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/ I now have $306. I rode home. It was the least cold of all tonight, since I started riding to the house. Worked 4.5.
104% 73% 72% 69%
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I put the flea collar (purple) on Puddypie again. / I now have $77 (after rent). I now have $50 (after cat food). After I got home, it was quite at lot 84 but I heard Michael was there, he yelled: "Go away, there's nobody home but me". So I figured that as soon as Linda got home, they would start fighting. And sure enough, a while later as soon as Linda got home, they started fighting. At first, first thing, Michael would not let her say anything to him. Then he was saying: "Shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up, shut up..." (He likes to repeat himself.)
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/ And again today, Michael was doing his "shut up" thing and using foul language yelling at Linda. Why do they stay together? I went and complained to the park owner today about the crazy people of lot 84. After I got home from "Home Depot" tonight, I noticed that the people at lot 84 were doing their dope again. And there was an unfamiliar car parked over there, it was small and dark with the plate number: 977 AWW. Then a woman came out and went off in the car. And kind of strange: As soon as she had left, a man and woman who had come in a white car parked across the street, came over to the car and got out another man and woman and brought them over to lot 84 who had been waiting in the white car. And very strange: While some of this was going on, a man from lot 82 in a white "Thunderbird" was acting very strange; very paranoid behavior. He's the guy in the white "Thunderbird" that I noticed some time ago who kept tearing in and out at lot 82 spinning his wheels! Tonight he comes out, then when he had his car out in front of my lot, he stops, then revs up and spins his wheels and goes along, then he turns around and starts coming but he stops in front of lot 84, then he reverses out, then spins his wheels again. Then leaves the park. But a few minutes later, he comes along, but this time he switches off his headlights and goes through, then puts his lights on again and then turns around and comes through again south to north with his lights totally off. What an idiot this guy is. Even the woman who had been waiting in the white car thought he was strange.
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After I had taken off my shoes, Zila was playing with them, then it appeared that her front left paw was rooted inside my left shoe. Then Puddypie began leaving the area, Zila was watching intensely and getting ready to strike. Then Zila made her strike at Puddypie by leaping forward, but as her claw was stuck in my shoe, she took my shoe with her! She made my shoe fly about two and a half feet! Another thing that happened a bit earlier, was that Puddypie saw "a strange cat" in the trailer up on the shelf unit through the window from outside when I had Puddypie outside and Zila was inside. Puddypie was looking and looking, standing up against the wall looking at the cat who was "in the window" where Puddypie himself likes to be (his favorite place to be in the trailer) and he was meowing wanting to get at the strange cat. Puddypie did not know that it was Zila! I now have $43 (after "Home Depot"). Loud mexican music today at lot 89. I got my car out of "Lou Grubb Dodge" (put my primary bike in the rear), no charge. But they would only do the carburetor and nothing else, and after I got it home, as soon as I took it to go somewhere it was running crappy. I now have $35 (had to buy "TV Guide" - did not come, and library and a bit of gasoline - $5). And loud mexican music tonight at lot against the wall. Another thing: Prior I rode to the Dealer and got my car, when I took my bike out and was getting it ready to ride, I bumped the flasher light on the front and it fell off! The guy with the egg did s at ruining something for me. That light is the most important light on my bike and so far I have not been able to find another one.
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/ The Omni has a jerk when the accelerator is pressed. I took the Omni to the house and 25 jars, empty, of the apple fruit sauce and 35 jugs, empty, of my water that I have eaten and drank since I have been stranded at home without a car. I now have $30.
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Not feeling well. / Worked 4.0.
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/ Pains in lower left abdomen. This seems to happen recently after I have eaten the "ginger" granola. {This went on for more than a day and a half and two nights} And belly swelling for awhile. / I showed Mother my starship design. First one to ever see (my first one). Worked 3.75.
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/ Worked 4.25.
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I now have $150. I came home in Omni (in the rain).
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Getting dizzy. Belly swelling. / Getting dizzy. Feeling bad. I hammered head. Feeling much better.
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Getting the shivers again? / My stocks are doing very badly except for 2 or 3.
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/ I went to house in Omni.
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/ Worked 1.5.
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/ Worked 0.75.
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/ My back has been very sore for a long time, so sore at times that I can hardly move. Worked 6.0. {My back was sore for 34 days and nights.}
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I came home. (In the rain, with my back hurting.) Back sore. I have been having a strange (itchy) soreness in my skin of my lower left flank at about the waist from my belly around to the back. There's hardly anything to be seen and I think it started with a small welt like bump on my belly that I noticed during the first part of auto. It's like a rope burn or a chafing from my sleep clothes or something. There's nothing different with my sleep clothes that I know of. Could it have been a flea? Could it be too much "Chef Boyardee"? I went to the library. The first time in two and a half months! Almost nothing different there! No new computers! {My skin was sore for 19 days and nights.}
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Back sore. Skin sore. / I brought Puddypie to the library with me today. After only two days of doing my stock market work, I have found another stock to buy, but it was too late to put in a buy for it tonight. Op Apon Apon Opan Apun ??? Apon {Upon} coming out of the library, I found a dead bee on the hood of my car. (And that's not the first time.)
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Back sore. Skin sore. I hammered head. Did it help?
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Skin sore. Back sore. / I went to house in Omni and found Steve {Harris?} there. We talked some. I now have $51.
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Back sore. Skin sore. / Steve "helped" me take down the Christmas lights. Then we went in my Omni to "Cook College and Theological School Winter 2001 Revival". -It was an Indian thing. It was very boring at first (nearly 2 hours) but the last hour and a half was a bit interesting. Reverend Richard Twiss was quite humorous, I spoke to him at the end. {I asked him what Indian names he thought might be good for starships. I was very disappointed to see that he had zero interest.} We went on the freeways and it took only about 20 minutes to go all the way to Tempe, and my car performed flawlessly! I think Richard is the president of "Wiconi International". I lost a lot of money by going. Maybe it was worth it. Worked 2.0.
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Skin sore. Back sore. / Worked 8.0.
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Back sore. Skin sore. / Worked 3.5. I now have $269.
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I came home. (When I had left to go to the house, the stupid neighbor's sewage was all over my lot, so I could not have Puddypie out. And there was some stink. Now getting home, it is worse from the stupid neighbors of lot 84.) The stupid stupid stupid neighbors, I wish they were out of here. Back sore. Skin sore. / Zila is now about half the size of Puddypie and she is acting much more like an adult cat; today she did not start playing with my pen caps. In the past, she could not resist such a thing so I have had to hide them from her so that I won't lose my pen caps. {This is very sad to me now -- let her play, and have her fun while it lasts.}
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Back sore. Skin sore. Ham meat from "Safeway" -- first of 3.32 pounds at 16 - slices 5 (The three of us enjoyed it, but Zila had trouble in knowing what to do at first.) -- Now I have 2 cats licking my fingers - first ever. The ham meat makes Zila thirsty. Having cough. Zila seems to have a lot of love in her. She loves to cuddle close to me and have me pet her. I kind of wish that she was human, like in a strange dream I had recently. For several days, I have not been urinating as much, but tonight I am starting to urinate more again. Neighbor Eric came over and woke me up only to tell me that someone would be stopping their (lot 84) sewer leak later today. / Acid came up in my throat.
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Skin sore. Back sore. Zila loves to get under a paper bag and play under it. And she carried away my pen! Then she dumped the food bowl! (Again.) Zila played wildly all night and I couldn't seem to get any sleep. / Getting dizzy in the library.
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Back sore. Skin sore. Zila has become vary loving recently. She comes to me and cuddles up to me and loves it when I pet her. She comes up close to my face and lays on my arms and purrs. She seems to take as much as I can give. But only when she is in the mood; twice this week so far and at least once last week. / I went to the house. I now have $187.
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Skin sore. Back sore. / Worked 5.5.
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Back sore. Skin sore. / Worked 3.5.
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Skin sore. Back sore. / Worked 1.5.
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Back sore. Skin sore. I now have $291. I came home. / I had scalp eruptions all "night"! / Because he kept getting in my way, I took Puddypie and shoved him up on the high window spot and accidentally shoved his face into the edge of the cardboard.
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Skin sore. Back sore. I was extremely discouraged tonight in the library about my stocks. Despite my new account now being up to $81 more than what was put in some months ago. I was thinking about quitting, and I did not want to put in anymore buys. After I came out and had Puddypie out, he went too far around the corner of the book drop driveway. {I had a very long leash.} I wasn't going to do anything and I was thinking; as long as someone doesn't come to drop off books, he'll be okay for a little while until I get over there. Then I saw headlights! So I ran over to see a car sitting at the book drop with Puddypie's leash going under the car! A young guy looked up to see me, he seemed a bit startled. Then I ran around the car to find Puddypie on the opposite side smelling the bushes as if nothing was wrong. The guy in the car apparently did not see Puddypie over against the bushes or see my leash either. For safety, I disconnected the leash from Puddypie and held him in my arms until the car departed. Then I connected the leash again after putting him down and went and got the end of the leash by the air conditioner and headed to the Omni to go home. Enough of that! / I now have $14.
FEBRUARY 01
Back sore. Skin sore. / Had a few pains in left flank of abdomen in the library. Getting a bit dizzy in the library. And I put in three more buys, for a total of three.
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Skin sore. Back sore. / I went to the house, but Mother was so { ? } that I came home.
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Back sore. Skin sore. / I had brought home my pichoe and shovel, so I dug a trench on the north side of my lot so that the stupid neighbor's sewer would not leak out on my lot like it has done now for days. I should have done this years ago! / My stupid neighbors of lot 84 are fighting again. Linda came home and bumped her truck into the boards (like a fence) in front of her trailer. As soon as she walked in, Michael started calling her names and said that she was drunk.
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Skin sore. Back sore. Dreams: All seemed lost, I had sent up some rockets or something that was going to destroy the world. Father came to life again, at first I was happy, but then I was faced with needing to tell him that we were all going to die in a few minutes because of what I had done. / They're fighting again at lot 84. Fighting going on at lot 30; what's wrong with these people? / They're fighting again at lot 84. After being very cold recently, it was very warm today and yesterday. Getting a bit dizzy tonight.
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Back sore. Zila was running crazy, could not get to sleep. / When I picked her up (in the bathroom) and brought her up to my face, Zila put a claw in my face! It took awhile to get it out (of my left cheek). She's too up tight yet. When I was almost to the library, I began having a few pains in my back. It must have been a good day; my new group went up 421 dollars in one day today! I was getting very very dizzy, I could barely continue on with my work in the library. I think worst ever. My stupid neighbors of lot 84 were doing their dope again when I got home from the library. And it stinks out side, their sewer leaking is beginning to fill up the trench that I dug. I saw "Cosmo" in the library (at computer number 1), first in a long long time. He shook my hand.
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Back sore. / Sore throat coming on. Where did it come from? / A dismal day for my stocks. I now have in 19 sells for my stocks, I'm trying to sell out when I should be buying. Pathetic. The internet was down for around 30 minutes, maybe longer. Everyone had left the computers but me. / They're doing their dope again at lot 84, and their sewage stinks outside! How long do I have to put up with this crap?
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Back sore. Sore throat. Not feeling well. Why do I feel so bad tonight? I cannot get anything done. / Beginning to blow nose. / I complained to the manager about lot 84 again. / It was another mediocre day with my stocks. I wish I felt better in the library. I had a lot of burping problem, it interferes with my heart and therefore makes me feel like I'm having trouble with my heart. I wish I had more money! I now have in 21 sells, but nothing gets sold. I almost got bumped off my computer (number 4 this time) but not quite. When I got home, I found a bunch of white powder strewn around the sewer and my trench area of lot 84. And nothing else done! It makes me angry. I don't think Puddypie got into it. I sprayed it down with water from my hose. Also as I was walking by lot 84 I saw Michael come out and look at me, he was hardly wearing anything and it was cold! I was wearing three sweaters. Why did he do that? Then he went in and he was griping to Linda about something, but I could not hear what it was. {I can see now some of what was happening around me with neighbors. But then, I barely had a clue, I was busy trying to keep myself alive and going, and struggling to make my life better and to make some money. But I kept failing.}
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(Second time) blowing nose again. Back sore. Sore throat. I hope the stock market is good tomorrow and Friday. I should be sold out of at least one by Friday. Blowing nose much more now. Worked on starship design! Top view! / Zila went running around like crazy this morning. This is probably paradise for Zila; There's nothing that she wants. She doesn't want another cat, she doesn't want to get out, she seems to have no health problems, and she has all the food (including tortillas) and water that she wants, and she has lots of fun sometimes (usually when I go to bed), and she never whines for anything. It rained sometime when I was asleep, when ever that was. It was another bad day with my stocks, nothing got bought, but nothing got sold.
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Back sore. Sore throat/blowing nose. Worked on starship design, then prayed to the Lord for hours, about "life". / I am blowing nose like crazy today. I hope something has been sold today. I now have $13. / Nothing got sold or bought - again. I went to "Food 4 Less" (it better be). I now have $7. I went to the house to get my clean clothes. (With fuel tank on empty.) I really didn't want to go, after the way that Mother had treated me. I was thinking; this being Friday, I wonder if Steve might come. No, that would be too much of a coincidence. In doing some laundry, that delayed my departure awhile. Then Mother told me that Steve was due to come to spend the night. Then a bit later, Steve came! He showed us a recording that he had made. This is the first that Puddypie has gotten out at the house for a long long time. Mother gave me the $20 that I had asked her for. I brought a bunch of stuff home. It was a long journey home; I went an extra long distance to get some fuel, with my fuel tank on empty. I was feeling bad, I think I went too long of time with out eating, earlier. So around 9:00 I was beginning to feel bad. And Puddypie for some reason was whining much toward the end. I stopped 3 times to deal with him. And that virus is worse than I thought, it has been getting me down more tonight.
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I hammered head again (maybe it will help). {My doctor is a hammer.} I now have $14 again. A difficult night until I went to bed. My nose hurts and my neck hurts (from my throat) and my ears have been sore. (But other than that, I've been feeling fairly well.) Back sore. Sore throat--blowing nose. / {Tonight} I played the "Lexx" episode {the singing one that I dearly love} for Steve to watch. He did not want to see any repeats, and I don't think he liked it. And I missed some of my shows to do it! It did not go well. I was upset at his attitude and his thinking. {He did not see it as the fiction that it is, he took it too seriously as if it, or something very much like it, could happen, or was happening somewhere in the universe. What an idiot! It "spoiled" me with that favorite episode for awhile. But it revealed to me what a stupid person he was.} I now have $32. Worked 3.75.
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Back sore. Blowing nose {for days}. / First that I had talked to Eric about the letter (on the phone). He said that he was not a stock market person. Worked 5.0.
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Blowing nose. Back sore. / My dismal stocks. Not good again, except for a few of them. I got bumped off my computer two times! But got it again partly because both the librarians were nice to me. I was blowing my nose so much that my pocket went empty three times! Also, I was getting a bit dizzy in the library. Also, my nose has been getting so bad, that today flakes of skin are hanging off of it and I've been pulling them off. / Belly swelling large. Difficult to get past my bike in the kitchen.
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Back sore. Blowing nose. / -----Why does this happen? I need more space if I'm going to do this. {document my dreams.} / Another dismal day with my stocks. And it rained all day and was windy. How can it be that public sells out of good stocks, and buys bad ones?
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Blowing nose. Back sore. / Another bad stocks day. And it rained again-- half the day and tonight when I was inside the library. But there were hardly any people and I did not get bumped off. But my teeth were hurting on the right side for awhile. The new group of stocks mostly seem good and getting set to go up high, I
can only hope. Why don't they do it? And my car is going pretty good now, despite the rainy weather: The way they had my car in the past was that it would run lousy when it was rainy. But after I got home, after my shower, I found water dripping from the bottom of the freezer! And when I was in the library, my right ear came unplugged (I yawned). I guess that it had been plugged from when I woke up.
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Back sore. Blowing nose.
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Lot 84 people doing their dope again. When I got home. Back sore. Blowing nose. / What went wrong? {Could not get myself up and going.} I thought I was going to get an early start, but maybe the thought of it was too much to take. But I have not been urinating near as much (less than 2 cans!) {I had 4 near my bed, and many "nights" they got full, 29 ounces each.}, and not drinking as much, and not blowing my nose near as much. A bad day. What's wrong with the stock market? I'm very frustrated. How am I going to pay my bills? When I came out of the library, I was feeling very down, but Puddypie wanted out - during the daylight! At the first corner where I stop, I found a round white rock that I decided to take home, so I moved it so that I could bring my car around and get it. But that was not to be. I saved Puddypie from a dog: We were deep in the second corner when a man and his dog passed by in front of me. But they were on the other side of the fence and making some noise trampling over the gravel. They did not see or hear us and he had the dog on a leash. But when they got to the end of the fence, instead of going straight across the parking lot as they usually do (if it's the same ones that I've seen in the past), they came onto the lawn. I knew that this was danger, Puddypie came strolling out of his nook, I told him to be still and quiet. Then I picked him up and held him. I saw the man release the leash from the dog, because the dog started running around like crazy (it was dark at this point). There was no way out for us. And sure enough, the dog came running straight at me with no warning. I yelled at the dog, the dog stopped and ran, the man whistled at the dog, the dog ran to the man and he put the leash on and he said "Sorry about that", and they walked away. The remarkable thing was that Puddypie did not put his claws into me when the dog came. Then I let Puddypie down and I headed to the car. I started the motor. Then I started my reverse, my car got about two feet and then the motor quit. I figured that I hadn't kept the rev up. But when I started it again, there was a belt squeal, it sounded like. It was the air pump that had seized. I was going to cut the belt off, but then I thought why should I do that? So I took off the alternator pulley wheel and belt so that I could get the belt off. It took me less than 30 minutes. Then I went to "Walmart", "Food 4 Less", "Target", "Kmart" then home. I found some "Kleenex", saw some new "Johnny Lightnings" that I had not seen - fifties cars, found the calculator that I was wanting to buy months ago - but I do not have the money to buy it! Then when I got home at about 9:30, the lot 84 people were doing their dope again. I now have $5.
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22 fleas off of Zila. / Worked 4.5.
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Blowing nose. Back sore. I now have $10. The flea collar fell off of Puddypie. Worked 5.0.
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Blowing nose. Got 18 fleas off Zila. / Worked 4.75.
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Blowing nose. I now have $203. Zila was going crazy again, difficult to stay asleep. I put Puddypie in the cage! Both ears came open when i was blowing my nose in the shower. I went to the office and complained again about the lot 84 people. I was angry. And then at the library I got bumped off in less then an hour. One of my stocks got sold, it sold at the bottom and ended up higher! And one that I am trying to buy went up, and yet the stocks that I own won't go up! It's like someone is conspiring against me! I talked to Allison Tabb of "Schwab". She had a nice voice. Worked 2.0.
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Blowing nose. I took Puddypie out of the cage. I hope he learned something. It hurts in the lower right flank when I burp! And getting the shivers again a bit. I now have $194 (after food). / It seems that I'm being conspired against. The stock that got sold yesterday shot up more than a dollar higher today! As soon as I sell, it shoots up! And my clutch cable is beginning to come apart --- again! This month of February I thought was going to be when a lot of money would be coming in and therefore fewer problems. But it has tuned out to be the exact opposite with me having less money and more problems! And it's because of the stupid stock market rabbit people! When it really gets goofy is when these people sell out of "good" stocks and then they buy crappy stocks, such as some of mine. But that doesn't work for me either because my crappy stocks are so low that I would be losing a lot of money if I were to sell. I now have $86 (after electric bill and gas bill). Worked 2.25.
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Blowing nose. 45 fleas off Zila!
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Blowing nose. / I did not get to the library and did not get to work, but I got my insurance paid, and I found that my insurance had been canceled more than a month ago! So I went with a different company. And my clutch cable was coming apart so badly that I just barely got to the house with a new cable (and I put it in). There were 7 wires, 6 of them had busted! So there was only the one remaining! I was lucky. (Or unlucky that the new cable that I had put in failed so soon.)
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I now have $12 (with much borrowed). Blowing nose. 34! Fleas off Zila. 15 fleas off Puddypie. / A terrible scare: I was documenting this dream, I was printing: "over something or reading", then that's when it happened. I heard sudden clawing against thin metal, it sounded like it was the stove. And I knew it was Zila. Then Zila meowed very strangely three times as if she was in bad trouble. Then silence. I hurriedly got up and attempted to find Zila and help her, but when Zila had meowed, Puddypie came to help I guess, and he was meowing and wanting to jump up on the stove. So at first I was busy getting Puddypie away, so that I could hunt for Zila. I hunted and hunted, and looked and looked and looked, and I could not find her. I moved a bunch of things and pulled out the stove, but I could not find her. I phoned Mother and Kevin was on his way I guess. I searched and searched and searched, and could not find her. I looked at every part of the stove and I could not see how Zila could have gotten in to it. I looked in the cupboards. There had been only the 3 meows and no more clawing, so I thought Zila was dead {Boonie had died suddenly}, but I could not find her body. After about an hour, in getting ready for Kevin, I had decided to wash the pan that I had left in the shower so that I might take a shower and get dressed in my other clothes. And as I was washing, I looked over behind me and saw Zila alive and well! {I never did know what happened that night with Zila.} Worked 5.0
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Blowing nose. Worked 9.0.
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I now have $19? (after pizza) Blowing nose. / I told Kevin some things about my show after he read my page. He said that it was like a skit for "Saturday Night Live".
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Blowing nose. I now have $60. / I now have $43 (after gasoline). / I now have $41 (after lettuce). 43 fleas off Zila and 17 fleas off Puddypie.
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Blowing nose. I now have $295 (much borrowed). / I now have $41 -again! (after rent). I was hoping that the stock market would jump after Bush's great speech, but it did absolutely nothing! Very very disappointing. Worked 3.5.
MARCH 01
Blowing nose. 22 fleas off Zila. 20 fleas off Puddypie. / I now have $7 (after toothpaste and fruit). / I now have $147. Worked 3.5.
02
Blowing nose. Brushed teeth with "Tom's of Maine" "Natural toothpaste for children" "Silly Strawberry"--Finally I find a toothpaste that doesn't sting my mouth to death!! / I now have $114 (after some "Kleenex" tissue and more fruit). I went to buy the calculator that I have been wanting for months at "Target" that I found a few days ago but did not have enough money then, but it was gone! I should have hid it. Worked 1.0
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The virus is not gone! Did it go into hiding again? 20 fleas off Zila. 16 fleas off Puddypie. / Worked 3.0.
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/ Worked 2.5.
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I was on my way home with Puddypie and some idiot threw an egg at my car! Again! It hit the left front below the headlight. I turned around and phoned the Police. Then I waited and waited and rinsed it off. I
waited for an hour, then decided to go home. It happened on 19 avenue north of Thunderbird from a house, first house north of Evans on the east side. Then I got home extra late. Then sometime after I had gone to bed. Zila went running around like crazy. Difficult to get to sleep and to stay asleep. I was yelling: Zila! Then I got up late and got going late. / ---What's wrong with me? I have not been doing well for several days now. Not getting much work done. Getting difficult to stay moving with my go and stop walking, so I ate some chocolate. That's the last thing I need! {I ate chocolate almost every day to keep me going.}
Worked 4.0.
06
Right upper hip/back area sore and hurting. Puddypie had another cat fight! At home this time. 33 fleas off Zila. 29 fleas off Puddypie. / Worked 2.5.
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I now have $80 (after some food). 19? fleas off Zila. 13? fleas off Puddypie. / I now have $72 (after flea collars). I'm not happy about what happened at the library: The Witch Bitch Dominique {??} had the "sign-in" board, so I told Vicky that I would wait for computer number 10 because all the computers were taken and it was 9 then 1 then 10. I waited for awhile and I had noticed that there was no one at number 10. I asked the woman at number 9 if there was someone on number 10. She said she thought so. So I waited for that person to return. After a little while, I was wondering where "he" was, so I went into the men's room and saw that there was a guy in one of the stalls. So I came out to wait awhile longer. Then Dominique went over and gave number 10 to a woman! She was totally ignoring me. So then I waited some more and then got number 8. {All that time I have wasted in my life. And for what? It makes me want to cry.} Worked 1.0.
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I put flea collars on both Puddypie and Zila. First ever for two cats at the same time. "Hartz" "2 in 1" "Safety Snap" white. 20 fleas off Zila. 14 fleas off Puddypie. / I took out the stopper from the bathroom sink. There was a bunch of black cruddy stuff in there! I went to the library and had trouble with the new Schwab method! A box window came in front of my page! It had something to do with Newmont Mining, but it did not say what. So I started to scroll down to Newmont but then the box window disappeared. I didn't get to read it! Then I looked down to the stock and there was a red star and some of the information was missing! So then I went to Order Status and found that it had been sold! The mere 21 shares had sold at my price of 17.75 despite the fact that it shot up $1.93 to end up at 18.85 with the bid being the same! I lost $37.15!!! My sell was too low and the stupid Schwab people did not help. I had had 200% of Battle Mountain Gold at about 2 or 3 weeks after I first got in the stock market, and now I've sold at a loss. I cried later. A bad day. Then I went rushing off to get my car emission tested, but then remembered that my air pump doesn't work because it had seized a few weeks ago. (February 16) Worked 2.0.
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/ I went and paid for my "new" air pump today. I now have $18 (after paying for air pump). / I now have $113 (after paid). Puddypie's leash got soaking wet on the wet grass tonight. And when it dragged over the walkways it got filthy. So I rinsed it off at the house after putting Puddypie in the car. Then I set off to find a better price for gasoline instead of going to my usual Thunderbird Arco, Because the tank is low and I want to fill it up. So I looked along Camelback until 59 Avenue, then to Bethany. Then looked along Bethany to 35 Avenue. Then looked along 35 Avenue until Thunderbird. I had decided that if I don't find it prior Thunderbird, then I would go to the Thunderbird Arco to fill up. But I did think about checking along 43 Avenue, but said to myself; "No, don't push it" (I was getting low on fuel). I did not find it, so I headed toward the Thunderbird Arco. (Maybe I should have gone straight there.) I was approaching the intersection, the arrow was red but the light was green. So I was going to go through the green and then turn into Arco as soon as I could. (I had gone more than 300 miles on the tank and my fuel was rather low.) But sooner than I could get there, the light went yellow, then red. So I moved over and came into the right left turn lane. There was no one in the left left turn, but there was one car in front of me in the right left turn. Then as my car was sitting there with only the intersection between me and Arco, the low idle revved up high. And as I was sitting there wondering what might be wrong with my car, the motor quit! I was out of fuel! When the arrow was about to go green, I started attempting to get the motor started. It would not start. Then the arrow went green, then yellow, then red and the car in front of me which was an old large seventies yank tank had gone ahead. So now I am going to have to push it. So I put on my hazard flashers and got out, got a drink of water and the arrow went green! I wasn't ready yet. So I hurriedly started pushing. The arrow stayed green longer than I thought, but I did see it go yellow. I had pushed it across, then I filled up the tank. I filled it up! Fuller than it has ever been. Gallons 13.145! ($18.00 at 1.369) I had gone 333.3!!! (Miles on the tank.) I wondered if that meant anything. Then I came home. I now have $95 (after gasoline) Then after I came home, Puddypie gave me trouble again by urinating in my trailer again! On the middle door again! I had stepped in it and I had smelled it, but did not find it until after my shower. So I grabbed him and put him under the cold water in the bath tub again. Then put him in the cage again (for the second time). I decided for 3 days and 3 nights in the cage with no food but with water: I cannot tolerate his behavior. Worked 4.0.
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Zila went in the rear room and disappeared to do what ever she does in there. I told her to get out repeatedly. She doesn't mind me well sometimes. She did not come out. This has happened too many times in the past. I don't want her in there any more because I don't know what she does in there and there might be some thing important in there that she might be messing up. So after awhile I was able to grab her and I put her under the cold water in the bath tub. This is the first time ever for Zila. She doesn't mind me well enough. I have not been able to get her to stop clawing the wood in the middle room. I have yelled and yelled and yelled at her and I have attempted to show her what she may claw but she does not quit. Carolyn got her letter today and she said absolutely nothing to me about it.
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After I got home tonight Puddypie pooped in the cage but not in the cage tray. Puddypie is not good at this sort of thing of accuracy in the tray. And it is cramped for him in there. So, for me to clean it up I needed to let him out of the cage. He went and started eating some food. Then when I was finished, I put him in the cage again. I now have $86 (after tortillas). The other day, Friday or Saturday, after I had put in some complaints to Schwab because I was very irritated with Schwab because of what happened Thursday, after having been feeling very down about everything, for some reason I was feeling rather happy. And at the end of my shower, of all things, I got a brilliant idea for an advertisement for Schwab! It' a hospital surgery room, a doctor is doing surgery on someone. There are two nurses assisting him. While he is busy working on the patient, the nurses are talking about investments. They talk a bit, the doctor says "scalpel', and one of the nurses hands it to him. The nurses talk a bit more, then the doctor says "clamp". And the nurse hands it to him. Then the nurses say one more thing about investments, and the doctor says "Schwab", and the nurse hands him a phone. / Today, I rushed to the library (as usual). As I was walking in, one wheel of my case was sort of dragging. So when I got to the walkway (landing), I shoved the case in reverse to free the wheel and at that moment, the handle started to telescope in and it caught my smallest finger. This sort of thing has happened several times in the past with this case of mine, but this time it was the worst so far. It put a small hole in my finger and it was bleeding. It was bleeding all the way in to the library computer room. I was tending to it while I was waiting for a computer. And today they put in two new computers; 11 and 12! But I cannot use them because one cannot print with them! So it's the same as it was, with computers 4, 8 and 10 being all that I can use, except now it's worse! Because there are two more computers that need to be filled up until anyone can be bumped off. I never thought that the new computers coming in would make it worse for me! I guess I didn't think far enough ahead to have known what the situation was going to be. So as I was looking at my finger, I did not see the person on number 10 leave. Then I saw that no one was there, so I got up and walked over and looked, and that person was gone. So I headed over to get the number. But I saw a man coming toward the computers with a number in his hand, and it was number 10! Why didn't he get a different number? Why that number? It's because the other person set the number down in front, where it will be taken, and I was not there soon enough to get it. That was a costly mistake on my part. I had to wait an hour to get a computer. (Again.) Then I did my bit of work and then rushed off to the house, but I got there so late (after dark), that it was too late to do any work. But I put my new air pump on my car. It was easy this time! Then after I got home, true to what I had decided, I let Puddypie out of the cage.
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/ Then today, I rushed to the library (and it was a bad day with my stocks yesterday, having waited an hour to see it), did my bit of work, and then rushed off to the emissions place. There was hardly anyone there! So I didn't have long to wait. I had waited awhile, then I shut off the motor and went in and used the "bathroom". Then I came out and started it up again. Then one of the guys told me that I had a leak! Then I noticed that the red light was on, and from what they said, I figured that the motor was over heating. So I revved up the motor for a bit but the light did not go off (--that was my mistake; I was thinking of the wrong car. my car has an electric fan). So I shut it off and got out and looked. And I was thinking; no, not again, this happened to me last year. It was coolant coming (actually boiling) out. After awhile, they said that my car had to go through. So they pushed it through and I ended up stopping it at the exact same place that I had previously had my major trouble at the emissions place there. But after awhile, I discovered that all it was was a loose connection of the cooler fan thermostat. So I reconnected it and started it up and went around and went through again and it passed! I now have $73 (after emissions test). Worked 3.0.
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I now have $27 (after "Safeway"). Then I went to the library (after home and unload), and found that they have two new computers -- 13 and 14. I stayed longer this time. Then I rushed off to "Trader Joe's" and picked out some food and then found that I don't have enough money to pay for it! {They knew me there as the exact change man.} So then I went to the house getting there extra late (long after dark). And I thought that Mother would be upset with me but she wasn't (she wanted me to sweep and to get another water bottle). I now have $92 (after paid). Worked 1.0.
Not feeling well. Having some pains in lower abdomen and then getting the shivers again. What's causing this? / Today, I went and got my car's registration. There were many people there but it did not take long. I now have $53 (after registration).
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Having trouble again. A pain in my lower right flank and pains in my chest and some burping. What is wrong? / I put a quart of oil in my car's motor. I looked at my timing belt and it is getting rather bad. It has a bunch of small chunks out of it and one "thread" is loose. Then I rushed off to the library. I now have $45 (after "Trader Joe's"). Then I went to the house and Mother wanted me to mow the front lawn at 9:30 at night! Then later, when I was on my way home, I turned off of Dunlap on to 19 avenue and there was a truck coming along a ways behind me to make the same turn. I turn into the middle lane every time. I do that because in going home I'm not in a hurry and so I'm cruising at about 36 miles per hour so I don't want to be in the left lane, and the right lane along there is too bumpy for my {race} car. Then, every time, when I cross Hatcher I move over to the left about 2 feet because there are some trench cuts in the street and it is too bumpy for my car. And then sooner than I get to Mountain View I have moved over again. There was a brite white Chevy truck with two guys in it coming from behind, and I guess that it was the same one because there was no one else on the street, only them and me. They were coming a ways behind when I moved over. Then I returned to the center of the lane. They had also been in the middle lane since Dunlap and then at this point they had caught up to me. But then they came up too close behind me for a little while. Why did they do that? I'm not their enemy. Why didn't they go into the right lane or the left lane? I was in the middle lane from the beginning, why didn't they take a different lane? Then they moved over into the left lane and came along side me. Then at this point, as I usually do every time, I slowed down because I am too far ahead for the next red light at Peoria. But when I slowed down, so did they. What's wrong with these people? What's wrong with this picture? What's wrong with society? Then I speeded up a bit because I had slowed down more then I needed to. Then they speeded up to stay along side of me. Then I was beginning to wonder what I should do as I was coming up to Peoria. And the guy on the right, who seemed to be baldish, was staring at me the whole time. {Come on, people, I'm not out to bother anyone, I'm only trying to do whatever I'm trying to do. Why can't people leave me alone? Whether I'm on my bike, or in my car, people keep bothering me.} And I mostly was ignoring them. And both our windows were rolled up. Then as I got to Peoria, I was in perfect timing; the light went from red to green and I kept going at the same speed. They had slowed down and turned left onto Peoria going west. This proves that they did not need to be in the middle lane at all. So why were they in the middle lane? What's wrong with people these days? They were trying to make me do something to them so that then they could do something to me. What's wrong with these people? Is it a cult? Is it the Mob? Is it the Klu Klux Klan? Or is it only "Road Hogs" who think they own the street? Worked 1.0.
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Belly swelling large and very slow and sluggish and I was coughing earlier. I now have $158 (after refunds of air pump at "Checker" and clutch cable at "Autozone"). Worked 3.5.
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The other day, I saw print on the rear window of a truck that read: "dropped at birth". And today I saw another that read: " ? from hell" I now have $90 (after "Autozone"- oil for mower and "Food 4 Less" - fruit and sausage and "Trader Joe's" - 15 "Clif" bars and 1 more nuts.) / I first watched the show "Waterworld" (1995). I almost didn't see it because it had a very unappealing name and most shows are lousy. But this show had a lot of action in it and when there was no action, it held my attention instead of being boring like most shows are. And most interesting of all is that it is very much like my show (in my mind)! And like what I want my show to be like! -- "Star Trek Remade: The New View". Worked 2.0.
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I now have $78 (after "Fry's" and "Fry's" -- food). Zila caught her first fly (and ate it), with a lot of help from me. I had to call her 3 times! But she came every time! And my throat has been hurting from calling her name. It was a very small fly - a spindly one. With wings straight out to the rear. Throat hurts. Worked 2.75.
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The last few days, I have been having some trouble with my belly, with a large belly, with some pains, and with some burping. I thought it might be the chocolate, so I have been getting away from it. But now it is really bad. I'm in bad trouble! I cannot lay down, I cannot read, and most of the time I cannot sit. I have a large belly with much pressure in my body. I am burping nearly constantly. I cannot burp enough. What is the cause of this problem? Could it be the ice cream? If so, could it be the vanilla or vanillin that is in both my chocolate and my ice cream? Or does it have something to do with milk, that is in both of them? / It was not cold in the night, needed no heat! Sometime later, when I was asleep, Zila appeared in front of my face. She woke me up by her movement. I looked, and I saw her move in a strange way like she was sick or crippled or something. Then she had stopped moving and was standing in a strange position as if she could not get her legs to move properly to stand up straight. And I thought; "oh no, I don't need some weird thing to be wrong with Zila." Then I thought, that if there is something wrong with her, then I should take off the flea collar. So then I looked at the collar and saw that somehow she had gotten her left foreleg all the way through the collar and was stuck! And I guess she came to me for help. So I put her leg through and then she was okay. That was a relief, I don't need anymore problems! Worked 1.5.
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I now have $273 (after paid). The fleas are beginning to die. 2 tonight and 1 the other night. They are dropping like flies and squirming around. / I took off the flea collars from Puddypie and Zila. {I think I took them off because I was planning to take them into the vet, and so did not want the poison to be too much of a problem.} I now have $973 in my wallet! (after bank). I now have $972 (after library). My tires have started to squeal. I think it must be because there is increased pressure in them now from the warmer weather. I now have $472 (after repaying Mother). I now have $455 (after gasoline). After getting home, I emptied the food bowl. Then took shower. Worked 2.0.
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/ I took Puddypie and Zila to the vet for Zila to be spayed and for Puddypie's teeth to be cleaned. Puddypie was not a bit happy to go there and Zila was very frightened, I had her in a cage (not the same one). It took a long time. It was a long day for me and something of an ordeal for the cats, more so with Zila. This was the first time that I had taken her out anywhere since the beginning of when I had gotten Swankie and Zila. I waited around for an hour or two, then when it seemed that there would be nothing to do (prior I got there, I thought I might sleep on their bench), I took off and went to the library. And as I was walking in (outside) a older slim man was walking out past me and he said to me: "Oh, don't look so studious with your eyeglasses and your big case." I got there in the morning! First ever! When the stock market was open! When I encountered this, I felt like it was a hindrance to my work! So I didn't get much of anything done. When I first came walking in, I thought I might have heard the one librarian who is the Trekkie say to Dominique, something like; Here comes ???? (me). Because then Dominique turned to her and said something like; "Oh no." I guess neither of them like me. Then I had to wait a while for computer number 4. They now have 19 computers, but the only ones that I can do only some of my work on is number 4. One computer! Out of 19! They are crowded and many of them won't print. I ended up waiting until after the stock market had closed to print my dailies. I saw some of my stocks get worse and ONE got better. Then I brought Puddypie and Zila home. Puddypie was very frightened at first and Zila was very upset. After I got them home, Zila went and hid in the rear of the trailer. She was spatting and growling at me! And she did the same with Puddypie. But everytime Zila would start coming out of her hiding place, Puddypie would come running to her (I guess to greet her). But Zila was acting like Puddypie was a stranger and she would spat and growl at him and then she would go running into her hiding place again. (This happened at least 3 times so then I got angry and put Puddypie in the cage for a little while.) But every time this would happen, Puddypie was acting like Zila was rejecting him and he would whine and moan. His moaning sounded terrible, like he was dying. I now have $117 (after Puddypie and Zila). I had waited around for awhile. Then it seemed that they were going to be okay, so I took off to the house. I had put out some food for them, and Puddypie ate some, but Zila would not. Worked 2.0.
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Then after I got home, Puddypie kept moaning and moaning. I guess at the way that Zila was treating him. (Puddypie seems to think a lot of Zila.) But he would not stop. So when I was in the shower, after numerous times of me telling him to quit, I had had enough. So I came out of the middle of my shower, grabbed him and brought him into the shower. Then I put him in the cage for awhile. Then he was quiet for awhile. Then I
got to bed and although after having stayed up all night, then all day, nothing changed! I did get to bed earlier the next night, but I did not get up earlier. By the next night, Zila (and Puddypie) was much better to where she was starting to get lovie-dovie with me. Worked 4.0.
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/ Then by the next day, -- today, things are mostly normal now. I now have $80 (after "Safeway" (fruit) and "Pets Mart"). Worked 4.5.
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/ Puddypie went into the rear and would not come out, so I went in (first time in years) and grabbed him and put him under the water again (by now he knows what it's like) and then put him in the cage (for a week?). / I now have $69 (after "Clif" bars - 12 from "Trader Joe's"). Not doing well. Having a very difficult time doing anything - again. I can hardly move. This has been happening to me for maybe 2 hours at a time in the last few days (I have not been able to document these). This one is longer. What is wrong with me? It's like my energy has been sapped away. Worked 4.0.
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I now have $49 (after "Fry's"- lettuce and carrot, $3 for gasoline for mower, "Fry's"- tortillas). / On the way home tonight, I encountered a red Chrysler Jeep (Cherokee). I had turned onto 7 Avenue from Rose Lane and saw it coming way down the street but in the right lane. So I moved over into the middle lane. Then I saw the green light ahead at Glendale and figured that I was too far behind, so I speeded up. Then when I came to I saw that I was too far ahead, so I slowed down. Then they started catching up to me. Then at about this point, I figured that I had gone slower long enough, So I speeded up to my cruising speed of about 36 miles per hour. At this point, they had caught up to me and were now keeping pace with me intentionally. I don't know who was in the car or what they were doing, but at one point I looked over and I thought I saw someone waving to me. I don't remember exactly what happened but I moved over into the left lane to give myself some more room. I was beginning to get rather nervous. {All I want to do is go home!} Then I looked in front of me and saw that I was rapidly coming upon a red light at Glendale. I was too far ahead! So I slowed down suddenly and from the other car I heard someone say something like; "Jess/Gees". Then the light went green and I speeded up. Then I started hunting for the phone {inside my car} so that I could call the Police. Then they started to catch up. Then they passed me. Then they did a bit of a waggle {with their car}. Then I think they slowed down and I passed them. I had found the phone and had put it on the floor beside me. Then they turned off a short ways after Glendale. I need to keep the phone there in easy reach. And in a situation like this with only me and someone else on the street, I should have slowed down enough so that they would have passed me. I can speed up later to regain my timing.
{But would that work with all the crazies on the streets?} At first, they might have thought that I was keeping pace with them. I don't know what they were thinking. Seems to me it was two young guys I saw in the car. I did not go to the library today -- a first! I now have $301 (after paid). Worked 5.5.
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I have discovered that Zila's and Puddypie's claws were point-cut at the veterinarian and I am rather unhappy about it. / I now have $287 (after Mark's - for edger and library -$1). I edged at home, then went to the library (I only go about every other day now), then edged Mother's lawn. It was very difficult and I was tired, but I got it done. A sting in right flank. Worked 2.5.
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I let Puddypie out of the cage. I put the flea collars on Puddypie and Zila again. / I now have $33 (after rent). Worked 1.5.
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{Worked for more than an hour-} 112 fleas off Zila! 124 fleas off Puddypie! Are the flea collars doing anything? / I now have $24 (after chocolate at Osco Drug-1.49 each!).
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53? fleas off Zila. 111 fleas off Puddypie. Very strange dream(s): The world was going to ruin. Everyone was upset and wondering what to do... at the end (of dream), I was in a fair sized room full of concerned people. Several people had spoken, then when everyone had their say, I got up and gave a speech. At first, I was telling everyone that there was really nothing wrong. Then I got around to mentioning the economy and the stock market. And at the end, I said that if everyone is sensible, and they buy good stocks and they don't sell out, then everything will be okay. But when I was speaking, everytime I looked around, there were fewer people in the room, but I did not actually see anyone get up and walk out. By the end, there were only about 1/3 of the people from when I started. But instead of this discouraging me, and causing me to stop or slow down, it made me to be more determined and to speak louder and more rapidly and with more force. This seemed to be a very long dream, and by the time I had gotten myself up, I had forgotten most of it and remembered only some of the end. {I have documented many dreams, but many of my dreams don't make enough sense, or I can't remember enough of them, but some are better then any of the shows I watch.} / I now have $79 (after paid). Worked 4.5.
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34 fleas off Zila. 83 fleas off Puddypie. / Having trouble in belly-getting large. / Worked 3.5.
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Having trouble in belly again. Getting large. What's wrong? / Teeth hurting on right. / Not sure what night this was: Zila was running around like crazy having lot of fun. Running around so much that her flea collar had caught on something and it had come off. It had "snapped" off. I found it after I had awoke in front of my bed. Worked 4.5.
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I took off the cooler vent and sealer. {I keep the trailer "sealed" against the cold and use the refrigerator and stove for heat during the cold weather, and then unseal it for the hot weather not using any heat, because of the hole in the roof being then open.} 26 fleas off Zila. 44 fleas off Puddypie. / I swept and raked up my lot. And then I got up on the ladder and took out the pad units from the cooler. / I now have $40 (after "Food 4 Less"). I now have $30 (after gasoline). I now have $70 (after paid). I told Kevin about my new idea for a stock market show for television, and he said; "Oh, I don't think the world is ready for such a tragedy." {He's cruel.} Worked 1.0.
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33 fleas off Zila. 22 fleas off Puddypie. Dreams - One: I had somehow agreed to marry a woman and the wedding was in a few hours that night. I had picked out the clothes that I was going to wear (I had in mind my black and brown and blue spotted shirt) but I needed to take a shower and get ready and everyone else had gone to the wedding. Then I got to thinking; I did not know this woman, I did not know what she liked and what she disliked, and I could not remember what sort of face she had, and we had not gone on a "date" and I had not kissed her yet. So I decided that I could not marry her. But I thought that I should go ahead and get ready and go and tell them my self instead of not showing up. But there had been no rehearsals for the wedding and no one had told me where the wedding was and there was no one to call. {The closest I ever get to marriage is in my dreams.} / I now have $60 (after chocolate -- "Osco" - last of what they had). Worked 1.0.
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I put the cooler fan on and blew out some dust. / Worked 5.0.
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/ Getting slightly dizzyish in the library. I now have $14 (after "Safeway"-- mostly and "Fry's"- lettuce 2 - in the rain after the library!).
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23 fleas off Zila. 41 fleas off Puddypie. When are things going to get better? When is the stock market going to start going? / Having a bit of trouble in belly. I now have $139 (after paid). Worked 4.0.
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/ Getting dizzy. I now have $59 (after library - $1, and gas bill). Worked 2.0.
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/ I have $60 (from pizza that cost less). Worked 2.0.
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I found a place in the rear of the trailer on my laundry sacks where Puddypie has been urinating. So I got very angry at him and put him in the cage again. When will he learn? He's not a smart cat to defy me like this! I rigged my trailer for heat too soon! It's cold in here and has been for several nights. I think I heard Carla having sex with someone. With who? She has had a baby with Eric {Not my brother.} without getting married. She sounded like a yelping dog. She's a slut. 9 fleas off Zila. 10 fleas off Puddypie-(I took him out for it). / Knee hurting. I now have $23 (after APS bill). I now have $7 (after gasoline). When I was filling up the tank (at 1.359!), I estimated that it would come to 11.7 because full is 13 and the tank was not very close to empty. And it did! It was 11.775. Mowed lawn. I now have $77 (after paid). Worked 4.5.
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I'm putting on socks tonight! / It's cold today and raining and so it will be colder tonight so I resealed the cooler vent and put on the heat. It's cold in here! And has been for several days. And the one long screw is too long, I'm going to need to redo it. Now the rain is dripping onto the sealer! I'm in trouble if it keeps up! / I rush to the library and then I sat and waited for nearly an hour for a computer and spent only 10 or 15 minutes on it! Then I rushed to the house and it was dark by then! And it rained some.
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The people of lot 84 are flooding my lot again with some sort of water leak from the bottom rear of their trailer! Put new pads on (at 4.0) {--on my lens's frame at 4.0 mm?} I can't find my notebook! No heat needed tonight! Zila is a totally happy cat. There is nothing that she wants. She has all the food that she wants, including tortillas when I eat them. She doesn't want any different food from what she has. She has all the sleep and water that she wants. She doesn't want to go out side, although she has shown a little bit of interest, but she has not stepped all the way out when I have had the door open. She runs around and plays when ever she wants. She has been playing with an orange rine that I cut. It's rounded like a rocking chair and it won't tip over. It spins around. She has lots of fun. She has all the loving that she wants, from me. And she doesn't want another cat, and she doesn't care that Puddypie is in the cage. She is content. But Puddypie is the opposite. The food is not great and he wants out every day and every night including when it's raining until I hold him out in the rain - like he can't see it for himself looking out the window to see that everything is wet. And he wants another cat but he attacks every cat he sees. Nothing is good enough for him. I have never known a cat to whine as much as he whines. For awhile I thought it might be problems with his teeth. So I had his teeth cleaned. I have given him tremendously more than I have given to any other cat. I have paid hundreds of dollars on him at the veterinarian. I never took Boonie to the vet until it was far too late; He died 2 days later. Puddypie has gotten much more than Boonie got. In love, in food, in freedom. But it's not good enough for him. One of the 3 of us is happy. While Puddypie and I have been having a miserable time, Zila has been having a great time. Isn't that strange.
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/ I have been having a very difficult time getting myself up without the chocolate. / Worked 4.0.
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I now have $68 (after a new harness for Puddypie. The other day, I haven't been able to find his "old" one, and 3 wire brushes - $2 - small from "Homebase" - going out of business - I think this is the first purchase that I have made here!) I let Puddypie out! But I put him on a short leash so that he can go to only what he needs to. / It seems that I am getting more and more angry. It is a terrible struggle for me to get myself going each day without the chocolate. I get angry. Puddypie whines, that makes me angry. And there's my crappy neighbors at lot 84, that makes me angry. Today when I came out to my car, I saw a beer can laying behind my car. I kicked it. It went up and bounced off their trailer. And it seems that I'm not able to get anywhere with my life or get anything that I want and it seems that I will never get a woman, and these things make me angry! / I now have $43 (after "Trader Joe's"). Worked 3.0.
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When I got home tonight, I saw that someone at lot 84 had put their cook-out thing over next to my Jeep. So I went and picked it up and carried it over to their side. / Easter day and no one came together! / I saw another Kevin Costner disaster movie! "The Postman" (1997) -- This guy must like this type of story. It was on TBS I finished going through the "old" phone books and loaded them up (new pen) and then took them to the bin. Then when I got home, I found that my neighbors at lot 31, left some garbage on my lot from their work on their black car, and a tub of I guess, oil! {People who live in trailer parks tend to be total idiots!} Worked 5.0.
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/ Zila going crazy again. / When I left home today, Eric and Carla were having another fight. Then I went to the office and after finding the door locked with the sign in the window reading "open" - again, I went around and found the manager laying on the floor, sleeping with the door wide open. Worked 4.5.
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I now have $40 (after "Fry's" carrot roots). A pain in my left belly and a sting through my hands. / They flooded my lot again today! I opened up my cooler vent again. I now have $13 (after a few bargains at "Homebase"). I now have $73 (after paid).
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I now have $59 (after "Fry's"). I heard kittens last night. They were under a trailer. They were whining for their mother, but I could not see them. There is a narrow slot open in the skirting (lot 33). / Tonight they (or at least the one) was whining louder. He or she apparently crawled all the way over to under the trailer at lot 32 and was whining loudly. So I decided to get it. {THIS WAS ALAY.} I now have $56 ("Fry's" goat milk). I put on the (cooler) fan today and some last night, it's getting hot in here. I now have $21 (after taking the new kitten to the veterinarian). She said that the kitten was a female and that she was about 3 weeks old and weighed 0.4 pounds. I brought the kitten to the house with me, and the goat milk. At first Mother liked the kitten, and held her at least once, and took her close for a hug. But later, Mother was very unhappy with me and the kitten and was nasty to me and she got paranoid with the fleas after one flea jumped onto her arm when she was close to the cage. The kitten was treated for fleas earlier in the day, what more can be done??? It's the same nonsense that Mother was thinking about the mice some weeks or months ago. Worked 2.5.
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After I got home, I did not hear any other kittens. And it took awhile for her to be quite, but then she purred for me for the second time and this is when she has begun to take the milk. The first time that she purred for me was earlier at the house. I now have $86 (after paid). I got rid of tonight that last goat milk that I was feeding to Swankie and Zila months ago. It was about half full and did not seem to be spoiled! The date on it was T00K20- (B). / {It came into my mind today--} Name for a cat? : Alay.
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Fruit cake from Christmas! It hasn't spoiled yet - some. / Sting in body. The new kitten climbed out of the cage tonight at the house when I had the top open when I turned my back, then she dropped to the kitchen counter then she slid off and dropped to the floor! She stayed in one place for a little while and then I picked her up and put her in the cage again. She did not seem to be hurt. Then she started to climb out again so I closed the top! Worked 3.5.
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/ It has been a bit cold in here and the new kitten has begun to go into the box. The new kitten's "first" poop log. And she put her claws into her face! It is very windy and cold today! So I put the small box in the car cage with a towel for the kitten. And after I put the cage in the car, it did not take long for her to go into the box. But after we got going, she would not stay in the box. Maybe she was getting too warm? I now have $84 (after "Homebase" again). I now have $67 (after "Trader Joe's" cakes). Raining today and more tonight. I got rained out! I am worried about the kitten tonight: She has not hardly taken any milk today or tonight, and she has been so desperately wanting to suck on the eye dropper that she brings her paw to her face and claws her own face or mouth. At least once she came close to putting a claw in her eye! And yet at the same time she doesn't seem to want the milk that much. And she has been sleeping most of the time tonight. Worked 1.0.
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But on the way home tonight, she pooped her "second" log. After getting home, I gave her some more milk
(once), and fixed up the box and she went inside. Later I fixed it up better with a towel over the top and front with a rock on top to hold it in place, and I heard her purring inside the box! It is cold tonight! / The mexicans playing their music again at lot 31! A very difficult time for me and the kitten. It was very cold. I could not get warm enough. I had fixed up a towel over the box in the cage for the kitten that came down over the opening with a rock on top to hold it in place. The kitten stayed in there for awhile and slept, but maybe it got too cold for her in there and she came out and was whining and whining. I was giving her some milk but the milk was cold also. So I took her and put on one flame on the stove and held her over the flame for awhile making sure that it was not too warm for her and that I did not drop her. She did not seem well and I think she was shaking and I know I was shaking. We both got warmed up after awhile. I did not want to put on the heat because the roof (cooler vent) is open and this IS very late for the cold weather and a few days ago it was getting very hot inside the trailer. Then I got the rock and put it on the stove with the lowest heat for a little while and then I was holding the kitten up to the light bulb above the cage in the middle room because the stove didn't seem to be working to warm her up. Then I think a small piece of the rock exploded off and I did not see where it went. Then I shut off the stove and waited. I had to wait a long time for the rock to be not too hot, it was very hot. Then I took the rock and put it under the towel inside the box. Then I took the kitten and put her inside the box but she did not want to stay in there until I had her paw touch the towel that was over the rock, then she went in and stayed for awhile. But later she came out again and was whining. Then by mid "afternoon" it had warmed up some. The kitten urinated the "first" time tonight. I did quite well tonight. I finished mowing the lawn at a lower 2.5 (was 2.0). Worked 5.0.
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/ I am getting worried about the kitten. She seems very weak now after these 2 cold nights. And the only thing she gets is cold milk. {Why didn't I warm it up? I did for Swankie and Zila.} I took the kitten to the veterinarian again, but the woman there could not do anything for her. But she did give me a furry bird to put in the cage and I got the nursing bottle. Then I went to the office to see how Sherie was. She was okay. And I complained about the neighbors at lot 31 -- again! Then I went home to bring a can of cat food with me to the house -- if I could get the kitten to eat some. I now have $ (from last night - $57 -- gasoline -- I went 326 miles on the tank!) $28 (after "Homebase" again - the last day -- 90% off! - mostly screws - I bought about $275 worth and paid $29.37!). It's difficult feeding the kitten milk, so no can tonight. I heated up the milk and attempted to use the bottle, but it did not work and the milk was cold again right away. So I returned to the eye dropper. I now have $24 (after "Fry's" lettuce). Worked 0.5.
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It has begun to cool off inside the trailer. I began thinking if I could rig up a cage up to the ceiling light bulb. I did not see a way. So I began thinking that if I cannot bring the cat to the heat, then bring a light bulb to the cage. I was wondering how I could do that when I remembered my slide sorters. I found one up in the same room. I took out the bulb and socket and got most of the dust off. Then I rigged it up with it hanging (the bulb) against the cage. It is only a 40 watt bulb, so I began thinking about finding some sort of reflector dish to direct the heat into the cage. Then I remembered my reflectors for my lights in the rear room that I had bought years ago. So I went to get one and it would not come off the socket, so I thought, why not set up the whole thing? It has a 100 watt bulb and a clamp on it! So I set it up. Earlier tonight, I got my large furry cat that Mother had at the house and I put it in the car cage, then when I got home I put it in the home cage. The bulbs were putting out so much heat that I moved the furry cat so that the kitten could be at any distance from the heat and I switched off the 40 watt bulb. The kitten moved around for awhile and then settled down in one spot. I wish that I had done this 2 nights ago! I was thinking earlier, that a cat cannot take a nice hot shower to get warmed up, and cannot eat fruit to get warmed up, and cannot eat a hot meal to get warmed up. And it's only a little kitten, and cannot get busy doing something to get warmed up. And it only has cold milk to drink. This also solves the problem (for now) of a night light. My pen disappeared! Worked 5.5.
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/ I went again with the kitten to the veterinarian but they were closed until 2:00! I wanted to take off and go to the house, but decided that it would be best to stay and wait. So I set the cage down on the walk way and sat down. I thought that I would be waiting more than 30 minutes, but they came at about 1:45. She spent a lot of time nursing my kitten with a bottle with formula in it. And they gave me that new bottle traded for the first one. But this "recheck" cost me $20. But I only had $24. I now have $4. / I now have $44 (after paid). I took the kitten to the veterinarian again. For "subcutaneous fluids" again and a enema and a pet nurser kit. She has been fighting the bottle every time and not getting enough milk. Alay is costing me a lot of money. And I hope she doesn't die on me after all this money. I now have $14. / Alay seems to be doing much better late today and tonight. I had her out of her cage {at the house} out in the rear east yard when I was working on the vines. When she saw me, she kept coming to me when I was raking up. Then later she was more lively in the cage (wanting to do a "pull-up" hanging from the top of the cage!). And she has hardly whined any. But she keeps fighting the bottle. I now have $139 (after paid). Worked 5.0.
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Another idiot -- in a (metallic) Chevy truck! - Gave me trouble when I was on my way home shortly after I had turned onto 7 Avenue after Rose Lane. I was going slow because I was too far ahead. When I got to M there was the truck waiting at the red light on the east side. The light was about to change as I went through. Then after, he turned right and came up behind me (we were both in the right lane). It occurs to me now that if he was going to turn right, then why was he waiting on the red light? They came up close to me. So without being able to see if the middle lane was clear, I slowly moved over into the middle lane so that they would not be behind me and so they could go on their way. But then he moves over to be close behind me again! So then I moved over into the right lane again. I am doing every thing to get out of his way! Then I moved into the middle lane again and reached down and got the phone in my hand and when I was going to open it up to call 911, he turned off on one of the small streets and as he did so he honked a bit. It is also strange that each time that he moved over to be behind me, he put on his turn signal. What is wrong with these people!!!!! And why do they bother me? I now have $120. (after "Fry's"). / It's getting hot in here! I have the fan on, but I need to get the cooler going soon. My eyes are are giving me a lot of trouble. They are watering and hurting after I rub them (I washed them earlier). Alay laid down for me for the first time tonight when I had her on the kitchen table. Worked 4.0.
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I did a terrible thing: I came home tonight and was smelling that stink again from the drain pipes. (I think {brother} Eric did not pipe it the correct way.) So I started flushing the toilet (that is usually where it is) and I was calling Zila over to watch. But Zila was afraid of it. (She has enjoyed watching it in the past.) So I went and picked her up and held her when I flushed it but she became very afraid and was jerking around and because I did not have a good grip on her she jumped out of my hands and nearly landed on Puddypie. (Puddypie is not a bit afraid.) So I was determined to show Zila it so that she would not be afraid of it and could enjoy it again. So I went and got her again and was going to hold her tight this time so that she could not get away. Then I flushed it again with my foot. She started jumping around in my hands. So then I pressed in with a lot of force with my hands on her mid body (behind front legs) and when
I did, my hands suddenly moved inward and I felt and heard a pop. She then stopped for a moment then started moving again and I let her go. I was then terribly afraid that I had hurt her badly. For a long time I prayed and cried for my very precious Zila. I could not ask for a more loving cat than my sweet Zila. She has a lot of love in her. And to lose her or badly injure her would be absolutely devastating to me, especially in such a dumb way only to show her the flushing toilet that really has no importance. I kept checking her, but she seemed to be okay. By the way, Zila's claws are very sharp now, I wonder about Puddypie's. / Teresa had taken my pen, and she returned it today, but without the cap!I can't use it without the cap. There is definitely something wrong with Alay. She fights the bottle furiously every time. She won't take enough of the milk. She fights the bottle with all her strength. So much so that she claws her own face. Tonight she clawed a small chunk out of her right cheek. If this continues she will die. What is wrong with her? She is a very sweet cat. A light was out on the house east front wall. I was sweeping so I could use the light, so I took the huge housing off and put in a 100 watt bulb, I think it had a 60 watt bulb but seemed to be a heavy duty socket. Then I went to put on the housing again and then there was a loud sparking and then the light went out! I might have been electrocuted! I'm glad I wasn't. Worked 4.5.
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When I got home tonight, I walked by my window and then I wondered if Zila was up there at the window (I was wondering if she was okay), so I returned and looked through the window as best I could and I thought I saw white on hind legs! Then the cat turned around and again I thought I saw white on the face. And I
could not remember any white on Zila. So I was thinking; this is Puddypie. So I put on my light that was around my neck {I used a "Snakelight" for years} and I saw that it was Puddypie! How did he get loose? I came in to find that the neck buckle had come lose and he had walked out of the harness. So it wasn't the leash. It has been only 14 "days", but because of this, I will let him stay free, as long as he behaves. / I heard (from Mother) a really bizarre thing earlier today: That Kevin wants to divorce Teresa! And now tonight, I already have a theory about what is going on: That Kevin is thinking that he cannot achieve his spiritual bliss because he is married. So, the only thing to do in his mind is to get a divorce, then he will be free to his own selfish realization. {Any truth in it?} I have been very worried about Alay. I don't know if she will live. Mother and I prayed for her earlier. And I prayed for her again. Alay has begun to use the cage tray and then I saw her licking her paw. And I have begun to give her the bottle standing, instead of holding her on her back in my hand. It is working out much better. I couldn't get anything done today. Could not get to the cooler. It is getting very hot in here. I have been doing very poorly. I now have $74 (after "Food 4 Less" fruit. And $1 library Friday). Worked 0.0.
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I made a goat-milk-bottle holder for Alay! Now, if it works, Alay can come anytime she wants and get some milk. I made it from a goat milk carton! I cut two holes in it and then slid the bottle through and then anchored the carton in the cage and cut a window so that I can see the amount of milk. (The bottle is at an angle.) / I worked on the cooler. Cleaned it and put the water on. I hope that that is about all I will need to do. Alay is doing better. She must be, she is getting tubby! Worked 0.0.
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The cooler has not been holding it's water and has begun to leak, drip through sometime when I was asleep, and has gotten some of my things wet! Zila doesn't hardly growl at Alay anymore. Zila has begun to get on top of the cage and paw at Alay. I am getting after her about that. My Omni fuel gauge light went out tonight. / I dreamed a very strange thing; that I was a very handsome guy and that most women saw me as very attractive. / I cleaned and coated the cooler. And I got no coating on my body or my clothes!!! First ever! Alay is getting very very tubby. She rarely whines anymore, and when she does, it is very low, not loud like was at first. When a cat is a happy cat, it does not whine. And her rectum {anus} is close to normal now. It was sticking out aways. I now have $64 (after gasoline). Worked 0.0.
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/ As I was getting ready, some water was flung on my arms. At first I thought that it was my own sweat being blown from the blowing air from the cooler fan. But that would happen only once. It happened again. Then I thought that maybe water was being blown from the bottom of the cooler. But I thought; that can't be, because there's no water in the cooler pan and it's not raining. Then it happened again and my chest or belly got hit. Then I looked over and saw Puddypie laying up at the window and he was swishing his tail from side to side as it was hanging over the edge of my shelf unit and his tail was wet! He must have got it into one of the water bowls. Eric and Carla having a fight again with a lot of foul language from her. This time Carla is telling Eric to get "out of my house" and to leave (what's new?) for the umpteenth time. Are these people looney tunes or what? I do not know when it ended, because I was leaving. I now have $334 (after paid). Worked 2.0.
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/ I went to the veterinarian and showed my little kitten (Alay) to the women that were there. They said that she was doing much better but they were not impressed with me. Then I ran over to "Fry's" to get the money "order" for the rent. I now have $80 (after rent). Then I went to the office and complained -- again, about the mexicans at lot 31. (Their pot of oil and their music.) I had Alay out in the yard ("garden") today for a longer time while I was pulling weeds. Instead of coming to me (maybe I was too far away for Alay) she climbed up one of the concrete supports for the windmill. Alay now has body heat for sure. My show was about to start (Voyager, another dumb one) when I deemed the goat milk in the jar to be spoiled. So I rushed over to "Fry's" to buy some more. Despite me running in and running out, it took awhile but I got it for free. Worked 3.0.
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Late tonight, Alay was more active in the cage and seemed restless. And she whined most of the way home. Then when I got home, there was a busted beer bottle laying on the front of my lot. Probably thrown out of a car by the mexicans of lot 31. And I found that the tub is gone, so they got the message. A coincidence? I don't think so. {Was the manager telling everyone that it was me who was complaining? I think maybe she was dumb enough to do that. If so, then that made my life more difficult than it was.} After I got inside, I needed to redo the top cover cardboard for my door window. So I punched new holes, took out the nails, looked at all the screws that I had bought at "Homebase", and put in new screws. The first use of them! / Very large belly. / I gave to Alay some milk tonight and then found that it was spoiled. But it didn't seem to hurt her. And then I found a black spot inside the bottle! I cleaned it out with water and soap and rice seeds. I happened to look at my timing belt tonight and there was about one forth of it gone in places. Worked 4.5.
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It sounds like the lot 84 people doing their dope again. Getting the shivers again. Alay playing with my hand for the first time (after I rearranged a bit inside the cage). Zila keeps wanting to play with Alay. And she is having a lot of trouble pooping, And after a major effort on her part, and not getting any where, I took her and put a wet tissue to her rear end. That did nothing. So then I squeezed her rectum {anus} a bit. That did nothing. So then I took her and put on the "hot" water and held her over the sink to wet her rectum {anus}. It was difficult. She started fussing constantly like she's never fussed prior. So much that both Puddypie AND Zila came running (thinking that I was killing her). Why was she upset? When did it start? I've been very careful about getting her wet under the water. After it was over, I found a chunk of poop in the sink. So I guess it worked. / I'm feeling much better now. / Alay can't poop. Eric and Carla having another fight. Those stupid people. / I now have $77 (after "Fry's" "Karo" corn syrup for Alay). Worked 4.0.
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I now have $75 (After "Fry's" and "Fry's" lettuce). I have found that my clutch cable is starting to come apart -- again!!! Can you believe it? -- The third new cable!!! / What a day! I get going on my emergency hunting trip for a new cable without Alay this time. And at the first light (17 and Bell) I roar off turning left in front of a small car that was going straight! Then I missed the lane to turn into "Pep Boys", so I went on to the light which had now gone yellow. So I waited a bit for the last of the traffic to come through, then I did a u-turn and went to the turn-in. There had been a "sissy" Mustang in front of me which did get into the turn lane. But by the time I had turned around, I was turning in in front of it! Nothing at "Pep Boys". So I rush off to go to "Napa" on Cave Creek. When I got to the turn lane at Bell an Cave Creek, I was in the right left turn lane with two cars in front of mine. I knew that this was going to slow me down. Then two hot rodder motorcycle guys came in behind me. I knew that they were going to try to get around me on the right side if I was slow. So then the car in front of me was slow, so I was trying to get around on the right, but I held because of the motorcycles. And sure enough, they roared past me one by one. Then a few lights down the street, I came to this one that was going to turn yellow. I was going about 55 then I saw two boys on bikes coming across the far cross walk on the don't walk sign. So I jammed on my brakes and the car was skidding and starting to go sideways. I had gotten slowed way down and was in the intersection when the lead boy said to me "Sorry". And they went on and I went on like nothing had happened. I found the "Napa" but they had nothing. But he gave me the address of the "warehouse". Then I decided to go to the house to get some more money because I was going to buy two different cables if I could. I now have $120 (after paid). Then I went to the second "Napa". I had to wait around awhile but I looked at a lot of things. It turned out that they had only one cable that I wanted to buy. Only one! All the others were one of these: One would not fit my car, one had a kink in it, one was the same from what I could see as the ones I've been buying at "Checker". So I bought only one. I now have $90. My cable had not been busting anymore, So I went all the way home and got Alay, then went to the house. Then I got to work on the cables, but I could not find my lights box for awhile. It took longer than I thought, at least 2 hours. And the (lock ring) popped off and could not find it for awhile (is there a pattern here?) This "Napa" cable is a lot thicker and stiffer than the "Checker". And three groups of wires had busted by the time I took it out. And I had not eaten any fruit all day, and by now I was suffering with a lot of pressure in my abdomen, so I ate some apple fruit sauce and did not dare eat anything else. I suffered for some hours. Worked 0.0.
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Having a difficult time with Alay. She can't poop! i put her rear end under the faucet for at least the second time. She whines like she's dying and both Puddypie and Zila come running out of concern. The water doesn't seem to do anything to the chunk of poop that is partly sticking out. It's like concrete. Her rectum {anus} is really extended out aways. But in the end, two chunks came out! / Now I've seen that Alay has pooped some more! It doesn't take long for my chocolate to melt in here! (Or in my mouth.) I'm feeling much better now, I hope that I can maintain it. I inspected the cooler and let the water in. I hope it doesn't leak. No leaks so far. I now have $88 (after another bottle of "Karo" corn syrup at "Fry's" so that I don't need to bring it with me every day and then home every night). Worked 0.0.
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I now have $78 (after gasoline). Alay did not whine any all the way home! (And I don't think she whined going to the house either.) Maybe it was the constipation that was making her irritable in the car. And I think she pooped again (one short log) after I got her home and in the home cage. Come to think of it, I wonder if she tends to be fussy away from home because she knows that she has no tray? Tonight, I have found my coolant to be leaking a bit, more and more for several days now. But I can't find where it's leaking from! Puddypie is after Zila at least since yesterday. And I don't know why, but maybe it will keep Zila from playing with Alay. / I got started on the oleanders late today. I now have $63 (after "Pizza Hut" pizza - yes, I paid for it!) Typical Mother: When the pizza had not come yet, and Mother did not know about it, she said "no, I don't want any pizza." Then a few minutes later when my pizza came, she wanted some! Worked 3.5.
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/ I got together the tools that I will need to take out the battery so that I can look for that leak -- later at the house. In the process, I loosened the radiator cap twice. Then I got up on my roof and adjusted the float and oiled the fan rotor. It was a very hot day. Alay started panting in the shade. / So then I rushed off to complain -- again!! To the manager about my neighbors. Then I rushed to the house. Early on, Alay started panting, after awhile, without stopping somewhere, I put a bit of water on Alay from my jug. I kept my speed up as much as I could and hated it when I had to stop for a red light. {I have rarely ever had working air conditioning in my vehicles here in Phoenix. And I haven't had covered parking for many years.} (I had opened the right front window in the beginning for more air.) Then I had almost made it to the house when Alay started whining in distress. So I kept up my speed to the end as I came into the driveway. My car slid into the oleander hedge! And the motor had quit. I then rush out and got the cage out of the car and set it on the cooler concrete in the shade and got Alay out and put some more water on her fur. Then I put her in the cage and then put the cage in the garage where it was cooler. Then I got to checking out my car. There were a bunch of leaves on it. I was wondering why the motor had quit, so I put it in fourth gear and started pushing it. It moved some. Also I was wondering why there was coolant spilled out on the front end parts of the car. Also I looked to see if the bottom of the car had hit the concrete point of the parking spot. I had opened the hood and saw that there was a lot of coolant in the reservoir, and I wondered why. I had also looked to see if the timing belt had come off. It was the same. And the motor did not seem to be seized. And there seemed to be no damage to the outside of the car. And I found the radiator cap was loose, and that's where the coolant had come from. I had apparently had forgot to tighten the cap when I was at home and so the motor had begun to over heat a bit after the 9 miles from the lack of pressure. And I probably forgot to disengage the clutch when I jammed on the brake, and that would have stopped the motor. So then I started up the motor and everything seemed to be okay! Later, Alay dropped to the floor again, for I think the third time (from the table). I had her on the table more than ever. She chewed on the newspaper and played some and went staggering around on the table a lot. As it so happened, the old wood that came from the planter boxes upstairs that Mother had wanted to save and I told her to get rid of it because it was too old, was in my way for trimming. I ask Mother about it today and she said to get rid of it! I then kind of wanted to save it and then I got an idea: It is starting to get very hot, So I took home 4 of the thin sheets to use on my car: For if I put something on the outside to keep the sunshine off, then I won't need to open the hatch every time, day and night. Worked 3.0.
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I now have $36 (after "Fry's"). I saved $9.20 on "Chef Boyardee". / Lot 84 playing their music again today after I complained yesterday. And lot 31 has not moved their car either. Because of the heat, I got an idea to use freezer packs to keep Alay from getting too hot in the car. I had bought some some years ago and have been using them in my cooler box since. So I went looking for them at "Food 4 Less" then "Target" then "Kmart" then "Walmart" then "Fry's" then "Safeway" then "Walgreens" then "Popular" then "Home Depot" then "Osco" then "Albertsons". {I "leave no stone unturned".} I couldn't find them!! So then I returned to "Walmart" and bought the closest thing that I could find. I also had bought a freezer blanket at "Fry's". But first I went to "Checker" and refunded the second and third clutch cables. I then had $102. I now have $94. Worked 0.0.
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/ Pounding music again today at lot 84. I took Alay to the veterinarian again - this time I was worried about her ears. She was pawing at her right ear and whining. I saw a bunch of dark stuff in her ears, so I rushed her over there. I got some medicine for her ears. I now have $66. Then I rushed to the office again, then came home. I then got out my drill, and put up the cooler vent with 4 new screws. - But they are not long enough. - But other than that, it went quite well. Then I came out and got together the things that I will need to change my oil in my car and I put the box of it in the car. But I don't have enough oil, so I rushed off to "Autozone" to buy some more. I now have $63. Then I rushed over to "Fry's" and bought some more freezer stuff for Alay. I now have $57. I then rushed home and got Alay loaded up and then rushed to the house. -- I would not make it. {This was the beginning of the end for my Omni.} I was nearly there - only about a mile from the house, when as I was cruising along on 7 Avenue it was like a great wind was pushing against the car slowing it down and I heard a bunch of stuff like sand hitting the bottom of the car as if it had been blown by the wind, and the motor had quit. So I looked for a place to turn off and turned off and stopped directly across from Wagon Wheel. So then I got out and looked at the motor and it was as I suspected - the timing belt had been turned into string! So now I'm stuck. - again! But this time it might be permanent! I called (I'm glad I had the phone with me) "AAA" and Mother several times. It took the guy a long time to come. And I wanted to get to the house, but I could not see how. It was late enough and I had enough cooling for her, that Alay was okay - for awhile. When he did come, he was in very much of a hurry. I think he put on my parking brake and then pulled the car up the ramp. Then he put the car off the ramp with the brake on because I then took it off. {?} He was from "Kelly Clark"! And he followed other vehicles too closely. But he took some off the charge - it cost me money this time - $4. I now have $53. Then afterward, I got my dusty bike out and rode it to fill up the tires.
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/ Mexicans were supposed to come to at least look at my car but they didn't. So I did some calling, but never could get Mother. So I arranged to have "AAA" transport my car over to a shop that Pete's recommended shop had recommended - "The Motor Car" - for only $200! Which is the same amount that the Mexicans had said it would cost! And it hardly took any time for him to come! I barely had time to get out my bike and strap on the battery and he loaded up my bike and strapped it to the rear of my car. It was going cost me probably $48, but I got it on Mother's number this time. I left the cooler on for Alay and gave her about as milk as I could. The only thing extra that I had brought with me was my air pressure gauge. I now have $45. After unloading and talking to a man, I rode my bike to the house. It was hot! And my head was hurting and then my chest was hurting like a sickness. After I got to the house, I sat for awhile. Then I got up to get some of my pizza and I fell down on the floor! My legs had given out. And Mother had been wanting me to continue on trimming the oleanders! After awhile, when I was waiting for them to do my car, I did some mending on my clothes. (A sit down job.) I did 3 shirts and 1 pant! I now have $345 (borrowed). I kept calling about my car, and very late in the day was told that they could not get it done today because the tensioner wheel was bad -- they were going to need to get another one to replace it. I thought I had more time on the belt! Apparently the tensioner wheel had seized and ripped off the belt! If this is true and I had been able to get a new belt on months ago when I wanted to, then the wheel would have ripped off the new belt! Then I would have had to have it done over again. And if I had been able to do it myself, then I would have thought that I had done something wrong. I had watched a bit of television, then I set out at 8:00 for the long ride home. It took me well over an hour to get home. And no one harassed me on the way, not the Police either. It has been to long since I've been riding my bike! And I'm wearing the wrong pant for it.
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/ Finally the guy told me that my car was done. This was after noon and I hadn't had my shower yet! They close "at noon" {This was Saturday.}, I called again and he said that they would stay open until I got there. I figured that it would take me around 45 minutes to ride the 7 miles. So I got ready and started riding. I did not think about going over the mountain on 7 street! The wind was against me all the way. When I got to it, I had to creep up the mountain. Then going down I got up to 30 miles per hour and the bike was wobbling! And my hands were sweaty and the hand grips were slippery, but I did not dare take my hand off the grip! With this stupid bike with suicide steering. A crash at this speed would kill me. It took me longer to get there than I thought. I saw Marty, and talked to him about my car. With the wheel also, it came to a bit over $300. But he took $300. I now have $45. The motor seemed to go okay. I stuffed my bike in the car. They had saved for me not only the belt but the bad wheel also! I had decided to go to the library on my way home to get my dailies for Friday and then to unload my bike and load up with Alay and then to get to the house to get some work done and to see some shows and to unload some things at the house. Again it was not to be. I went to the library and got my dailies. Again I was very disappointed with my stocks. The ones I own are not hardly going up, while the ONE stock that I've been trying to buy - Zila, has been going up so much that I can't buy it! And the ask has gone much higher. AND they have put the price of copies up from c10 to c25! Then I headed home, but very soon I started hearing a loud screechy noise. It came and went. I stopped, but couldn't see anything wrong. It sounded like it was coming from the right front wheel. I then "limped" home. Then I went looking under the car. I found that the right (front) axle boot is cracked open in at least 2 places. Then I found that the bottle needed to be cleaned and I needed to feed Alay! I did not have a good way of cleaning it, So I got out the new bottle. But I could not get a hole in the end! So I rushed off on my bike to the veterinarian, but they were closed! So then I went to "Fry's" and bought some rice seeds. I now have $44. So then I rushed home and used the rice seeds with some water and a small piece of soap to clean out the bottle. After I had given Alay some milk, I went off on my bike to get some lettuce and tortillas at "Fry's", but first to go to "Excellent Bicycles" to get my light. Shortly after I had got going, I heard some amplified talking noise and looked over and saw that the parking lot was full of cars! (This parking lot at 19 and bell where "Bashes" and "Yellow Front" and "Pets Mart" had been, is now mostly empty.) It was a car show! Free I guess. So I thought, I've got a few minutes, why not go take a look. So I went through and looked at all the cars. Nothing much interested me. They had old cars, they had dragsters, they had "muscle" cars and one old police car - with a light bar! I was wanting a light bar years ago. And they had a Pacer! But I could not enjoy anything; I'm an angry person. I'm disgusted with life. And with most of what I own. I'm without a car again and all I have to get around with is that lousy new bike. Too much of my body weight is on my hands, it has suicide steering, I ride it a bit and my hands or wrists go numb, my feet hurt, my butt hurts, and it is unstable at "high" speed. But other than these things, It's a good bike! I bought the wrong bike! And I forgot to mention the stupid shifting method of the bike. I rode on. It was windy. I got there and complained about my bike again (this is where I bought it), and I bought the light. The light is the "Avenir" "Flashpoint 300" "Clear lens front beacon". When I needed another one, I could not find one anywhere! When I bought the first one (not here), it was about $10. Here and now on special "order", it's $15. I now have $28. When came out, it was getting very windy. And then it started to rain on me, but it only rained a bit. Ya know, every direction I rode in the wind was against me! I now have $20 (after "Fry's"). After I got home, I let Puddypie out and started working on my bike: I put on that light, making it my fourth light instead of using it to replace the front flasher. It was getting dark, so I needed to get my flashlight to see what I was doing. Then I sat out with Puddypie (this is what he loves the most) -- for 4 and a half hours! Until midnight. Carla was again telling Eric that she did not want him in her life. Using foul language again as usual for her. Then awhile later Carla went with someone leaving the trailer with no one home. Then later Eric started coming by in his small white sedan looking for Carla and wondering where she was. He came by looking for her 4 times! The first time with his headlights off I think. Then he came a fifth time leaving the motor on while he (I think) broke into the trailer. He had gotten in the trailer and put the lights on. Then he came out and reparked his car and turned off the motor. I thought he was going to spend the night there because I think he lives there mostly. But he only stayed awhile and then departed. While he was there, this other guy with a goofy head who also lives there mostly I think came and stayed a bit.
Then after Eric had left, this guy comes in and puts on the lights. Then a bit later he turns them off and has the television on. Then he held the curtain open for awhile so that he could see me but I could not see him. I think he probably stayed the night, I don't know. {Why it was important for me to document all of this, I don't know. I guess there was nothing else to think about.}
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I have been having Alay out of the cage on my bed {My bed is the floor.} some at night and some during the day. She continues to have a lot of trouble with walking. She staggers around and falls down all the time. If she shakes her head it knocks her down. It is strange: She can not walk but she attempts to either jump or run and she "crashes". She does this over and over again but she gets her self up again. She has begun to chew on things. And tonight, she has actually did that cat thing with Zila - to fight, or play fight - she came up to Zila turning her body and putting her head down - it was a sight to see. Alay is a little kitten who can barely stay standing and she is standing up to Zila who is several times larger then her, and Zila now does not have trouble doing anything. One swipe with a paw from Zila and Alay is down! Alay has also stood in front of Zila and went flinging her paw rapidly at Zila over and over again! Alay actually standing up to Zila to hit Zila with her paw! This is like an ant trying to stand up to a wolf or something. / Lot 84 with their music again. I gave Alay a straw {to play with} . She did nothing with it. This has been a very difficult day for me. I can't hardly do anything. And this documentation is taking me a long time to do. The mexicans of lot 31 have their "music" going again! I forgot; the other night, Alay kept heading towards the rear of the trailer. I don't know why. She goes to the pieces of plywood that are laying in the middle room, or to the litter laying on the floor in front of the litter tray room and she starts to eat it. This one night, while she was smelling the wood, she tipped off one piece of wood. Then she got her left rear leg caught in between the wood and the wall. She started whining and I rushed over and got her leg out. As I took hold of her, she moved so that it started hurting more at that moment, and she turned to bite me. And the next day she got her claw caught in the cage.
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I woke with a sore right hand. Mostly the middle longest finger. / I loaded up my bike in my car and "limped" my car over to "The Motor Car" again. He could not get to it for awhile so I got my bike out and rode it to the house. On the way, there was this one place in which I sped up to something over 17 miles per hour when I was crossing a street between sidewalks and I hit a small dip. Both my panniers flew off as if I had pressed an eject button! They were laying on the street. I stopped and returned for them. I put them on, then I opened the one that I had put Mother's phone in and it was gone! This is the first time that I have brought the phone with me with my bike. Then I looked for the phone on the street; no phone. I looked for debris of the phone; nothing. Then I looked in the other pannier, and there it was. I thought that was strange. Then I started riding again and my shoes started hitting the panniers: I knew that I had put them on the opposite way, and mystery solved. So I replaced them and rode on. / I now have $370 (borrowed again!). I rode home and used my new fourth light for the first time. The left-turner's light. No one gave me trouble. Only a car load of young people yelled at me as they went by. {Why are humans idiots?} And I was doing much better tonight on my bike, I got home in less than an hour! {10 miles mostly a bit up hill.} And I had stopped twice to look at what turned out to be a cockroach, then a moth caterpillar crossing the sidewalk. Worked! 5.0.
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/ I rode my bike to "The Motor Car" again and got my car. So I now have $75. But then I was going to get caught in rush "hour" traffic. I was going to go home and unload/load and bring Alay. But I decided to go straight to the house. After awhile, I was doing very poorly. I did not have any of my food at the house and the pizza was gone. / On the way home, with my bike in my car, I had gone to nearly every "Fry's" that I could looking for lettuce. It was all bad lettuce and at a high price! (1.49) So then I went to "Albertsons" and found 5 at only 99. {They all must put in those nines!} Now I have $70. Worked 1.5.
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I changed all the towels of the home cage and put in clean towels and put them in folded and flat. It's like a new place! I think Alay likes it. Zila caught and ate a little cockroach. I don't know if it's her first. / Lot 84 doing their music again. {-And again hours later.} A clicking in my right ear when I chew! I now have $24 ("Food 4 Less" mostly fruit). I was almost out of apple fruit sauce!-and other fruit. I now have $9 ("Pets Mart"-I was getting low on cat food). I now have $29 (paid). Worked 3.0.
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I now have $24 (gasoline - my tank was getting low). Bizarre incident: After going to "Fry's" and finding no goat milk, I went over to check at "Safeway". I did not know if they were open or closed. After I had come into the parking lot, I saw a man walking away from the entrance, so I sped up, I thought I might ask him if "Safeway" was closed. But I decided that I did not get there soon enough. So I stopped in front of the entrance and left everything on and put the car in neutral and set the parking brake. I then got out and walked around my car and went to the doors and they opened. This indicated that they were "open". This same man had gotten in his car, and took off at high speed. He came speeding around toward the front of "Safeway", toward my car. I was standing around 20 feet away from my car and I was thinking: Well I'm safe, but he's going to hit my car. I don't know how close he came to my car, because I was on the opposite side, but it seemed like it was very very close. He had barely missed my car. One thing that bothers me about this is that I did not think about Alay until after he went by. She was in the car! He went the large circle in the parking lot and started coming around again. At this point I was thinking: Where can I put my car so that it will be safe from him? I could not think of any place that I could put my car that he could not go in his car. He seemed like a large man with a large head and maybe in his forties. He was in a small dark blue or purple car that was rounded and maybe a 2 door. It was about the size of my car. A young man who works at "Safeway" had come out the door asking me what was going on. I told him and I said that someone should call the Police. He had come around again passed my car, but slowly this time. I went and got in my car and when I saw that he was coming around again, I closed my door! I got the phone and attempted to call 911, but it did not go through, I think I forgot to press the "talk" button. Then he went out of the parking lot turning to go north on 19 Avenue. A "Safeway" woman had also come out, and I asked them who was that guy and what was wrong with him? They told me that he was a regular customer and that he was a normal guy. I then asked, Did anything go wrong tonight? They then told me that his wife was in the hospital dying of cancer. I was not safe at "Safeway". {What happened was, that at this very bad period in this guy's life, I came along toward him in my car and had gotten too close to him, and then aborted what I was trying to do, and I was unaware of what I had done - from his standpoint, and he took offense to it.} I found the goat milk at "Safeway" and at the usual price of 2.79, not 2.99 at "Fry's"! I now have $19. When I got home, lot 84 people doing their dope again, I think. I smelled it. / Sometime when I was laying in bed, Zila put a claw in my lip when dashing for a fly! Lot 84 music again. I had gone to the veterinarian and they pierced the new bottle for me because I could not get a hole in it the other day. Then I ran over to "Fry's" and bought another "TV Guide" - "Bon Voyager" Jeri Ryan. So now I have $17. I changed my oil! It had been over 4,000 miles. It took a long time {-more than 5 hours} , but I was doing other things while it dripped. Worked 2.0.
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After getting home, I remembered that I had forgotten to bring the bottle for Alay! I resisted the idea of returning to the house (18 miles) for awhile. So I got the new bottle. But it did not work! So I decided that neither I nor Alay needed the extra stress of trying to get Alay to suck on the new bottle which has a different "nipple" on it. And it could take all night, maybe never. And I need to get to bed sometime tonight! So I went to the house. Problem solved! It took less than an hour. It probably would have taken all night and all day to get the new bottle to work. If it had only taken all night, then my tomorrow probably would have been a goner. / Lot 84 music again. I saved some of Alay's poop log for the vet. Lot 84 music again. {-For 3 hours.} I now have $88 (repay from "Home Base" stuff - 7.25, trailer tax - 4.44, paid, and first payment - $50). Worked 2.0.
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Brushed teeth with "Tom's of Maine" "Silly Strawberry". This stuff feels like it has sandpaper in it. / I now have $50 ("Cell Energy"). I now have $31 (gas bill). / I now have $21 (gasoline). Worked 4.0.
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A thought: You might be wondering why I have this box of black ink pens. Actually, I buy one of these, kind of often, and I bought this one today. What I use them for is that I get out the phone book and look through the obituaries and I cross out the names that I find in the phone book because I don't want to waste my time. My time is valuable. And when I do call some one, it can take a long time because I let it ring and ring and ring. Don't you hate it when someone rings once or twice and you answer it and they've hung up? So I give them time to answer. Not that I do that much phoning. Actually, I rarely call people, probably because I don't have a phone. But when I do have a phone, I let it ring and ring and ring. So when I'm calling someone, and they don't answer, I want to know if it's because they're not home, or they're dead. And ya know, a lot of people have answering machines that come on when they're not home. But you'll never hear one that goes something like this: Jack's not here right now because he's -- decomposed. {There's a good joke in there, somewhere.} Worked 3.5.
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/ I changed the milk mixture for Alay a bit by increasing the milk which decreases the ratio of corn syrup. Alay is more active today. And I took her to the veterinarian today asking why she can't walk without falling down. I walked in without her (she was in the car), and the woman said to me; "Do you want to make an appointment?" And I said; "No!" Then she laughed at my reaction. Worked 2.0.
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Lot 84 doing their dope again. Then after, Eric and Carla arguing again. I let Puddypie out on the leash tonight after getting home. Partly because I need to have the pump going for awhile until I can put on the cooler and it is very warm inside. It did not take long for him to run at another cat, but this time the leash snapped apart and he was loose! But he stopped running at about the edge of my lot! Then he went under my Jeep and then I started calling him and he came to me! I guess I have him trained pretty well. So then I redid the leash and stayed out like nothing had happened. While I was out, at one point I held the door open and Zila came out! She smelled around a bit and then I was afraid that she might want to go too far so I let her in. She had no harness and leash. Brushed teeth with "Rembrandt Naturals" "Raspberry Leaf and Mint". This stuff hurts my mouth. / Alay is very active again today. And she has been spilling the litter out of the home cage pan tray. Alay has been having great fun out of the cage on the front of my bed. Lot 84 music again. I now have $86 (paid). Worked 2.5.
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I now have $72 ("Fry's" tortillas). After I let Puddypie out on the leash, I put a harness on Zila and "let" (put) her out on the yellow rinky dink leash -- it did not work well. And the smallest harness was too small for Zila, the largest harness is too large for Puddypie, and Puddypie's harness is too large for Zila. So I made do by taking off Puddypie's harness and putting it on Zila and putting the large one on Puddypie. As I was getting ready to start eating my lettuce, I saw Alay -- she was standing in a strange humped over position in front of the box inside the cage. She seemed to be in trouble with some sort of internal problems. She did not seem to want to move from where she was, as if some internal problem had suddenly gripped her. {-I myself have been like this many times.} She was not whining but she had strange eyes as if she was too afraid to whine, or too busy coping with the problem, like a severe situation of constipation and she was attempting to poop but couldn't. I was getting very worried. I was thinking; maybe this is it, maybe she is going to die, maybe whatever problem she has had that has been plaguing her has now begun to kill her. I petted her and she started to purr. There was nothing that I could do for her except pet her, pray for her and be there for her. So that's what I did.
I was thirsty, so I went and got a drink, then I returned and got into a better position to pet her (it's difficult reaching her where she was). Then as I started to pet her the second time, I saw a thread going across her shoulder. And I thought; "That's it!" She has gotten caught in one of the threads from the towel that I have laying over the box! (I have been cutting the threads and I thought that I had gotten all of them.) So I got my small scissor, and reached in and cut the thread and all was okay! / I now have $32 ("Food 4 Less" fruit). I now have $4 -- "Pets mart". I bought a harness for Zila! (blue) and two leads for her (red). I carried Alay's cage out to the garden and opened it and set Alay on the grass in front of the cage. Then I walked off to pick the apricot fruits off the tree (around 30 feet away). Then I looked over and it seemed that Alay was in the cage. I took her out of the cage! I thought that she might be behind the cage. She was happily playing. Then a bit later, I walked over to the cage to find that she was in the cage! She had climbed in immediately after I had set her out! (With one meow.) This is the first that she has ever climbed into a cage. / I now have $69 (paid). Worked 2.0.
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I was on my way home on 19 Ave going north. I had come around the mountain after Cactus, then close to Wood, I saw a plate like object laying on the street, it seemed like a wall switch cover. So I decided to turn around and look at it. I was not to do that. I slowed down, then I turned around, but in doing so, I heard an alarm going off and I looked over and saw that the alarm was from a small white car parked in a carport of a house on the east side of the street shortly after (north) Wood, and I saw a man dashing away from the car and he then jumped into a small white truck, I think it was a Ford, with damage to one corner of the front end and one headlight was out. The truck was parked out on the street, a side street. Then he took off down that side street going north. At first I was confused, I thought, why is he running away from the car? When ever a car alarm goes off, someone runs out to the car to switch it off. But this guy was running away from the car. And then I saw someone come out of the house, and at that moment, it occurred to me that this guy was attempting to steal that car, I think a Honda. So I decided to follow him and to call the Police. So I did. This is the first time that I have called the Police with the phone in my car. It worked fairly well, but not perfect. {-The phone.} He went down the side street, then onto 19 Avenue. Then not quite to Thunderbird, then he moved all the way over to the left, and turned around. Then south aways. Then he turned off and went down a short street and stopped at the end for awhile. I think this turned out to be across from that same house on the west side. After thinking about it, this guy seemed to have only half a brain. But I was rather sloppy in following him. I had trapped myself on the side street (the dead end south of him). I had attempted to turn around while I was holding the phone, then I decided to reverse out. And as I was reversing across the street where he was, I saw that he was starting to come out! So I kept reversing aways and he came out onto 19 again going north. So I turned around and went in the same direction and then I turn out onto 19 to follow him. Then I think he got through the green light and I had to stop on the red at Thunderbird. But the lights are so short there that I was soon following him again. But he was aways ahead and he turned off on the right (east). I did not see exactly which turn it was, so I lost him. {I was only half-heartedly trying to get this guy caught, and should not have been at all, especially with Alay in the car and my precarious situation of my life. But I kept trying to do what I could.} The woman on the phone kept asking me where I was going to be (gosh, the Police are inapt!), so I told her at the "Arco" station at Thunderbird. So then I went to the house (it was straight across from the stop sign north of Wood) and waited a bit. Then someone started coming out of the house, so I came into the driveway and talked to them. A small young woman and a very large man. They were friendly and they told me that they had had 3 burglaries in a year. Then I went to "Arco" and waited for the Police. It didn't take very long for him to come (But they are slow!). I told him all about it, then he went south (I guess to the house). I don't know if he knew that I was on to him. {-The burglar.} For a brief time, I had all 3 of my sweetiepies outside my trailer: Puddypie, Zila, Alay. / I now have $57 (the special food for Puddypie). Worked 2.0.
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I now have $52 ("Fry's" lettuce). / A strange sensation in my legs of numbness and weakness. What's wrong with me now! / A cramping in my left leg! First time in many years. Leg is sore for a long time, many hours. / Worked 3.5.
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/ Eric and Carla having a fight again. / I had brought a "Kleenex" box of litter with me from home for Alay. Then I put some in a bowl and put the bowl in the car - cage. But Alay did not use it. Worked 2.5.
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I now have $42 (gasoline). I was nearly killed tonight! By a maniac in a small dark car. I was on my way home, I had stopped to get some gasoline (filled it to a half of tank). Then I was headed to "Safeway" to get some more goat milk for Alay. I did not make it. I was on 19 Avenue in the middle lane going north after Greenway. I was going between 36 and 39 miles per hour. Then suddenly, I saw a car coming up behind me going at high speed (probably 70 to 80) in my lane. It was not slowing down and not moving over to miss me. As I saw it, I was thinking: "That car is going to smash into the rear of my car, brace for impact! (But there is a slight chance that I might be able to swerve out of the way)." If I had continued on the way I was going, I am nearly certain that I (and Alay) would have been killed or in the hospital with probably terrible injuries (or if I was in a car that was not as good as my Omni). So I thought: it is better to do something than nothing, even if it doesn't work. So I swerved wildly toward the right lane. And he missed me, totally! Then I had to swerve again to kept my car on the street. He went on ahead. Then I sped up and I saw that he had moved over into the left turn lane at Bell, so I decided to follow him, but only half-heartedly. He was keeping his speed up, but I think I saw him turn into the parking lot (one of them) east of "Albertsons". Then I found him parked in front (the very front) of "Aaron's furniture" {?} It was a young guy. He had the trunk of the car open and was doing something, but I did not see what it was (he was standing behind the car). I did not see anything in his hands. I had called the Police, and was talking to the woman for awhile. After the call, I saw a Police car go by on the main street, but he did not turn into the parking lot. Then I heard a screech, and I came around and he went by going out of the parking lot and it sounded like he was rolling on a flat tire. I had suspected that he had took off so rapidly that he hit something that caused the flat. He then took off down the street (Bell) going west. I could not seem to catch up with him. He was going high speed on a flat tire! I was in the "group" behind him and was doing turning-right-then-u-turns at red lights. But I gave it up at 51 Avenue. Afterward, I was thinking that he was in a stolen car. Why else would he be speeding on a flat tire? And that he might be a house burglar and that he was delivering some stolen items to .... {Someone should have shot this guy in the head. Why waste time trying to get the police to do something, they're too slow and stupid to catch these guys or keep them off the streets. But if I squeal my tires, the police give me a ticket. If I ride my bike on the "wrong side" of the street on the sidewalk, the police give me a ticket. Makes me angry. I wish that I had gotten angry that night and been much more aggressive for doing what he did to me, but I had no weapons... and I was probably not feeling well, which is most of the time... He was probably a car thief in a stolen car.} I now have $39. The "Safeway" that I was headed to was closed. So I went to the other "Safeway" that stays open all night, but it was closed! So I ended up needing to return to "Fry's" to buy the goat milk at a higher price. / Lot 84 music again. Worked 4.0.
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I let Zila come out. She stayed out a bit longer this second time. And for a brief time, I had all 3 of my sweetiepies outside. / Eric sped away at about 35 miles per hour, and then Carla is doing her music again. Alay is starting to get rough playing with me -- biting (my hand). / I now have $23 (pizza). I worked on and strung together my screw and bolt packets on my wire that I had brought from home. I worked in the front east bedroom. {Mother's house.} This is the second night of work here. I had laid them all out on the bed the first night. And I have been bringing Alay in the cage in with me. The first night she was playing with herself in the mirror, then I put her on the floor. And on the floor again this night. She loves it in there, playing on the floor. Worked 2.0.
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On the way home I passed by a bad wreck on 7 Avenue. The one car was a small dark car, so I stopped to talk to an officer (a woman), but she could not tell me anything but she gave me a phone number (not her's). Then on Bell I found some more police and had a talk with one of them. Tonight, I had Zila out again, but she wants in again nearly right away. There is a sore bump in my left bottom butt very close to the other bump that I have had for several years. It came the other day, and is now very sore. / Alay is playing like crazy today. I went to the library branch today and found that Orbital is now under $3! Maybe I can buy it. I almost finished my wire packet holder tonight. It is taking much more time that I thought. I now have $343 (paid). Worked 2.0.
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/ Lot 84 music again. {4 times through the day!} I now have $89 (rent money "order"). / I guess I'm finished now with making my packet holder. It has a few rough edges (2 of them) but I can't think how to make it better. Worked 3.5.
JUNE 01
I saw a man come into the park in an old (Chevy I think) tow truck. He went around the circle and then stopped and turned around and then stopped by the dumpster. Then he got out and got his tow end ready to tow something. What is he going to tow? Then he went around and towed out a car from lot 28? Then he went out of the park and turned into the parking lot behind what had been "Taco Bell" west of the park. I called 911 and she transferred me to another line, so it rang again. I told her all I could then my phone cut off. I don't know if the police did anything or not! But it might be a repossession. I was tempted to go and look for him in the parking lot, but I didn't. (I had Puddypie out, for one thing.) I think I saw Alay's brothers and sisters and her mother cat. There were at least 4 kittens, 2 of them white and 2 of them very dark colored. The mother was a Siamese. / Lot 84 music again. I went to the office to have a talk with Sharee and to pay my rent. But she was not there, again! But I decided to pay my rent anyway. Then, after awhile, in walks someone, and it's the owner. I could see that he was not feeling well. He reminded me of myself in the past. He was walking very slow. So then I decided to have a talk with him about lot 84. He was not agreeable with me. At one point I asked him if he was calling me a liar. And he said to me that if I was not happy here, then I should move out. I should move out!!!??? That irritated me. {He's the new guy here, I've been here for a long time.} Then at the end, he said that he was not feeling well, and that we should talk another time. My best stock is now up to 556%. But the others are very poor except for 3 others. This means that only 4 of my stocks are doing okay. 4 out of 41! I now have $50 ("Food 4 Less"). Worked 3.0.
02
As I started on my way home, I saw a white cat laying on the lawn across from Rose Lane on the (north) west side of 7 Avenue. So I turned around and stopped and got out and walked over to the cat. I think it is probably "Puddytat" ! If so, she seems to be doing okay. I thought she was dead. It has been a long long time since that car ride. I got up to about 20 feet of the cat and was calling the cat Puddytat. But the cat was only afraid and ran away. / Today and tonight I did some things. I put rubber sealer washers in my lawn mower fuel tank cap and in the mower fuel can spout. The mower fuel tank cap problem, I have had that for 17 years! And only now am I doing something about it. And later, I drilled out the busted rivet in the front right corner of the catcher and put in one of my small brass bolts and ground off the end! Worked 4.0.
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I got going for home extra late tonight. But no one bothered me all the way home! / Alay ate some food! She was moving like she was on a rocking chair. How is she going to drink water? And she ate some more later. / I got to thinking about how bad Mother's flashlight is. Then I remembered my advanced "Radio Shack's" (2) that I have not used for several years. ("Focusing Enerlite") So then I looked for them and found them. They both had batteries in them! But there were no leaks. I decided to let Mother use one of them, but I needed some batteries. So despite my lack of money, I decided to go buy some so that I could give her the light tonight, complete with batteries. I had decided to go to "Home Depot" first and check the prices, then to "Walmart" to check the prices and if lower, to buy, if not, to then return to "Home Depot" and buy. But I ended up buying at "Home Depot". So I now have $43. I now have $33 (gasoline). Mother griping at me again. About me not getting her flower beds done. I told her that maybe she should get someone else to do her flower beds. {I'm THE LAWNMOWER MAN, not a flower bed gardener.} Why does she spring these things on me like this? I guess without being aware of it, she is causing a lot more stress on both of us. I wonder when she is going to see the light. {I can do only so much.} Especially one who is as old and has as much problems with her health as she does. She is sick, but thinks that she can do nothing about it. And she likes to blame all her health problems on me. She never listens to what I say: I'm an idiot and I don't know anything. And I haven't been doing much work, but the dumpsters have been over loaded as it is. Despite this conflict between us, I gave her my flashlight to use as planned. I told her how lousy her flashlight was, then I presented it to her. I now have $29 ("Albertsons" lettuce. I got 6 but refund on 2.) Worked 1.5.
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/ Eric and Carla fighting again. Alay is getting very wild and crazy. I had laid my head down to rest after Alay had messed up my printing... "these things on me li- " And I was playing with Alay with my hand, when Zila got so wild and careless that she clawed my face and nearly put a claw in my left eye! It hurt! So I took Zila and got her all wet. / Alay is growling at Zila when Alay is eating the food and Zila is getting too close! / I wish things were different. I wish I had some money and I wish those degenerates were gone from lot 84!!! I wish my stocks would go up. I sorted Mother's screws for her tonight. She was not happy about it. Worked 5.5.
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I sorted my pocket papers and took out many of them. (It was getting too thick for my pocket.) I redid the home cage again. I put in another towel, put in a (smaller) bowl of water instead of the cap that gets tipped over, put in a "Kleenex" box of new litter for a litter box and took out the pan of litter, and I refolded the towel on top of the box and wired the pipe wrench to the cage on top of the towel that is on top of the box so it will not move. / I went to "Walmart" and bought that nightlight; the least worst one that I could find some time ago. "Amertac" "Nite Light" -- 374. And I found that "Walmart" had the lower price for the lantern battery that I have been wanting, So I bought it. -- 697 So I now have $18. I planted the tomato that Mother had abandoned. Mother was nasty to me tonight. Because I planted the tomato first. It took less than an hour, but she thought it took more than an hour. This is the way she thinks. Everything must be for her. She said that she did not want the tomato and that she was going to throw it away, even though she told me a few days ago that I could plant it. Why? Because it did not produce good fruits. This is the way she thinks. If it's not for her, then she hates it. I missed all my shows tonight. I made my hours sheet for Mother (page 1) and gave a copy to her. I now have $78 (paid). Worked 3.0.
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I saw the kittens again. Then the mother cat came from the north east (maybe lot 85) and then the kittens nursed for awhile. But there were only 3 kittens, 2 dark and only 1 light. What happened to the other light kitten? They were laying under the front corner of the trailer at lot 89. The other night, after I had come home with Alay and when I had Puddypie out, I saw the kittens again. There was two of them playing in the corner between lots 89 and 90. There was a very cute dark one {I think this was Cutie} and one that was like a cream colored woolly mammoth! How can they have so much fur when it is very hot out? I was shinning my large light at them and they did not know I was there. I was about 3 or 4 feet away and I squatted down and put my hand out and down. The light colored one strangely ran out toward me and then walked into my hand touching his/her nose on my finger. Then she/he reversed a bit, then turned and ran into the corner where I could not see. Then the dark one reacted to seeing the light one react. The dark one watched for a little while and then came out aways to see what might be out there, then returned. I don't think the dark one knew I was there, but he/she knew something had happened. Could this have anything to do with the disappearance of one of the light ones? Might her mother have rejected him/her because he/she had touched my hand? / I have been having a very difficult time getting myself going today. (And for several days.) I now have $62 (pizza). I gave Alay a small piece of meat that dropped off my pizza, and she gobbled it up. Tonight, I made the beginning of page 2 of my hours sheet, and made a copy and laid it in for Mother to find. (She didn't think much of page 1.) Worked 2.5.
07
I saw no kittens tonight. I opened a can of "Trader Joe's" cat food for Puddypie and Zila, and I gave some to Alay and she loved it! I gave her more and more and she gobbled it up. Zila doesn't seem to like it. / I now have $56 ("Safeway" goat milk, I bought 2. The price has gone up (to 289) at "Safeway" also, but it's not as high as "Fry's".) / I feel very sad tonight. And I don't know why. It started earlier, I felt kind of strange. I missed most of my shows because I was busy working. I had picked up a huge amount of plum fruits earlier. There were many on the lawn. Nearly all of them had been ruined by the birds. So with those out of the way, I shook the tree. They rained down like huge hail! Many of them green totally. So I put them in a large box. Then later, I sorted them. This is when it started, a bit of a strangeness. Then, when I was on my way home, I started feeling sad. After I got home, I found that apparently one of my cats had tipped over the rear garbage bag. I don't know which one of them did it, So I decided to not let Puddypie out. (It's not hot at night now.) Then I went looking for the kittens. I found them at the front corner of the trailer at lot 89 again. And again they were nursing. I got to thinking about the fourth kitten. One of the 2 light colored ones. Where is this kitten? What happened to it? (Worked 3.5.)
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I started getting very sad. I am fairly sure now that this is the same kitten that I had the encounter with a few nights ago: The cute cream colored woolly mammoth. If it is the same kitten, then I have not seen it since. This seems like too much of a coincidence to me. But what happened? Surely his/her mother did not reject it because he/she touched my hand. That would be like I had transferred poison to him/her, like the kiss of death. I had no intention of harming any of them. I might have grabbed the kitten, but I cannot take on any more cats now. I hope I did not kill that kitten. But where is it? Left knee hurting. I've been filling Alay's bottle nearly all the way up now. I gave it to her and she drank nearly all of it! More than ever! / A strange thing happened with Alay. I had her out on my bed, she has been getting very rough with her playing. (She had bit my right nipple, it hurt! And got me between the legs a few nights ago, it hurt!) {I think Alay had some anger issues because she couldn't do what normal cats can do.} She had played for awhile, then I looked, and she had turned around and was facing me and she was laying on her belly, then with her neck against the floor, she started moving her head side to side. It seemed that she had no control. It went on for more than 5 seconds. Then she wasn't as lively after that. What was it? Was it a seizure? Music at lot 84 again. I have found that Alay has vomited (a lot). And after this she has been wanting something, but not the milk. / Something is wrong with Alay. She whines but she does not want the milk. I have her out on my bed now but she does not want to play. She wants to be with me and she's purring. / I now have $6. I took Alay to the veterinarian.
It came to $70.70, but I did not have enough money so I had to sign a paper. Alay was getting worse, by the time I got her in, which was about 6 hours after the beginning, she was not feeling well at all. She did not like to be touched. She would reverse away and she tended to move in reverse. This day has been an ordeal for me (and her). I prayed again later tonight (Mother had gone to bed) and then Mother and I prayed (she had gotten up!) and we got some answers: About Alay and her family, about what's wrong with Mother, about my situation and my neighbors. I now have $131 (paid). Worked 1.5.
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/ Lot 84 music again. Carla's car is there. / I had gone to "Home Depot" looking for a cabinet for Mothers's screws and bolts and such, but did not find anything I liked! So then I went to "Food 4 Less" (Zila took my blue pen) to buy some more fruit. I now have $95. I had to wait a long time in line. I then I went to "Walmart" to have a look. I found some brite towels and rugs. I bought a brite orange towel and 2 rugs for Alay for the kitchen floor (brite orange and raspberry "Wild Things'). And I found a plastic drawer box. So I now have $62. / Mother liked the box! "Sterilite clear view". Tonight, I worked on the "chrysalide branches". I had 6 of them! And I've discovered something with the plum fruits: The bird pecked ones are the ones that are getting the ripest. This means one of two things; that the pecking is causing the fruit to ripen sooner than the other fruit, or that the birds are choosing the ripest fruit to peck. And after I got home, I gave some food to the kittens again, for the second time on the slab of lot 88. I've been seeing them every night now. Worked 3.5.
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I laid out the rugs for Alay, but I did not have her out tonight. {I continue to have these rugs.} Zila lost my blue pen for me! (I got out another.) / I took Alay out today. She shied away from the first rug twice. Then the third time she slowly came on it. She smelled all around on the second rug (the raspberry). Then she loved it! She was jumping around and biting it! (I wonder if the raspberry rug was sold and used a bit and then refunded. When I first opened it up, I did notice two dark smudges on it.) / Today, Alay ran for about 9 feet without crashing! / I found my blue pen! Fighting at lot 30 again. Worked 2.0.
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For 3 nights in a row, either Puddypie or Zila have been tipping over the garbage bag that I have in the bathroom. I don't know who. If I had only one cat, then it would be easy to know who. But I suspect that it is Zila, because she seems to have a fascination with the lettuce. Every night I come home and find the bag tipped over. So I pick it up and clean the floor. It's irritating. So last night, when I ate lettuce again, I left 1 leaf on the floor below the bag. So then tonight, the fourth night, I came home to find that the bag was not tipped over! And it was fuller than ever, so I took it out. I cleaned up the floor in the kitchen and repositioned the rugs. Not an easy job, but I decided that I should do it. / I now have $52 (gasoline 104,888!) The irrigation was coming in when I got to the house, so I took Alay in the cage out and put her out on the lawn in the "garden" under the apricot tree. She was staggering around as usual. But then some black birds came (around 15 of them). They were landing in the apricot tree and making a lot of noise. They seemed to have been chattering at Alay. Why? They were carrying on more and more and they were scaring Alay. She could not defend against one of them, so I walked over and scared them away. Then I got to thinking about my BB rifle, I rarely ever do anything with it. So I went and got it. I started shooting at the birds. I decided to do the power of 3 pumps (I should have gone with 2). Because I was concerned that I would not have enough accuracy with 2 pumps. {I'm a good shot.} The first and second birds I think I hit, but they flew away. The third bird I hit and it died. The fourth bird (and last) I think I hit, but it flew away. At one point, I aimed at a leaf or a flower that was on top of the water, and when I shot it, it flew straight up about 5 inches and then came straight down! And at one point earlier, Alay was near the deep water, and I think she started to turn away from it and she jumped in! Then she splashed around and got out. Only her bottom half got wet. And when I was shooting, Alay played some! But not on the grass, on the board. I don't know how I feel about that bird. And the other 3 birds might die later. It's the first bird that I have killed in around 25 years by shooting, the second bird that I have ever killed by shooting, and the third bird that I have ever killed. But I was defending Alay who cannot defend herself. I was surprised that Mother had a very bad reaction when I told her. (she hates birds!) Unknown to me, Alay had eaten a bit of grass which caused her to vomit her food later after I had brought her in the house. I now have $135 (paid and for hose mender and for the drawer box.) Worked 1.0.
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I now have $129 ("Fry's" tortillas). I could not find the kittens tonight! But their mother was around. / I dreamed that I was trying to disconnect the speakers from that music that I was hearing in my dream! The music at lot 84 again! Woke with a sore throat. / Not feeling well in belly. Loud music at lot 84 again. / I found another dead bird. That's two. Worked 2.0.
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No kittens tonight. Where are they? I saw what I think was their mother over at lot 85. Belly Avenue Girls. (Back Street Boys.) / I went to the office again today to complain again about the lot 84 people. Sharee told me that she is sick and that Carla is going to Colorado for awhile to be with her sick mother. It is difficult to be angry with Sharee. I now have $87 ("APS"). I now have $72 (gas bill). / I found another dead bird today. That's three. Worked 2.5.
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I now have $68 (gasoline for mower). I now have $66 (gasoline for edger). When I was at the "Arco", I was hearing a cat (kitten) meowing. So I went across the street to the bank, and saw an older kitten, but he/she was frightened and ran. After I got home tonight, I walked home from the dumpster with the litter jug in my hand after I had dumped it. A short time later, when I was about to go inside my trailer, that strange woman of lot "87" who likes to wear black all the time, came walking by my lot from the south but she stopped for a little while and she was looking over toward me, like looking at me, but it was dark. Then she moved on and went home. Why did she do that? As I was walking by George's (lot 85), I looked over at his lot wondering if those kittens might be over there at his place because I think he puts food out for the cats. Where are the kittens? Carla was gone! But she came home, but stayed only a short time and started out again. (What is she doing?) But the woman walked over to Carla as she was leaving and said some things to her. Then Carla had her head turned to be looking over toward me as she went around the corner. Does this have anything to do with me? I heard a little bit of what the strange woman said, and it sounded like it might have been: "Your neighbor was looking in your yard." I did no such thing. {Although I was looking for the kittens.} I forgot Alay's bottle! I also forgot to bring in the gas and electric bills from the car floor. I was wondering what I should do when I got very sleepy (again) and fell asleep with the lights on again. / Music at lot 84 again. / I found another dead bird again. That's four. It is unlikely that all 4 of these birds are the 4 that I had shot at. Worked 3.0.
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What happened to the kittens? / I feel like I've been through a war. I did not get enough sleep; it started some time early this morning. Alay was doing great last night, she played on the kitchen table, and I had her out of the cage in my hands when I had Puddypie out. And on the way home, I decided to only switch on the "dome" light for a very short time so Alay would not have enough time to look up at me, as she usually does. (She positions herself in the same place in the cage, and every 2 or 3 miles when I put the light on, she looks up at me like I'm God. Many times she is looking up at me when the light is off in the dark and I cannot see her. It is neat. And there is never a whine out of her.) I do not know why I decided to discourage this, maybe things were getting too routine. (I have been taking her with me every day and I love her very very much.) And after I took her inside the trailer, I took the car cage out and worked on the bottom to make it more steady. (Every time Alay moves around the cage rocks, and it probably makes it more difficult for her to keep her balance. So I made it fairly steady.) I fell asleep (again). Then Alay started getting whiny, as usual, like for some milk after I have been sleeping for awhile. But didn't hardly want any milk. This was the beginning, she got worse and worse. It was Friday morning, she wasn't getting any better, so I decided to take her into the veterinarian as soon as I could take a shower and get dressed and loaded up. So I did, but the dodie woman gave me trouble and she was going to make me wait when she could see that there was something seriously wrong with Alay! When I had gotten Alay outside in the cage, at this point she could not move around, and when I got her there, she was worse, she was in strange body positions and did not like to be touched and was a bit whiny, and this woman was telling me that we would have to wait for the next "opening", and she would not tell me when that might be!
So I walked out. Strange: There was an attractive young woman/big girl there, and she wanted to touch Alay (I wanted to touch her!). She was asking me questions about Alay such as what is her name, and I told her. But when she touched Alay she would whine; she did not like it, and I told her so. So then I went to the veterinarian that I was going to some years ago. They were open. But there was a young "baby" woman in there behind the counter who was hardly old enough to know any thing. And there was a large black dog that a woman had in there and it was barking LOUDLY at me and the noise I could see was hurting Alay. {I hate veterinarians, they are stupid.} But they stopped the dog after a short time and the dog had made a mess on the wall in there! And I could see that they were going to make me wait and they wanted me to fill out a form. So I walked out. So I took Alay to a third veterinarian. They took Alay nearly right away. But they took her away from me into a rear room. I was walking around wondering what was going on with Alay. While I was waiting, they wanted me to fill out a form (but a short one). {I hate forms.} After awhile, the doctor came in. She has an attitude and a know-it-all manner. She was convinced that Alay had been poisoned! She said probably strychnine poisoning and she was wanting to pump Alay's stomach! And to then give her something else (charcoal). I told her that it could not be poison. She said that Alay was having a seizure, a grand mal seizure, and that she had already treated Alay by giving her an injection of a drug, Valium. I said to go ahead and do the test for feline leukemia. She said that it was okay to do the test. But I needed to go and get some more money! Because the bill was coming up to $91. More money on Alay! So I left Alay there and took off in my car to go to the house. It was getting hot! When I got to the house, Mother was stating to leave the driveway in her car! But she saw me coming in and she stopped. She said that she was very late for her hair appointment, but she came in and "paid" me all but $5. So I now have $166. And Mother and I prayed about Alay. The Lord said that Alay was probably going to die and that I should not spend any more money on her because I cannot afford to and it would not help. I asked; what should I do? The Lord said, do nothing. I returned to get Alay. The test was negative! I had decided that if so, then I would let Puddypie and Zila get as close as they wanted to with Alay. But now it might be too late because I was told that Alay might be like in a coma from being brain dead and that she "might never wake up". I asked when will the drug wear off and was told by the doctor that it would be around 2:00 or 3:00. So now I have $75. I got Alay, and she was laying there totally still, she could not move, not her eyes either. I had decided that instead of going to the house, to go home. So I went home. Then I took Alay out of the cage and put her on a paper bag on the floor. She was losing a lot of water from her open mouth, so I kept putting my "Kleenex" tissues under her head. I laid on the floor with Alay and cried for several hours. Strange thing: For a long long time, for weeks, it has been a battle trying to keep Zila away from Alay. And now Zila does not want to have anything to do with her! She spats at Alay. It was getting later in the day (after 3:00). So I decided to take Alay to the house, but first to stop in again to ask some more questions about Alay. But I could not get anywhere {with them} there, and left the phone number for the doctor to call me. Later at the house she did not call me, so I called and talked to her. I had printed a list of questions so I would not forget. One of them was again, when will the drug wear off? This time she told me: "About 40 minutes"! It was long after that! And it was after the first time that she told me, so I figured that Alay was brain dead and that she would be dying in around 3 days. At the house, I took her out of the cage and laid her on the table on her other flank and petted her and cried some more. I left her there for several hours, including when I walked away, because she could not move, so she could not fall off the table if she could not move. At one point, I was taking to her and petting her, and she slowly moved one of her rear legs! It was a bit encouraging. And later on, she had moved both her rear legs and her tail and only one eye a tiny bit, but that's all there was. I now have $80. (The other $5.) Earlier, the woman who had delivered some bags for the , was out front. I came out with my mower and was about to start mowing the lawn when I saw that she had a problem with her car, a Cadillac. It was low on oil for some unknown reason. I talked to Mother and she said okay, so I took her and that kid! Over to "Target" to get some oil. I am not feeling well at this point, having a bit of a headache which is very unusual for me. Too much crying? I came home. And in spite of Alay being "brain dead", I had her out in the cage as usual when I had Puddypie out. (She's not dead yet.) but she did move a bit. She had closed her mouth. And I saw her yawn and lick her mouth! And I was thinking; that now that Alay is "brain dead", that it is kind of ironic that I am seeing the kittens again, Alay's brothers and sisters (but there is only two of them now, the black one and the light one that is just about identical to the Siamese mother. What happened to the third one, the cute one??!!) Worked 3.0.
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After sitting out awhile, I had my lenses off, and I looked over "at Alay", and I thought I saw Alay laying on her back, with her legs up, like Teva likes to lay at night!!! I don't think that I have ever seen Alay lay like this, and she is unable to move now. It is dark, I must be seeing something that is not there. So I put my lenses on and looked again with my flashlight, and she was laying on her back with her legs up!!! I thought, how did that happen? She is able to move around a bit. / Alay moving around a bit in the home cage. / I've tried giving the bottle to Alay, but she seems to have forgotten how to suck. But she can lick and eat food. I did not get to the library branch Friday {yesterday} , so I went today. I now have $79 (library). On the chance that Alay is going to live, I went to "Pets Mart" and bought some special (and very expensive) kitten food for Alay. I now have $55. I brought Alay to the house again and Mother saw her. Alay has made a remarkable recovery from being "brain dead". She is almost as "good" as she was. That woman doctor must have given Alay a huge dose of that drug, it wasn't until the next day that it wore off! Worked 0.0.
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This is probably the last goat milk ("Safeway") that I will buy, for Alay will probably be dying soon. I now have $52. Worked 2.5.
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I now have $42 (gasoline). / I found Alay lapping up water from one of the water bowls!! / Strange thing; After I started eating my tortillas, my tongue started feeling strange. Then later, a nasty cough came upon me and I had to keep drinking a lot of water. Worked 2.5.
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Alay has relearned how to suck on the bottle, but I switched to the second bottle with the larger hole in it so that it would be easier for Alay to get the milk out of it. And immediately prior the seizure, I had stopped putting the drop of corn syrup in the milk. So no more corn syrup after this point. And also Alay has been eating more food than drinking milk. I now have $97 (paid). I now have $94 ("Fry's" tortillas). Puddypie got into another cat fight tonight. With a larger light tiger stripe gray tom cat. / I now have $73. I paid the last of the "first" veterinary bill. And cancelled the appointment (I don't think that I will ever bring any of my cats here again), and I put in some complaints. I talked to Shari and had her come over to see the problems that my neighbors are causing. For many days (while I was eating the pizza), I was not feeling well (too much pizza?). It has been very difficult for me to do things. But the other day, I felt fairly well! (Monday?) And my teeth have been hurting a bit in the "afternoon" on some days. / My teeth hurting again. Last night, I found a shelf box by the dumpster after I had gotten home. I brought it home. It was very flimsy but the rear panel had come off and it was laying on top. So today, I took it to the house and showed it to Mother. Then later, I worked on it and put the rear panel on with 30 screws! It is very solid now! This is unheard of for me: To bring something and to fix it up the "same day"! It is a great accomplishment for me. Worked 4.5.
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A pain in my lower right flank. From the moment that I got home, Puddypie has been whining, worse than ever. / He is about to drive me crazy! I think he wants a female cat. I had brought him out, but then he urinated on my car! So I took him in. He was after Zila for a long time. And Zila and Alay have been playing like crazy tonight! Alay is the same as she was or better now! / I found that my rear trailer door has been pulled from the outside and left cracked open! This is not the first time that someone has done this! What is going on? / I came out and looked around. Someone has obviously been here, there are several of my things that have been tipped over. And the first thing that I saw was a string that had been caught around my aerial and the aerial of lot 84 and up to the electric pole and way up high in the tree! When I first walked out, the string was in my face! The end of it was coming down in front of my door from my aerial. I was going to cut it, but I succeeded in unwrapping it from my aerial! And I threw it over onto the top of lot 84's trailer. Let it be their problem! (At one point, I got the string caught around my leg as I walked into my trailer.) Worked 3.5.
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I think that this is the second night that I have had all 3 of my cats out for any long time. And this is the first night that I have had Alay out all the time. / On the way to the house today, when I was on 19 Avenue going south coming around the mountain approaching Cactus, I saw a bird about the size of a dove, fly down and disappear in front of a small dark green car like an Escort. "He" was a bit of a speeder. "He" was ahead of me in the right lane and I was in the left. "He" did not brake or anything. It was only a few seconds, but it seemed like it took a long time for the bird to hit the car. Then I saw a bunch of feathers cascade over the car and then the bird came over the windshield and off to the left and then onto the street. I think the bird was dead at this point. Today, I repositioned the fence piece that is against the windmill the smart way, so that it can be mowed around and under. Worked 2.0.
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I now have $67 ("Fry's" tortillas). Tonight, I took some photographs of the cats, the second batch (at home). / I got a late start today (The late Gary Stevens), then I went on errands. I now have have $52. At "the Home Depot", I could not find the screw that I wanted, so I bought a larger screw and 2 drill bits. Then I went to "Walmart" and bought 3 of the drawer boxes for only c597 each! I now have $33. After I got to the house, I hurried and drilled (the drill bits were too large for the drill! So I had to get out another one, the large one. And the extension cable wasn't long enough, from the horse barn, so I had to get out another one. And then it was getting dark, so I got out my flashlight). Then I put in the large 10 inch screw through the h fence post and into the gazebo. I got it done! Worked 2.5.
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Strange; Alay smelled a scratch that is on my right arm, and she liked it! She opened her mouth the way cats do when they smell some thing that they like. Could she be smelling my blood? Alay went into the main tray by herself and pooped! / Today, they're flooding my lot again, the lot 84 people! And they're not even home!!! They're flooding my lot when they're gone!!! I got going too late today to get into the library! I have not seen the kittens or the mother for days, where are they? But tonight, the black kitten showed up on my lot and I gave him/her some food and I took a few photographs, and of the mother. But where is the light colored kitten? Why do these kittens keep disappearing??? The trailer at lot "87" is gone now. Why do they keep moving out and then moving in again? That large "woman" wondered by again tonight. She went slowly over to lot 87 and sat down in a couch that was left there on the slab. Is "she" homeless? Is "she" a friend of theirs? Worked 2.0.
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Some idiot playing with his car alarm this morning for hours! No chocolate today! I now have $4 (apple fruit sauce "Food 4 Less"). Teeth hurting again, when I got home I ate some pecan nuts. I now have $89 (paid). Wouldn't you know, I leave the camera at the house, then I come home to find the kittens, yes, kittens!! There were 3 of them! I thought they were gone but one. There was the black one, the light one like the mother, and the dark tiger striped one that I thought was dead some time ago ("the cute one"). I gave them some food. And the mother was there. And there were ants all over one pile of food, and the kittens would not eat it. I "took care of" the ants. And at one point, I put Alay down on the slab and she wondered (and staggered) over and ate 1 piece of the food. And the light kitten came up to Alay and smelled her a bit and Alay did not know that she was there. Worked 1.0.
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I think it was 3 Fridays ago after I had checked on my stocks, I counted only 4 of my stocks that I could sell out of without taking a loss. Only 4! 4 out of 41! That's bad, that's really bad. Then the next week, I counted 5. then the next week, which is now, I count 6! It's getting not so bad. I hope it keeps going. / Someone is home at lot 84. I hope it's not Carla. There's no car that I can see. I now have $73 (pear fruits canned "Food 4 Less". I had ran out of money yesterday.) I now have $58. I went to "Office Max" to buy some more bulldog clips, they sent for them. I now have $48 (gasoline). I now have $43. I went to "Napa" -- the main one, to buy a radiator cap and a fuel port cap. I was very disappointed that they did not have the fuel port caps. But I did buy a radiator cap -- a black one (703-2447). Worked 1.0.
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I now have $41 (lettuce "Fry's"). Wouldn't you know, I come home with the camera, and no kittens. It has been windy for several days, and now tonight, it is cool out! Worked 2.0.
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Getting a bit dizzy. Can - 15.0 of "Chef Boyardee" "Homestyle" "Rigatoni". / Some pains in left bottom flank of jaw. Worked 2.0.
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Wouldn't you know, last night the camera stopped working after I had taken about 2 photographs, so I returned it to Mother tonight. But it seemed to have worked okay for Mother, but then Mother would not let me take it again. Then after I got home tonight, without the camera, one kitten, the cute one (dark tiger stripe) and the mother came over. I gave them some food and I put Alay (again) down on the slab and she slowly walked over to the kitten but did not get too close. Also, Puddypie went to the kitten and the kitten also went to Puddypie, and there was no problem! / Teeth hurting. / I went and got the bulldog clips today. I now have $306 (paid). Worked 2.0.
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I now have $296 (tortillas "Fry's"). After I got myself going, earlier today I was doing fairly well. But I have not been feeling well almost all night tonight with a problem with my digestion, this same problem that has been plaguing me for a long long time, I think for years. What is the problem? And I found tonight that my car motor is leaking something. / Alay vomited out every thing that she ate. But she seems to be okay otherwise. And later she went and ate some more food. I went to "Fry's" to get a money order and then went to the office. Shari was gone again! But I paid the rent. I now have $42. Then I went to the library branch and for the first time they were filled up! So with less than an hour until both libraries close, I decided to go to the other library, as much as I hated the thought. So I go and I think I see Pete's car in the parking lot where he likes to park it. And I walked in and there he was! He's strange. He hasn't seen me for a long time (because I haven't been going to this library any more), and the first thing (or just about) he says to me is; I was thinking I might see you here today, and I decided that if I saw you, to tell you that I can't talk until the library closes. I saw that I was going to be there until then, because I came in at about 5:28. So then at 6:00 when it closed, we walk out and then he tells me that he cannot talk. So we talked a bit and then I took off. Then I went to "Pets Mart". So I now have $31 (cat litter). So then I went home to drop it off and to get Alay to go to the house, and again Alay was okay. Worked 2.0.
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I wish my life wasn't so miserable. I wish I had some money. I hope I don't have to wait until the end of the year for the stock market to go up. That would be another 6 months! / Alay was getting very wild last night, and I stopped Alay and Zila so that I could get some sleep. And now Alay took a leap towards me and she clawed my lip. I went to the "Safeway" close to home to buy some watermelon. I had 3 of them picked out and weighed. They seemed like good ones. Then I noticed that they were the ones at the higher price of c39 per pound, so I did not buy them. Then I rushed home and got Alay and then rushed over to "Mother's" "Safeway". Then I picked out 3 and bought them. I now have $21. And it came to exactly what I had calculated -- 10.44! {Ate watermelon.} Feeling very bad in stomach. Worked 1.0.
JULY 01
Someone has been living at lot 84. And when I came home, I saw Eric's car stopped down the street (south), with the door left open. Then as I came into my lot, Eric was walking across my lot towards his car. Then he got in his car and turned it around and went out of the park. Then later, he came by again in his car, but did not stop or slow down. What is he doing snooping around here? Probably looking for Carla. He never gives up! I think Carla is gone for now. / Earlier at the house, I brought Alay-in-the-cage up stairs and I put the "Johnny Lightning" track together and put Alay in the middle and put one of my "Sizzlers" on the track that I had charged up. It went whizzing around and around the track for what seemed a long time, and Alay attempting to keep track of it but no way she could. She was turning and falling onto the track at least twice, and stopped the "Sizzlers Camaro" I think twice. {That's her only way to catch them, to fall on the track!}
Later, at home I gave the cats some of the "Trader Joe's" canned food (not as much this time, can empty). Then later, Alay comes to me and comes up on my chest a bit and gets lovey dovie and bites my chin and wants to stay close! This is the first that she has done this. Then she went to sleep. By the way, I have been noticing that she has a black or dark brown coating or rings on the outside of her poop logs. What does this mean? And when I had the cats out tonight, I put Alay down on the slab and I think for the first time she looked at and noticed the cute kitten. Today; a car was parked at lot 84. It was a small wagon -- seafoam color.
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/ I got a very late start, but after I got to the house, I did fairly well. I told Mother what I was thinking earlier; that she's strange and that think the exact opposite some of the time. She has been hoping that I get the lawn mowed prior the rain comes, and I have been hoping that the rain comes prior I have a chance to get much of any mowing done! Then I got started mowing and then it started raining! I was then mowing in a rainstorm! I got my wish! The only things that I did not like was that I was a bit afraid that I might get hit by lightning and I was missing my shows. After awhile, the rain stopped and it did not rain again. I mowed and mowed and got the whole lawn mowed! {I'm the lawnmower man of Phoenix.} And I attempted to get Mother to watch "Star Kid", but I walked out at the first break and then Mother switched it. She's too far gone to know what a good show is. "Wall Street Week" was not on tonight. Something strange going on with "KAET", the X Files were on but nothing to watch! Worked 3.5.
02
I now have $11 (gasoline). I came home to find a large white "Chevy" coupe parked at lot 84. Then when I came in I found that Puddypie or Zila had tipped over the garbage bag again! So I did not let either of them out. (Zila has been wanting out every night now.) Then as I came walking in from putting some garbage out, Zila slashed out and clawed my ear! So I got after her (it was a very poor decision for her to do that). Then Puddypie was whining, so I got after him also. I noticed earlier in the day that Alay's head is different now. It's larger, she's getting bigger. She has a very camouflaged face. / I have not been doing well at all these days. What's wrong with me? I got going very late again today. I got only the front lawn edged. I'm not working enough. The greatest "things" I have other than Mother are Puddypie and Zila and Alay. And I had missed all my shows but the last one and Mother interrupted me watching that. But I did get an idea for the concrete area in front of the extra parking spot, and I got busy and made a board with 2 stakes screwed to it and pounded it into the lawn at about where I think it should go. Then I showed it to Mother and showed her how I think that they should do the concrete. I think she liked the idea and wants Eric {brother} to see it. And last night my watch band fell apart and tonight I put in another spring bar. I now have $81 (paid). Worked 1.0.
03
Some achy pains in my right chest area after I got home. And then I found a lump under the skin in front of my right ear. And it was sore and there was some pain in that area. What's wrong with me? Then when I brought the cats in, Zila seemed to be overheated and panting a bit and breathing very rapidly and shallow. Is something wrong with her? I hope not! But why does she have a lot of fur? Much more than Puddypie does and Alay has hardly any. / It is very hot today. I walked to the office to complain about lot 84 again. There is supposed to be no one living there. Their air conditioner is rattling loudly and has been for a long time, I think for more than a year. The wind blew their aerial over and it is hanging over my car and no one is doing any thing about it. There is a young woman living there with a baby but she has no car and I have not seen her yet. Then I rushed to the house with Alay and then I found my grease pump in the horse barn and put some of the grease in my edger (it was not at home). Then I edged the lawn -- the rear lawn, and I was wiped out. Mother was pushing me to do more, but I could not do one thing more. She does not know how difficult it is to edge. I'm glad I had only the rear to edge, I hate to think what it would have been like if I had edged for another hour. Then I brought Alay out on the lawn and then it got a bit windy and then was lightning and thunder and it rained a bit. I was sitting over on the horse barn sidewalk staying out of the rain, and Alay was under the hedge. Then I started calling Alay (she seemed restless), and then she "ran" over to me! She was moving very strangely, I wish I could have recorded it. It was like she was walking under water or walking in slow motion like in a dream. Maybe she was moving this way because the grass was a bit wet. Later at the house, I got to feeling bad, I don't know why except that I did not take that one pill earlier. Worked 2.5.
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All three of the kittens showed up one by one, and the mother. {Why didn't I get them as my cats??} I put out some food and this time I put out a bowl of water for them so that they do not need to go off to under someone's sewer to get a drink of water after eating my food. I came home to find another different car parked at lot 84 - a Chrysler Jeep. It has sounded like Carla, but Carla is supposed to be gone for now, but now I hear Carla and Eric having another fight. My watch band tore out at the same place that I had put in another spring bar! (When I took it off tonight.) I forgot the water jugs in the trunk, so I put on my socks and shoes again and went out and got them. / I woke up today thinking; "I need to get up and switch on the cooler". But it was on! I lay under it! I rushed over to the library today to take a look at some stocks, but the library was closed. I did not know that this was the "Fourth". Then I rush around to "Target" and "K-Mart" and "Walmart" looking for a good price on "Kleenex" tissue, but I did not find it. I had a bit of an uncomfortable ache - like pain in the "bottom" of my left butt while I was sitting. / I wish I could do better. Worked 2.0.
05
I was extra late at the house tonight. Now I have a new watch band: "Oil Leather with fabric". I went upstairs and was attempting to put it on and Mother was griping at me (again). / Something strange happening in my belly. It started with a thump, thump, thump, in about the middle of my belly. Then some heat going through my body. I am getting very uncomfortable. What is going on? I have been laying on my belly for a few minutes. / All my cats are laying around sleeping! Now all my cats are awake and around me! It has started to rain. But it stopped again. / Zila is my princess! Alay climbed up on my back and stayed a little while! Now there is a dark blue Camaro at lot 84! I now have $48 ("Electro-Vita-Min"). I wish I could do better. I got going very late again. It was cloudy and not as hot, so I did not bring the freezer packs for Alay. After working and watching a bit of television, I took Alay up stairs and cleared off the top of the filing cabinets. I had to fight off the dizziness some of the time. When I got home, some of the kittens were waiting for me! And I petted the cute tiger stripe for a little while, and it's a she. {This is Cutie.} Zila wanted to go in for the second time and stay in. Maybe it was all the cats out there. Then I played with the cute one with her chasing after Zila's leash! And Alay watched, and she did not want to go in this time as she usually does. Worked 1.5.
06
Tonight, Zila has gotten Alay all fired up (they play rough), and now Alay has ran and ran and ran (in a straight line!) until she hit my book (at the front of my bed), then she bounced off of it! / I wish my stocks would go up. I wish I had a house. / It's raining! / I'm not doing well. I got going late again today. I wish I could do better. What's wrong with me? I rushed over to the library branch, to find that they were about to close. So I hardly got anything done with my stocks. Then I rushed to "Home Depot" looking to buy some plywood. It costs too much! I don't have the money! (more than $50.) I wish I had more money. I wish my stocks would go up! And if I did buy it, it won't fit in my car. Woe is me. Then I went rushing home to get Alay. On the way, I was stopping in the right left turn lane on thunderbird with a red arrow waiting to turn on to 19 Avenue. There was a souped-up Mustang in front of me with it being the first car, and on the rear end it said; "I'm not speeding, I'm qualifying". And there was another souped-up Mustang beside me in the left left turn lane with another older Mustang in front of him. And I said to myself; "Is this a Mustang convention?" I was ready and waiting for the green arrow! {I hate Mustangs, I love to beat them, they're slow.} Then it came and the Mustang in front of me took off, and I took off! But this "first" Mustang turned off to the right and slowed down and turned into the "Arco" station. He was gone and out of my way! As we were turning, I had heard, I think it was the "second" (older) Mustang, roaring loudly as I had passed the "third" and the "second"; on the outside! I had passed them both! Then after a little while, the "second" passed me and went on ahead a bit and then went into the left lane to turn left into one of those apartment places. Then, coming from way behind me, the "third" came "screaming" past me and he went way up ahead at high speed, way over the speed limit (I was going about 50) and then he moved over from the left lane to the right and he disappeared, But I had beaten them! At least for a little while (until I stopped accelerating). Can my car beat a Mustang? Just about any Honda can beat my car. Can just about any Honda beat a Mustang? {My Omni is a race car!} Then with Alay, I rushed over to Mother's "Safeway", and put in my complaint about the 3 watermelons that I had bought there, that they weren't hardly any good. And they let me have 3 more -- no charge! But later, at the house, I had one of them and it was the worst one yet! I'm glad I didn't pay for it. Worked 1.0.
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I should be enjoying this life more. I don't have much, but I have Puddypie and Zila and Alay. There is {to go} the summer and the autumn and the winter. I hope that my suffering will be mostly over by the end of the year. Then I could begin to start a new life for myself -- a life with money! {-From my stocks.} / Feeling very discouraged about my life and I did not want to go to bed. A sting in the left part of my head! It was like bones moving. But the sting in my head turned out to be encouraging. / Very difficult to get myself woke up. {-For almost 2 hours.} Frustrating: I got going very late again today, with only a few minutes until the library closes. And then my car door lock won't work anymore! What do I do? How do I get to the library? I squirted lots of oil into the lock. That did nothing. Then I got out one of my extension claw things and put it through the gap at the top of the window and down and grabbed hold of the lock knob and pulled it up. But where do I keep the grabber? I can't keep it locked in the car. Then I would not be able to get to it. So I began to think about how I could attach it to the out side of the car so that it would not be seen and would not fall off. Then it dawned on me; the trunk. The trunk has a different key and lock! So I put it in the trunk and then took off to the library. And again, I got there so late that I could not finish my checking. But for Friday, my second group was not doing badly, up $10. I now have $47 (library). I had Alay out on the lawn again for a short time while I was working. When I take her out of the cage and put her on the grass, she does not like to be on the grass, but she does not stay with the cage. Today, she got over to the hedge fence (on the south side). Then when I was going to bring her into the cage, I called to her from about the middle of the "garden", where the cage was. I called and called. She was trying, but she was stuck in the dip, against the fence. When she would start to come up over the "hill", she would turn and fall in again. I said to her that if that was filled with water she'd drowned. Then after awhile, she got herself out and she came over to me, and when she got to me, she started purring loudly. Worked 2.0.
08
/ It's raining. I wish I could have gone to the chocolate -- up late again today. Alay has been getting very rambunctious, running around and playing wildly with Zila. I went to the library again today, for the third time to finish doing my checking on the stocks. I took me about 35 minutes for me to finish. There was a very drunk man sitting who was very obnoxious because he was talking loudly to himself. Alay saw me sweeping the bathrooms patio tonight. On the table she seemed to act differently somehow tonight. And she fell off the table again, but I caught her and then she immediately scurried her way to the table by putting her claws in my shirt like a tractor with claws instead of tracks. But a bit later she fell into the food bowl and she then moved away from it rapidly and in so doing, slipped off the table again. I could not catch her this time, she was on the other side. I was watching "French Kiss" (1995) (-a lousy show), when Meg Ryan fell on the food trays in the kitchen, then Alay fell. So I rushed over to the floor, and Alay seemed to be okay -- again. It was a "cool" day today. Not hot. Worked 3.0.
09
I now have $31 (tortillas and lettuce "Fry's"). I was nearly out of both. I got lucky tonight getting both at the same place at the same time. Some idiot mexicans in a small red car with loud exhaust (I think a Volkswagen) came through the park very slowly. I think they were drunk, they were talking loudly. They threw a beer bottle out of their car. {And this is a Sunday night! Mexicans are weird.} Alay has been becoming increasingly whiny when I go to check her and to clean her up after she has pooped in the tray. She goes to turn {to cover it up as cats like to do}, then falls into it. And she steps in it. This time, she was more whiny and she growled and spat. She had stepped in it. Alay has been seeing the kittens outside. Could it be that she is getting angry that they can walk okay and she cannot? {These kittens are Alay's brothers and sisters.} / Strange things like this one has been happening once in awhile with Alay: She came toward me, I started petting her. Then, as if I touched the wrong spot on her back, she rapidly reversed and then flipped over. This is the worst that has happened so far. Then after a bit, she was okay. For the first time, Alay wondered around while I was trimming around the bathrooms patio today, and she was playing with the Bougainvillea flowers that I had cut off. I got the photographs tonight. And I was laughing, some of them are great. And for the first time tonight, Mother said to me that I need a large house with 3 (?) bedrooms and a nice (or large) yard! It rained while I was in the house, but when I got going home, there was no rain. Worked 3.0.
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I now have $21 (gasoline). I switched door locks! It was very very difficult, an ordeal, and I almost did not get it done, because of those stupid repair book people (I have 3 repair books for my car). They are supposed to tell us how to do these things. How to take something apart and how to put something together. But they don't. It's a struggle for me trying to figure out how to work on my car (or my Jeep). I would like to sue those people!!! Then I went around my trailer to find that my blankets were matted down on the roof. It's not going to work like that! The wind blows the blankets up and then it rains. I could not pull them down with my rake, So I got my small ladder and pulled them down and put clothes pins on them. / Alay growling in her sleep. / I found Puddypie wearing on the top of his head, one of those jug cap rings! I guess it had gotten picked up by my foot and landed on his head. It was like a tiny hat for him. When I saw it, I looked down and told him about it, that's when he looked up at me and it fell off. A first; while I was working on the other side of the lawn, I had taken Alay out of her cage on the horse barn sidewalk and for awhile, she did not whine! Later, because Alay had started whining when I walked away, I put her in the cage and left her there for awhile after dark. I have done this some of the time. Then at around 9:00, I walked out in the dark to bring in Alay. I walked out to the cage to find Alay standing in front of the cage! I was nearly certain that I had left her in the cage. I guess that she had pushed on the hatch and it had flipped open and then she climbed out. I wonder what long she had been out. I'm glad that I went out when I did, I had left her for awhile. Then later the irrigation came in. I might have stepped on her walking out thinking that she was in the cage and if I had left her out much longer, she might have drowned! It's like I have a new door lock! Mother was nasty to me tonight. I guess only because I had not swept and she thought I was going to be there doing my laundry until 12:00 or 1:00. Worked 3.0.
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I am having trouble with coughing. Something bothering my throat. / On the way to the house I saw a sticker on the rear bumper of a small truck that read; "I carry no money in vehicle -- my wife and kids have it all!" / I now have $126 (paid and for screw and drill bits). Strange; after coming home, I was out for about 45 minutes without Zila because she did not want out bad enough (Zila only wants out for a short time, then she wants in) and there was no sign of the kittens, of which Zila does not like (yet). Then I let Zila out and suddenly the kittens come running, one after the other! Worked 2.0.
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/ Today I saw a small dark red truck with the boy who urinates on things {on a sticker} on the rear window, but the boy was kneeling down in front of a cross and praying. I have been doing very poorly recently. Although I have been getting home earlier, I have been getting to bed later and getting to sleep much later and getting up later and therefore getting to work later. What do I do all that time at night? Mother has been complaining. I work for awhile, then I get to feeling very bad so that I cannot do anymore. Last night I wanted to call for pizza, but I felt so bad that I couldn't. And when I got to feeling better, it was too late to call for it. Part of the problem is that I have run out of most of my "Trader Joe's" food. I have been very low on money, so I haven't been to "Trader Joe's" for a long time. And I think another part has to do with the heat. For many years I have not done well during the heat. Maybe "Pizza Hut" pizza will help. I haven't had that in a long time either, and mother does not want any. I now have $110. {Got the pizza.} I've read about "Enterprise" in the "TV Guide" and seen their starship design. I knew their plans would be all wrong, I knew it without a doubt. I would like to send a very short letter to Rick Berman, but I don't know if I can. {-A terrible waste of time!} Worked 2.0.
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I did a terrible thing: I came home tonight and was smelling that stink again from the drain pipes. (I think {brother} Eric did not pipe it the correct way.) So I started flushing the toilet (that is usually where it is) and I was calling Zila over to watch. But Zila was afraid of it. (She has enjoyed watching it in the past.) So I went and picked her up and held her when I flushed it but she became very afraid and was jerking around and because I did not have a good grip on her she jumped out of my hands and nearly landed on Puddypie. (Puddypie is not a bit afraid.) So I was determined to show Zila it so that she would not be afraid of it and could enjoy it again. So I went and got her again and was going to hold her tight this time so that she could not get away. Then I flushed it again with my foot. She started jumping around in my hands. So then I pressed in with a lot of force with my hands on her mid body (behind front legs) and when
I did, my hands suddenly moved inward and I felt and heard a pop. She then stopped for a moment then stared moving again and I let her go. I was then terribly afraid that I had hurt her badly. For a long time I prayed and cried for my very precious Zila. I could not ask for a more loving cat than my sweet Zila. She has a lot of love in her. And to lose her or badly injure her would be absolutely devastating to me, especially in such a dumb way only to show her the flushing toilet that really has no importance. I kept checking her, but she seemed to be okay. By the way, Zila's claws are very sharp now, I wonder about Puddypie's. / Teresa had taken my pen, and she returned it today, but without the cap!I can't use it without the cap. There is definitely something wrong with Alay. She fights the bottle furiously every time. She won't take enough of the milk. She fights the bottle with all her strength. So much so that she claws her own face. Tonight she clawed a small chunk out of her right cheek. If this continues she will die. What is wrong with her? She is a very sweet cat. A light was out on the house east front wall. I was sweeping so I could use the light, so I took the huge housing off and put in a 100 watt bulb, I think it had a 60 watt bulb but seemed to be a heavy duty socket. Then I went to put on the housing again and then there was a loud sparking and then the light went out! I might have been electrocuted! I'm glad I wasn't. Worked 4.5.
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I did a terrible thing: I came home tonight and was smelling that stink again from the drain pipes. (I think {brother} Eric did not pipe it the correct way.) So I started flushing the toilet (that is usually where it is) and I was calling Zila over to watch. But Zila was afraid of it. (She has enjoyed watching it in the past.) So I went and picked her up and held her when I flushed it but she became very afraid and was jerking around and because I did not have a good grip on her she jumped out of my hands and nearly landed on Puddypie. (Puddypie is not a bit afraid.) So I was determined to show Zila it so that she would not be afraid of it and could enjoy it again. So I went and got her again and was going to hold her tight this time so that she could not get away. Then I flushed it again with my foot. She started jumping around in my hands. So then I pressed in with a lot of force with my hands on her mid body (behind front legs) and when
I did, my hands suddenly moved inward and I felt and heard a pop. She then stopped for a moment then stared moving again and I let her go. I was then terribly afraid that I had hurt her badly. For a long time I prayed and cried for my very precious Zila. I could not ask for a more loving cat than my sweet Zila. She has a lot of love in her. And to lose her or badly injure her would be absolutely devastating to me, especially in such a dumb way only to show her the flushing toilet that really has no importance. I kept checking her, but she seemed to be okay. By the way, Zila's claws are very sharp now, I wonder about Puddypie's. / Teresa had taken my pen, and she returned it today, but without the cap!I can't use it without the cap. There is definitely something wrong with Alay. She fights the bottle furiously every time. She won't take enough of the milk. She fights the bottle with all her strength. So much so that she claws her own face. Tonight she clawed a small chunk out of her right cheek. If this continues she will die. What is wrong with her? She is a very sweet cat. A light was out on the house east front wall. I was sweeping so I could use the light, so I took the huge housing off and put in a 100 watt bulb, I think it had a 60 watt bulb but seemed to be a heavy duty socket. Then I went to put on the housing again and then there was a loud sparking and then the light went out! I might have been electrocuted! I'm glad I wasn't. Worked 4.5.
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I was on my way home on 19 Ave going north. I had come around the mountain after Cactus, then close to Wood, I saw a plate like object laying on the street, it seemed like a wall switch cover. So I decided to turn around and look at it. I was not to do that. I slowed down, then I turned around, but in doing so, I heard an alarm going off and I looked over and saw that the alarm was from a small white car parked in a carport of a house on the east side of the street shortly after (north) Wood, and I saw a man dashing away from the car and he then jumped into a small white truck, I think it was a Ford, with damage to one corner of the front end and one headlight was out. The truck was parked out on the street, a side street. Then he took off down that side street going north. At first I was confused, I thought, why is he running away from the car? When ever a car alarm goes off, someone runs out to the car to switch it off. But this guy was running away from the car. And then I saw someone come out of the house, and at that moment, it occurred to me that this guy was attempting to steal that car, I think a Honda. So I decided to follow him and to call the Police. So I did. This is the first time that I have called the Police with the phone in my car.
It worked fairly well, but not perfect. {The phone.} He went down the side street, then onto 19 Avenue. Then not quite to Thunderbird, then he moved all the way over to the left, and turned around. Then south aways. Then he turned off and went down a short street and stopped at the end for awhile. I think this turned out to be across from that same house on the west side. After thinking about it, this guy seemed to have only half a brain. But I was rather sloppy in following him. I had trapped myself on the side street (the dead end south of him). I had attempted to turn around while I was holding the phone, then I decided to reverse out. And as I was reversing across the street where he was, I saw that he was starting to come out! So I kept reversing aways and he came out onto 19 again going north. So I turned around and went in the same direction and then I turn out onto 19 to follow him. Then I think he got through the green light and I had to stop on the red at Thunderbird. But the lights are so short there that I was soon following him again. But he was aways ahead and he turned off on the right (east). I did not see exactly which turn it was, so I lost him. {I was only half-heartedly trying to get this guy caught, and should not have been at all, especially with Alay in the car and my precarious situation of my life. But I kept trying to do what I could.} The woman on the phone kept asking me where I was going to be (gosh, the Police are inapt!), so I told her at the "Arco" station at Thunderbird. So then I went to the house (it was straight across from the stop sign north of Wood) and waited a bit. Then someone started coming out of the house, so I came into the driveway and talked to them. A small young woman and a very large man. They were friendly and they told me that they had had 3 burglaries in a year. Then I went to "Arco" and waited for the Police. It didn't take very long for him to come (But they are slow!). I told him all about it, then he went south (I guess to the house). I don't know if he knew that I was on to him. {-The burglar.} For a brief time, I had all 3 of my sweetiepies outside my trailer: Puddypie, Zila, Alay. / I now have $57 (the special food for Puddypie). Worked 2.0.
I did a terrible thing: I came home tonight and was smelling that stink again from the drain pipes. (I think {brother} Eric did not pipe it the correct way.) So I started flushing the toilet (that is usually where it is) and I was calling Zila over to watch. But Zila was afraid of it. (She has enjoyed watching it in the past.) So I went and picked her up and held her when I flushed it but she became very afraid and was jerking around and because I did not have a good grip on her she jumped out of my hands and nearly landed on Puddypie. (Puddypie is not a bit afraid.) So I was determined to show Zila it so that she would not be afraid of it and could enjoy it again. So I went and got her again and was going to hold her tight this time so that she could not get away. Then I flushed it again with my foot. She started jumping around in my hands. So then I pressed in with a lot of force with my hands on her mid body (behind front legs) and when
I did, my hands suddenly moved inward and I felt and heard a pop. She then stopped for a moment then stared moving again and I let her go. I was then terribly afraid that I had hurt her badly. For a long time I prayed and cried for my very precious Zila. I could not ask for a more loving cat than my sweet Zila. She has a lot of love in her. And to lose her or badly injure her would be absolutely devastating to me, especially in such a dumb way only to show her the flushing toilet that really has no importance. I kept checking her, but she seemed to be okay. By the way, Zila's claws are very sharp now, I wonder about Puddypie's. / Teresa had taken my pen, and she returned it today, but without the cap!I can't use it without the cap. There is definitely something wrong with Alay. She fights the bottle furiously every time. She won't take enough of the milk. She fights the bottle with all her strength. So much so that she claws her own face. Tonight she clawed a small chunk out of her right cheek. If this continues she will die. What is wrong with her? She is a very sweet cat. A light was out on the house east front wall. I was sweeping so I could use the light, so I took the huge housing off and put in a 100 watt bulb, I think it had a 60 watt bulb but seemed to be a heavy duty socket. Then I went to put on the housing again and then there was a loud sparking and then the light went out! I might have been electrocuted! I'm glad I wasn't. Worked 4.5.
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