some fun, they were tossing things around inside my trailer until we were about waist deep in debris. I got very upset and had "had it" with them, so I said to them that I want this place cleaned up. So the next thing I know, is that I walk into my trailer and the entire front section, from the front to the rear of the kitchen, is all cleaned up! I was surprised and very impressed. Then I asked them, where did they put my stuff? They said that they put it in the cold storage. At first, I was happy, but then I remembered that there was not enough room in cold storage for all my stuff. So then I was getting very suspicious. Then outside, I noticed some people coming down the road, there was row after row of people carrying things that they were wanting to sell. I think in the first row there were 2 or 3 motor car tires that I recognized, and in rows after that, some other things that seemed to be mine. So I was getting furious with those 3 guys for giving away my things and for it to be sold away by others. / Worked 5.5.
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I rode home on my primary bike! The third Police car that came by (when I was about a mile from home) shined his spot light at me and {so} was thinking about stopping and harassing me, but he kept on going. / I now have $289. / Today, got going late (better late than not). Too late to go to Dealer, but walked to "Petsmart" to buy cat litter (I had to, there was no other way). Then got out primary bike and rode to "Safeway", bought "Beefaroni". Then when I came out, it was raining! The first time that I get out my primary bike at home, and it rains! Then over to "Fry's" to take a look - at chickens, then home to unload. Then off to "Fry's" for water. It was hardly raining, but when I got home, my bike was wet.
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/ I now have $202.
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/ At "X-Bikes", I got a third new handle bar and stem. They forced me to pay for them as they would not trade the second new handle bar and stem. I now have $137.
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/ I rode primary bike to the house and to "Home Depot" on the way. I hated to leave my two sweetiepies! Puddypie got out only twice I think. (Zila is now starting to look out the window.)
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I can see now that my car is going to be sitting in the Dealer for Christmas. / I now have $62. Not feeling well {for about 6 hours}. Worked 2.0.
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/ Worked 4.0. I now have $162. Rode my primary bike home.
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/ I had three things (and places to go) to do today: 1. The veterinarian to buy the special food for Puddypie. 2. To the Dealer to check on my car. 3. To "Food 4 Less" to buy some more apple fruit sauce. {They knew me there as Mister Apple Sauce.} I did not succeed with all three: After buying the cat food, I was cruising along in the parking lot along the sidewalk side (on the right) at 18 miles per hour, heading towards 19 Avenue. I was going the same speed as the car a little ways in front of me (I think it was a green bus such as "Chrysler"). {A Chrysler Station Wagon.} Then I was getting ready to make my turn around the side walk inside the parking lot when I suddenly saw a little boy on a skateboard coming towards me from the 19 Avenue side. So I jammed on my brakes. That was the wrong thing to do and especially using too much front brake. It happened in a flash, I saw myself coming down towards the street and then I hit the street. My chest took quite a blow and I could not move at first. Then I started moving and the boy asked me if I was okay. I said something like, I'm not sure, or, I don't know yet. Then I got up and then picked up my bike and saw that something had been smashed and my front wheel was badly bent up. {--That was the problem, the damn front wheel collapsed and in so doing, made my brake seize which in turn caused my bike to flip over. Those stupid bicycle wheels! When will they learn to make a smarter bike?} The boy kept saying something like: "Man, you scared me". Then I picked up the cat food and returned it to the pannier and my attractive front reflector was smashed, I saw. I had gone down on the right and my chest and neck and right arm and hand were sore. Then I picked up the front of my bike, for the wheel would not roll, and started walking. I had walked down the sidewalk aways, then I came to a street crossing. Stopped there on the small street was a green bus, and a man is coming and he said something like: It looks like you had a wreck. Then he offers to take me to the bike shop! He had asked me where I was going to go, and I told him that I was going to walk home to drop off the cat food and then walk to the bike shop in the opposite direction. Then he offered to take my straight to the bike shop. So we went and he dropped me off. On the way I told him that it was very nice of him. And he told me that he had had many spills on his bike some time ago and that he knew what it was like. So then I got a new reflector (not the same) and paid for a new front wheel. Then I went to the Dealer (talked to Mother) then home, then to "Food 4 Less", then home. I now have $80, I wish I had more money! Not long after I got home, Jeff of lot 87? was out in the street holding a long bar and he kept yelling: "Call the cops Linda, he's got a gun". Then someone in a large "Cadillac" roared the motor and took off around the corner towards me and down the street south. I did not know if he was going to smash into someone's car or not.
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Strange noises began. Inside? Outside?
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/ Loud mexican music from lot 31 today. I now have $67. Rode bike to "Trader Joe's" and then home. I now have $30. Rode bike to the house -- I hate to leave my sweetiepies. Worked 1.5.
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/ I rode bike to "Fry's" for some lettuce. After I had started looking at the lettuce, a security guard came over and said that I could not have my bike inside. He said that if he let me...then he would have to let everybody. Then I said that most people don't get around on bikes. Then he said: "Oh, you'd be surprised how many people want to bring their bikes in". Then I said; "I cannot lock up this bike. Look at it". Then I turned towards my bike, and he also turned to look at my bike. Then I said. "I have $500 worth of add-ons, that are easily removable". {Because the stupid people designing bicycles don't know how to design them. Or are they designing them for thieves?} Then he turned and walked away! Worked 4.5.
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I changed the bandage on my arm - took off the first and put on the second - after the shower. I kept smelling an interesting odor. Then I took off the bandage. It was the bandage! I have never had such a thing. / Worked 2.5.
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/ Feeling bad. I have a virus in my mouth and it is gradually getting worse. This is the first Christmas that we've had two hams: The one we ate, and Carolyn. I rode home. I now have $212. A terrible stink in my trailer (cat urine) when I got home. And they were out of food.
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My throat now hurts from the virus. {Ate-} Fruit cake - about one third. Zila likes it. / {Ate-] Joy's loaf bread- some - Zila likes it (as I figured). / Body starting to blow-out-through-my-nose the virus.
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I gave to Zila three straws! (plastic) I rigged up alarm bell on my primary bike, my invention! I've got the shivers again!
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Designing starships! {For 5 hours.} / Starship designing.
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Starship designing. Zila started carrying away my eraser! / Rode to Dealer, then to library, then to "Fry's" to buy more water, then home. Then rode to "Food 4 Less", but I was hit on the way; some guy threw one or more chicken eggs at me! The egg hit the front of my bike and the rear of my bike and hit parts of my bike that I did not know I had, and hit my pannier, both of them, and hit me in the leg - it drew blood. It happened when I was on the approach to 7 Avenue going east on Bell. I was angry! I stopped and called 911 at the first phone I came to and again after I got home and had an Officer come out to talk it over. / I left to ride to the house. I hate leaving my sweetiepies again so soon!
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/ I now have $159. / Worked 4.75.
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